sorry but it's back again

angry shark up ahead proceed with caution

So my parents think that just because I don't do what they say, I don't want to get better at volleyball.

Are you fucking KIDDING? If I always ask to go play at places and do tournaments AND PLAY ON TEAMS BETTER THAN ME, is that NOT getting BETTER?!

Yeah it IS getting me better. I do private lessons like everyday of the week along with practice! So what if it's school?! So what if it's at OP2?! At least it's more REPS!!

Have you even SEEN ME on last Thursday night when I was KILLING THE BALL? Did you not see those hits? Those passes and SETS?!

For fucks sake!! One of the dads even yelled 'GET READY' when I was hitting!! Is that not good enough for you? Have you not seen my improvement?!? You want me to improve? That's all I've been doing FOR FIVE YEARS.

Sometimes I just feel like YOU ONLY WANT ME to do what YOU WANT. NOT BECAUSE OF VOLLEYBALL, but so I can be what YOU WANT. not what i want. you want me to be a top player? WELL THIS ISNT HOW YOU GET THERE.

'Oh but we're your parents, we want you to get better.'

No don't give me that shit.

does making me cry, making me hate myself from head to toe make me better?! NO BECAUSE THATS DOUBTING MYSELF AND THAT MAKES ME WORSE. You even said it YOURSELVES. That's EXACTLY why i was on THE 2's TEAM AND NOT THE 1's! BECAUSE I CANT GET COACHED BY COACHES WHO YELL AND SCREAM AT ME.

ITS NOT EVEN 9 IN THE MORNING AND ALREADY YOU HAVE MADE ME CRY.

Ugh sometimes you don't care, you just don't.

Only twice have you ever said 'Oh that's ok take your time.'

AND LOOK AT THAT!! I DID IT!!

Maybe try being NICER about it. IM YOUR DAUGHTER, NOT AN OLYMPIC PLAYER...

yet

But yes

I want to get better.
I want to succeed.
I want to be a top player.

but very obviously I don't do well to aggressive coaching.

so please... be nicer and just be patient.
i might be just a teenager but i also have my needs.

sorry if i scared y'all... when i'm mad i can get pretty.... er...

aggressive ,_,