Today already hasn't been the best day for me.

My Dad woke me up late, and I started crying because I got so stressed and I lost my phone (found it though) and then after that I broke down crying because I had to do chores that would originally take me 2 hours in the morning and try to fit it into 30 minutes. Then I got pissed at My Dad for waking me up late he got Pissed at me back because of what happened yesterday and for me being mad.

(Yesterday I wasn't in the best mood and I cussed going up to the house and when he tried to take away my phone I refused and he went around the house stomping around and throwing shit and yelling at me as my Mom was outside cooking. I locked myself in my room until I had to take my dogs out... It... It wasn't fun...)

So then my Mom went nice and let me stay home but now my dad is pissed because he thinks that I just don't want to go to school. ITS MY LAST DAY BEFORE COMPLETION TOMORROW! AND I GAVE UP A FIELD TRIP BECAUSE I WAS TOO TERRIFIED--NO BEYOND THAT-- TO EVEN GET ALONE IN A CAR WITH HIM!

So now he's pissed at that, and when my Mom called me to do something not too long ago he stomped over right when I opened my door to do it and went "I GOT IT!" And after he did it he glared at me and said sternly "Useless Bitch" and walked away.

So THAT made me cry more.

And they wonder to the high heavens WHY I hate myself.

When All they do is have to look at the hell that is this house.

And my "Jail Cell" that is my room is my only salvation from it. If rather be alone in here than be by others in hell.

And now I leave you guys alone with my burdening ass and starve myself. I'm fat anyway. I don't need anything. I'll be fine.

Bye

-Autumn Aimee-Joe Beeler
Aka
Shiny