sometimes I get upset over smallish things that aren't really a big deal but they feel like a big deal to me and it's really hard to explain why I feel this way

at home I spend a lot of time silently seething with frustration

a few days ago i was talking to my sister about FD and i said something about how angsty my writing is, and my mom goes "At least you're not being as angsty as you were this time last year."

!?!?!?!?!?!??!!!

1. she wasn't part of the conversation at all and is always yelling at my sister for eavesdropping???

2. i wasn't being angsty, i was dEPRESSED?? i wanted to kILL MYSELF??
and yes it's a good thing I'm currently not like that, but what the fuck mom???

3. and you KNOW i was actually depressed, because you're the one who lied to me about getting diagnosed and tried to put me on medication???

i didn't bother to reply

i don't know why i can't just get along with my family

they're just

insensitive

and i'm too sensitive

i would like very much to disappear

-Rush💔