Is the point where I just don't want to exist because it's too much of a bother caring

This isn't some edgy mood tho, it's just that I don't care and it worries me

I mean literally the only things that are keeping me from totally not caring if I died one second later are my mom, my friends and my potential

Sometimes I don't really care about any of those (sorry y'all, I love you but I'm strange sometimes)

Wtf is this mindset, help me, I hate being lazy and not giving a flip

Besides this, I have a few drawings that I STILL cannot post because I'm arriving home so lately ;-; I'm slapping myself if I don't upload something tomorrow