So...I've been gone for a while :/

Now, I promise that nothing traumatic or life changing happened, no, none of that. It's just a lot of different events that took up a lot of my time and mental energy, along with some other stuff.

A couple of the smaller reasons that I've been gone are because of personal drama, the ending of the school year, and our internet blew out for a week. But those are pretty secondary. There's 2 main reasons, and I feel the need to address it because you I think you deserve to know.

I know that a lot of you are fellow artists and writers, so this should be easy to understand. You know how you get Artist's/Writer's block from time to time? And sometimes it lasts a day or two and then sometimes it lasts several weeks? Well...that's kinda what happened to me, except instead of it affecting my writing or drawings, it affected my motivation/inspiration to upload. So kinda like a....Upload-Block?? (Feel free to make that a hashtag lol)

But it's literally just uploading, not Wattpad as a whole. I've been on Wattpad several times throughout the course of my apprentice, it's just that I haven't posted. So yeah.

The 2nd reason: is because of requests. Don't get me wrong, I love the fact that you enjoy my art enough to want me to have something drawn for you personally, and I thank you all for it very much! I am truly blessed to have you all. And it's not because you've been sending too many or whatever. As a matter of a fact, it's got nothing to do with you guys at all. It's just me...I've felt a disconnect when it comes to drawing requests recently.

Which is why I'm unplugging any requests that have been given to me but haven't been done, and all future ones, for the time being.

I know that that's very unfair to those who have been patiently waiting for their request to get done, and have graciously acknowledged the fact that I have my own life to handle on top of requests. But I'll explain my reasoning for doing this. I can't say that anything actually triggered my disconnect from requests, only that it happened naturally (just like an Artist's/Writer's Block) But the reasoning for the unplugging of requests is because I've heard numerous stories about Artists drowning in requests/commissions and putting themselves through hell to get them done, whether they ended up pleased with their finished product or not. It's called Burn-Out. From what I can tell, it's miserable. Their mental and physical health drop, stress and worry consume their lives, they peer pressure themselves into drawing what other people want them to draw, and not only does drawing become torture for them, but their art suffers because of it. Not to mention, the lack of sleep.

Now, I've put myself threw hell before (not with drawing, but I'm 100% certain that they have their similarities.) And looking back, I realize that there were moments where requests mildly stressed me out, and that if I took it too far (which is extremely easy to do) I could end up getting burn out. Which would not be good for you as the viewers, or me and my sanity. Basically, what I'm trying to say is that I'm so incredibly sorry that this is a bit unfair to some of you, but trust me when I say that this is better for everyone.

(I'm pretty sure this is one of the very few times in my life where I'm not even hesitating to stick up for myself vs. disappointing people)

...

WOOF

Now that that's out of the way, who wants to see drawings??

So this is a D&D thing (because at this point, what isn't?) And we're doing a future campaign where all of our characters are monsters/humanoid monsters and this is mine. She has no name or background or anything because I've been really busy and I don't really need to worry about it till the time comes. All I really know is that she was originally a normal human but somehow got cursed into being half Ice Mephit...so now she's like a humanoid Ice Mephit....FUN (AND THIS WAS SO STINKING HARD TO DRAW AND COLOR)

(Idk why the lighting is so bad in this one)

So this is Nivana (Also D&D. Shut up. Don't judge) She's a SunElf Bard, and she loves the violin and her Phoenix, Sunny. (She's a dork, so she named her bird Sunny despite it being a boy). Sunny's actually kinda interesting tho, because Sunny actually turns into back and forth between being a Phoenix and a large Amber that's in her staff. It's a family heirloom that gets passed down every generation, and every time it does, it dies and then comes back as a baby Phoenix without any of it's previous memories. It basically gets reborn. It's pretty cool. She also has a twin brother that went missing when they were really young and no one knows what happened to him....*clicks tongue* needless to say, I let the DM have a bit of fun with that one.

This is a re-draw of window girl from waaaaaaay back when. Hey man, I needed to do something while our internet was out, so I redrew that while listening to Pixar's Brave. (I swear, DVDs were made for Internet blow-outs) And I just wanted to brag and say that I didn't use ANY references while drawing this 😎. (I don't have a phone, I just have my old IPad and it doesn't have Data, so couldn't do literally anything.) But this is the first time I think I've ever drawn a realistic human....ever. Every time I've ever done realism was when I was drawing animals...dang. I'm really proud of this one.

So this is a drawing I made of one of my friends, but I'm really happy with it so I wanted to show it. If you're wondering about that blob on the side of her thigh, then it's because I wrote her name there and I obviously had to block it out for privacy reasons. I did mess up really bad tho, but I think I covered it up as best I could and it's not too noticeable.

...What? No, I'm not gonna tell you what it was.

Anyway, I hope you guys liked the drawings, I hope you're all okay with the requests thing, and I finally feel ready to pick up uploading again, so that'll be happening again. Have a wonderful day, and tell me what you think!