June 5, 2020

Yow

It's 1 AM

I woke up about 30 minutes ago but I couldn't go back to sleep because there's a feeling I couldn't shake away

I don't normally rant here anymore but this thing won't go away until I let it out

So here goes my lil drama...

It's an ache

An ache for many things and for things I don't know the reason for

An ache for all the regrets I ever had for things I didn't get to do

An ache for the feelings I never felt and will never feel

An ache for the "things" I'm not allowed to have

An ache for things that are about to happen that I greatly fear

An ache for all the destruction around me and my head

And many more

I feel like many things will not be fixed and will go the way I expect them to any longer

I just don't want to feel bothered about all this anymore

I feel so many emotions but at the same time I feel like I lack them

I hope this ache ends soon

Because if it doesn't it'll go on forever

*comethru started playing and it calms me a little lol*

*ok emo hours are over*

Thanks for listening to my lil vent uwu