Anyone with even faint recognition of the title I will now have a connection with forever OwO

BUTTTTTT I ENTERED TWO CONTESTS I'M SO LATE FOR
HECK I'M BAD I DON'T EVEN HAVE MY ENTRY FOR MY ART CLASS CONTEST DONE YET

SO HERE'S THIS BECAUSE EVEN SANDY WAS ONCE A SMOL CHILD-KITTEN
Willowflame522

I colored this and decided to try out the style since I liked it ^^

Sandbox is great 👍

But I've also come to a realization that makes me really sad;
I don't listen to music anymore.

Now clearly this isn't completely true, as I'm in dance and choir and I have a car radio after all. But now I nearly never listen to anything on my own, probably due in part to the fact that I can't own the music I want to listen to and don't have YouTube Red to listen to it while I'm doing other things on my phone, which even then has to be on in order to play it.

The other part of it is that I'm falling out of touch with more than a few artists and songs, and while drifting back to the songs I used to love so much isn't a bad thing they aren't easily accessible or I don't remember them enough to find them.

What makes this harder is that I'm trying to pull myself out of SAD and most of my struggles are suddenly becoming exposed. At a time where I can most appreciate a break and getaway I'm loosing sight and touch with something that I know can give me that needed rest.

I don't see the two friends I have the deepest connection with that much anymore, as I'm in different classes and lunch from one and the other doesn't even go to my school. That's been affecting me a lot, as a lot of my family isn't consistently there for me and the person I'm closest with is without a doubt or hesitation my younger sister who has her own life and struggles she's facing.

A bunch of stuff has just started coming up, including some stuff that had disappeared in the past and suddenly resurrected. It's all for sure too much to list as this chapter is already a little lengthy, and I've begun to sort of hate typing. I crave human contact, and it's a huge step to even get to hear someone's voice instead of reading the words off in my head to myself.

Alongside this, I'm well-aware by now that I'm addicted to my phone. I've for so long just been accepting it, and when I use it while I'm with someone there's a well-apparent gap that forms between us. So I'm trying to start slowly using it less, to get more sleep and be in the moment when I'm with someone.

I'm hoping I can find my way again soon, return to writing, art, singing and dancing in a new hue. Until then you might find me a little distant or off, but eventually I know I'll be okay.
-Cavy
(3/19/18)