I am hurt... Very hurt... With my husband... And what hurts me more isn't what he is doing but the fact that he doesn't even acknowledge that I'm hurt... He doesn't even know me... When he is angry, hurt, frustrated, happy... I am the first one to understand his feelings... But when it's about me no one cares to understand... Not only him, his family also... For them I'm just a happy go lucky girl who always do mad things, is always happy and forgive everyone for their mistakes... But how can they forget that I'm human also? I also have feelings inside me, the fact that I behave madly in front of others doesn't mean that I'm mad only...

Even a joker does his job at the circus making people happy... That doesn't mean that he lives his life laughing and doesn't get hurt...

But looks like Arnav and his family will never understand this...

But it was my fault too... My selfless nature made me accept Sheetal and her son enter in our lives so easily that they started gaining importance in my husband's life....

But it is his fault too, how can he give his ex girlfriend more importance than his wife? How can he start treating me badly in front of everyone? I was mad when he fell in love with me, and now he has problems with the way I behave... He wants me to be like Sheetal... Like really? Then why doesn't he get married to Sheetal then? He doesn't leave me but at the same time always finding mistakes in me that I have started thinking that he is indirectly telling me to leave...

After that Shyam fiasco got over... I excepted us to spend time together... But Anjali or his works came in between my plan... I stayed quiet understanding the situation... But now I don't understand... He doesn't spend time with me because he stays with Sheetal or her son... Is this fair? I'm his wife and every wife wants her husband attention only on her and not on some ex girlfriend... Arnav Singh Raizada doesn't understand this... For him the fact that I'm his is enough for him... He is happy that I'm his and now I will not leave him for anyone so he can do everything he wants with me...

Am I jealous? Yes... I'm jealous... With Lavanya I also felt jealous... Now Sheetal and on top of that her son who behaves like Arnav, talks like him, is diabetic patient, loves plants... What am I supposed to think? I'm sure you will also think like me... But I'm scared to clear my doubts with him... What if he takes it bad?

But I can't live my life with a doubt... I have to speak to him...

" Khushi bitiya come and make coffee for Sheetal and Arnav" Nani screams from downstairs....

See I wait everyday to see a glimpse of him and all they make me do is a Coffee for him and that Sheetal... He receives the coffee from my hand like he is receiving it from Hari prakashji ... Without even looking at me like I mean nothing to him... But talks with Sheetal with all the respect in the world... Help her son in everything he wants...

I've no problem with Aarav... He is a cute child but it will hurt me if he is Arnav's son...

" Chote look at Aarav... He looks like you really the things he does here at home makes me remember you when you were a kid" Anjali said smiling only if she knew that that smile is breaking my heart... She is telling these words for the fourth time ... Isn't she tired? They talk about Aarav like he is Arnav real son... In the beginning I also had no problem with these comparisons as I also compared him with Arnav... But now it's enough... Don't they have another topic to talk about?

Arnav... Only smiles... And doesn't speaks anything... I'm more angry with him, he should understand that I also feel hurt when they start with their talkings... But I forgot... He only understands business language... He is far away from being my husband ... How I miss our cute fights, our romance at Jiji's wedding, our Teri meri dance, when he said " I love you dammit"... So many sweets moments that my laad governor made me happy... But seems that he forgot everything.... And I'm still here waiting that one day he will look at me and say sorry for his deeds... I'm a fool really... He will never realize his mistakes alone... He needs someone to open his eyes... Alone he can only destroy someone... Like when he forced me to marry him... Without even hearing the whole truth jumped to his own conclusions... I don't even know if he THINKS... He knew what kind of girl I'm still he believed that I would snatch Shyam from Anjali... I still forgave him for what he did... Called me " The biggest mistake of his life" still I forgave him... And what not... After doing all these I thought I would finally have a happily ever after... But no... DM likes testing me....

What's happening in my life? I can't even plead someone's help... They will start lecturing that I have to trust Arnav and all... They will never understand my feelings.... ....

Let it be....

" Hello hi bye bye Khushii why don't you go to shopping and buy these items I have already made a list... Take this and go" mami said

Someone is ordering his wife in front of him and he still continues engrossed in his works... Wow what a man...

I'm buying the stuff mami told me when I met my childhood friend Manvi....We did the shopping together and exchanged our numbers ... After the day we met we kept meeting with each other and I also shared my problems with her.. She supported me and told me to talk with Arnav... Only If she knew that Arnav doesn't have time to look at me... Talking is very far...

With Manvi I used to be find glimpse of the Khushi that was lost in trying to please or gain attention of her husband...

I completely forgot about myself these days...

" Ohh no it's raining heavily now... How will I return home now? " I asked worried to Manvi

" Don't worry Khushi... Sleep here tomorrow you will go home okay?" Manvi replied to me...

" Okay" ... Will he be worried about me?

The next day I went home and everyone were there looking at me... Looks like they were waiting for me???

Arnav: Where were you all night?

Khushi: My friend's home.

Arnav: Khushi are you a kid or what? You know you have a husband and a family also here.. It's your responsibility to inform wherever you are... We get worried about you...

Sheetal: Yeah Khushi... It's very immature act you did...

Mami: Friend's house????? Is this friend a man?????? Ohhhh god what kind of shameless girls we have nowadays...

Arnav: Who is your friend?

Khushi looked at Arnav shocked: Are you doubting me? Seriously Arnav? I'm tired you know... I'm TIRED of explaining myself... I'm the one who should doubt you... Your ex girlfriend stays in our house with her son who is exactly like you... Did I ever questioned you about it?

Arnav: What do you mean Khushi? Are you doubting my character now? Are trying to say that Aarav is my son? Ahn??

Khushi: Yes that exactly what I want to say... I want you to clear my doubts... And talking about characters... If you can doubt about my character then why can't I question yours? ... You stay with Sheetal all day at work, talk to her with respect and me... It looks like I don't even exist for you... You do everything for her son like he is your real son, instead of spending time with me you give your time to them and your family, leave me alone without anyone to share my things, leave me alone here all day in this house where no one gives me respect, all treat me like a maid who has to do everything as their whishes, love and care practically vanished from our lives Arnav, you are so engrossed with your work, family, Sheetal and Aarav that there is not a small space for me in your life.... And now you are doubting me? A man who doesn't even looks at his wife has no right to doubt on her do you get that? And for your kind information my friend is a woman and is the only one who I can share my feelings with... Is the only one who can understand me... Isn't it a shame that your own husband and family can't understand you and an outsider understand you and also supports you? Well I'm tired this is the last time I have explained myself to you Arnav... The last... Because now I'm tired and I've decided that I will leave you.. If DM wants us to be together we will be... For now I need sometime to live for myself...

Everyone looks at Khushi shocked for her boldness... The girl who never complains today she spoke everything that was in her heart... NK clapped for Khushi smiling at her...

Arnav: Khushi...

I run to the room crying and packed my bags... He came behind me...

Arnav: Khushi listen to me... I have nothing to do with Sheetal and her son... Aarav is not my son Khushi... I never shared such a relation with Sheetal Khushi... Please don't go..

Khushi: Thank you for clearing my doubts... But I want to be alone...

Arnav: Jaan please don't go... I will change... I can't live without you...

Khushi: You should have changed before now it's very late...

And I went away leaving all of them and starting my new life...

I haven't left him... If I'm destined to return to him DM will make us meet again...

* One year later...

It has been one year ... One year... My princess left me... She wasn't wrong... I never gave her attention... Always with Sheetal and Aarav and I didn't even noticed that she was missing me... My fault... Everything is my fault... After she left me I also left the house... Now I'm staying at my farm house away from everyone... I can't stay in that house... Her memories haunts me there... I miss her a lot... She is my life... The bad thing is that I realized her meaning in my life when she is away from me, when I have already hurt her... Why? Why am I like this? I'm fool... I lost the most precious person in my life... Now what's left in my life? Work all day and drink all night... I don't even know where my life is leading me to... If she was here with me she would take care of me all day... Give me food and medicine on time... Caress me when I'm tired... Make my coffee every morning... She never forgets about me and my things... I'm the only one who abandoned her... She did right by leaving me... She deserves someone better than me... Someone who will not forget her like I did... Someone who will love her everyday ... I stopped my thoughts crying... I can't even imagine her with someone else... Why she left me? Why? Khushi come back to me please.... Please... With my thoughts I fell asleep on the floor....

* Flower shop:

Sanya: Khushi what are you thinking?

Khushi: Nothing... Just missing someone...

Sanya: Arnav?

Khushi: Who else?

Sanya: I just hate him so much... Even after all he did with you... You still miss him... Wow you are too good Khushi... That's why people take advantage of you...

Khushi: Let it be... Let's sell these beautiful flowers...

* Arnav's farm house:

Aman: ASR wake up... Wake up...

NK: Nannav...

Arnav: What the... What are you both doing here?

NK: What are you doing on the floor?

Arnav: I fell asleep here...

Aman: Thinking about her?

Arnav nodded sadly: I can't live without my wife... She is everything for me Aman... I'm missing her ... I don't know how will I manage to live without her...

NK: Don't worry Nannav... We came here to help you only..

* Few day later...

Today I'm feeling something strange... It's not a normal day like others... I'm feeling like...like he is close to me... Can he be here? No... It must be my misconception... I keep the flowers on its right place when... Ohh DM... He is really here... He is coming near me... I look at him angrily and tried to run away from there when he hold my hand and I stopped... I closed my eyes not wanting to look at him or hear what he has to say... Convince to go back home... That's what he will do....

Arnav: Khushi...

Khushi: Arnav I told you that if DM wants us to meet she would create a situation for that... Why you came back?

Arnav crying: I'm not able to do it... I miss you Khushi... Jaan I will die if I live more days without you... Please come back to me... I'm changed Khushi... I will not do my past mistakes anymore... Please... I've threw Sheetal out of the house... I will not hurt you anymore please... Please believe me...

Khushi: Arnav go away from here...

Arnav crying and hugging Khushi: please Khushi don't send me back I will die ... Please Khushi you're my everything Jaan ... I know you did a lot of sacrifices for me ... I'm sorry .. I'm sorry Khushi ... I will not treat you again the way I did... Please Khushi I'm changed...

Khushi breaking the hug: I don't trust you anymore...

Arnav gulping his tears: I beg of you Khushi please...

Khushi: Arnav don't create a scene her at my workplace... Go away...

Arnav knelt down: Please Khushi... Forgive me... Give me one last chance to prove you that I've changed... Please...

Khushi looked away crying: GOOOOOO

Aman, NK, and the workers: Give him one chance Khushi... Give him one chance... Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Khushi looking at Arnav: What if you break my trust again?

Arnav: I plead DM everyday for one chance and if I don't use this one last chance she will take me with her....

Khushi: Shut up don't talk like this...

Arnav: Please Khushi... Forgive your Arnav for the last time...

Khushi bend down to reach Arnav level and hugged him crying: I missed you too....

Arnav: I love you Jaan

Khushi: I love you too my life...

Arnav: I will give all my time to you now I promise... No one will come between us... Nor my work neither my family... It will be only and only YOU...

NK and Aman smiled looking at each other....

Arnav kissing Khushi hair while hugging her: I will not hurt you anymore... I promise... I will stay with you everytime... We will live alone also so that no one disturb us...

Khushi: Thank you but you don't need to live separated from our family... I just want your time and nothing else...

NK: Now let's go... Everyone is waiting for the happiness of the house to return....

I smiled looking at them... Sometimes whatever you have to do is just give sometime... Whatever is yours will come back to you..................... Finally my happily ever after came.....