" You gave me new home unknowingly , become my new hope too "

                                                                                                                                              ~ Meena3101{ MU } 

Drishti - 

Today is my marriage I don't know how to feel about it.. Yesterday rakshit called me and asked me about functions .. I lied to him may be he also came to know about it .. I can sense he was doubting on me .. but what can I do ? I can't tell him that chachi said  I have no relative so there no need to invite any one and asked divya to apply mehendi on my hand .. she didn't organize any kind of rituals saying what's need to spend money in these useless rituals .. So I lied to him .. divya and romi were angry but they can't do anything ... So for making me happy both took me to my room and than started singing in their worst voice making me laugh .. than divya applied mehendi on my hands and told me to sleep .. they left my room and after that I received rakshit 's call .. I know I have no rights to feel bad because I am not their own daughter whom they will do all these things nor I am close to them .. I know they did more than enough for me by giving me shelter but I Can't help I feel bad .. I also feel hurt .. I also crave for love , comfort , care but after mum papa death I got none .. With these thought I went to sleep yesterday .. today by god grace chachi didn't let me do any household chores and said that today she and  divya will do it .. I asked why but  she didn't reply said go to my room and  sleep for some more time or do packing of my stuff .. may be chacha said something to her that's why this little change .. 

I packed my stuff than I received call from mahima aunty saying that the auspicious timing is of 11 am , so they all will be in the temple by 10:30 am and asked us to reach at the same time .. she also said that she had send shikhar with my dress and jewellery . I look at the watch it's already 9 am and we will took 30 mins to reach there .. Soon shikhar came and I changed into the dress .. Divya was also ready and started dolling me up .. I was wearing simple red saree with a red dupatta and minimal jewellery .. 

Soon we all left for temple .. temple was decorated with flowers .. I saw rakshit 's family standing there.. waiting for me  .. as we step out of the taxi mahima mam came to me and hug me . 

" you are looking beautiful my dear .. god bless you .. I am sure rakshit will not be able to take his eyes of you ." she complement me as well as tease me making me blush ... 

I went inside with divya and mahima aunty on my both side , I felt someone gaze on me so I lift my eyes and my eyes directly crashed to the same brown eyes who took place in my mind without doing anything . our eye locked for few second than I averted my eyes from him and started looking floor with so much interest .. I don't know I can feel shy ..  They took me and made  me sit beside him .. 

Pandit ji started chatting mantra's but I didn't listen anything .. my mind of full of thoughts few positive most negative .. 

Will I be able to cope with all the responsibilities of daughter in law ? 

Will I  be able to become a good wife ?

Will I  be able to become a good partner for my husband ?

Will I be able to handle all the new responsibilities ?

Will I be able to found my new home in his house ? 

Will I be able to make them happy ?

Will they accept me whole heartily after knowing my past ?

I don't know answer of any of these question , 

I don't know what going to happen next .. 

I don't know will I be able to share my dreadful past .. 

Between all these things I have a New Hope too in my heart .... 

I was in my thoughts which were broken by Pandit ji's voice .. that made me freeze ..  

" Kanya ke mata pita ko bhulaiye kanya dan ki vidi puri karni hai "    pandit ji voice made me freeze and those memories started coming in my mind  .. 

Flashback - 

" Vidya dekho humari princess kitni sundar lag rahi hai iss lal lehenge mein .. jab uski shadi hogi na tab main aisa hi lehenga ban wahunga .. aur sare desh ke logo ko invite karunga " dad said with a huge smile on his face.. 

" Dad really mera function hai shadi nahi aur aap kya yeh shadi ke baat le kar bet gaye .. main kahi nahi jane wali aap dono ko chod ke .. " I said getting upset because of his talk about my marriage .. I was not even 17 now and he is talking about getting me married , going far from them .. 

" My doll everyone have to marry one day or another .. aur aapko pta hai kanya dan sabse bada dan hota hai .. bhagwan ne hume pari di hai phir hum usse kanya dan karne ka moka kaise chod sakte hai .. " mumma said making me understand about importance of marriage .. 

But I never thought that god will take this chance away from them .. 

Flashback over 

"are iske mata pita mar chuke hai .. "my came back from flashback by hearing chachi's voice .. and I moved my eyes towards her glaring at her .. How can she say like this .. she knew that I hate when somebody say something about my parents .. she knew that I will not say anything to her if she say something to me but to my parents than I don't spare even if she is my chachi .. 

I Think she notice my glare so she changed her line immediately  ..chacha also glare at her ..

"mere kehne ka matlab tha ki hum dono kanya ke chacha chachi hai aur hum hi kanya dan ki vidhi puri karenge , kanya ke mata pita iss duniya main nahi rahe " 

"ji aayiye aur var vadhu ka gadh bandhan kariye .." pandit ji said .. divya placed her hand on my shoulder indicating me to calm down and I did because I know this is not correct place to deal with her .. 

I didn't know what all was happening around me just I was following orders which were given by pandit ji , finally he was asked to put mangalsutra around me and asked to put sindhur on my middle partition .. his hands touch my forehead and I closed my eyes in acceptance .. when he put mangalsutra around my neck my eyes went to his face for the first time .. he gave me a small smile of insurance , that he will be there always with me supporting me  in every matter .. unknowingly my own lips move upward for milliseconds  but I soon I adverted my eyes ..  

and I AM MARRIED ... 

We took blessing of elders , youngsters hugged us congratulating us .. I am directly going to rakshit's home which is my new home too from here that's means my vidai going to be here only .. divya and romi hugged me tightly and hide their teary face in my hairs both really love me lot seeing them my eyes also become teary , we stay like that for few minutes they left me giving em few cheek and forehead kiss saying love you and we will miss you again and again , chacha also gave me side hug slowly said I am sorry in my ears for not being able to love , care respect I deserve but I just said it's okay , I was happy with what I have  .. he also kissed my forehead said raskhit to take care of me .. 

chachi also gather me in a hug which was awkward for me but her next line made my all awkwardness flew away .. 

"you can hug me back you know I am not that much bad just I can't put face of being everything alright when It is clearly not .. hope you will forget everything and happily accept your new home .. " I knew that chachi is not that bad just her method of saying things is different .. 

I sat next to rakshit in his car , he was driving and I was on passenger seat .. we both sat in silent not knowing what to talk but the silence was not that bad ..  

Soon we reach rakshit's home  which was no less than mansion.. really I don't know he is that much rich .. we were welcome by  mahima aunty in traditional way ..  after competing all the rituals I was sent to guest room .. 

"beta tum abhi yaha rest kar lo aur change kar lo dinner ke baad tumhe rakshit ke room mein shift kar denge .. aur kisi bhi cheej ki jarurat ho mujhe bhula lena . okay "mahima aunty said lovingly patting my cheeks .. 

" ji aunty .."

"aunty nahi beta mom ya maa bhulao okay .. jaise rakshit bhula ta hai .. " her sweet nature overwhelmed by the emotions and hugged her to which hug me back and patted my back too  

I really miss mumma now .... 

 breaking the hug she kissed my forehead and asked me to take rest .. 

At night we all sat in dinner table having dinner with lot's of teasing .. 

god how can I forget that today is my first night .. 

and this thoughts  made me shiver .. 

Hey everyone .. 

hope you all like this update .. 

I am going to update next update next week .. my mind is not working so one update in one week  .. 

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