A month later...

It has been a month since everything happened. Ever since the day I lied to Carrie and started dating Jack. It has been four weeks since Caesar professed his love for me.

I don't think about it much since they are talking to me now. A little.

Ever since that all happened, Jack had started dating Carrie. But things get a little awkward when we are all together at the same time.

But I have learned something from all of this. You make mistakes. We're all human. But if we don't make those mistakes, we wouldn't be who we are now.

Sometimes we need to make those mistakes so we actually learn from them. So we know what to do and what not to do. And if you aren't tough enough to make one, then you will go your life wondering if something was a mistake or not.

I'm laying on my front lawn and looking up at the stars. I wanted to travel the whole universe when I was little. I threw temper tantrum when I figured out I couldn't do it.

I couldn't see everything. I couldn't go and see the universe. I cried when I couldn't be immortal. When I couldn't live forever. I worried about what I would do when I graduated from school. Why I only had a little bit of time to just live.

But I realize that I can't do anything about it. I realized that I need to stop worrying about the future and what I can't do. I needed to focus on the present.

So I went to Caesar's house and got him to go outside and watch the stars with me.

I loved him and he was apart of my present. But I had been so focused on my future my whole life that I hadn't payed attention to what was happening in the present. I didn't think straight and I ran right into my mistakes.

So I have one last thing to say. There are things in life we don't want to happen, but have to accept; things we don't want to know, but have to learn, and people we can't live without, but have to let go.

Some people might not understand this but hey. No matter who tries to teach you lessons, you won't understand it until you go through it on your own.