okay, 1. YALL NEED TO SEE THAT IMAGE IT'S SO PERFECT JUST ,,, LOOK AT HOW CUTE AND TINY LIN IS AND THE WAY LESLIE IS SMILING I !!
2. yes, theres jamilton in here, but obviously it's gonna be angst bc yknow lams xd
so, this was orginally a ron x harry/drarry oneshot. the only thing is, i kinda used a bit of ocean eyes by billie eilish (not much, just like the chorus), and i cannot do that for lams, so i had to come up w sumn else.

"Hamilton, you're so beautiful..." Thomas complimented, cupping the boy's cheeks in his hands. Alexander couldn't believe it; the boy that presumably hated him, that had despised him since the beginning, suddenly had feelings for him? Heat rose to his cheeks as Alexander leaned in, he'd been waiting for this moment since he'd known Thomas. 

The curly-haired boy leaned in as well, until their lips were only just inches apart. Then, however, Thomas scrunched up his face, bursting into laughter. Alexander furrowed his eyebrows in confusion.

"I knew it! Hamilton has a little gay crush on me!!!" Thomas cried out, holding his sides as he laughed. He wheezed and Alexander's eyes brimmed with tears from sadness, anger, and embarrassment. His face burned as he ran out of the cafeteria and to his dorm room, collapsing on the bed in sobs. 

"Alexander?" a familiar voice called. Alexander knew just who it was; his roommate and best friend, John Laurens. He heard footsteps and felt the foot of his bed sink. John was a kind 20-year-old boy. He was especially nice to Alexander and would do anything for him. 

"What do you want?" Alexander hugged himself, coming off more stern than he meant. He looked into John's hazel eyes, seeing that the boy was taken aback by his roughness. Alexander shot him an apologetic look.

"I... I just wanted to know if you're alright?" 

"Oh, yeah, I'm fine. Y'know, I totally didn't get rejected and humiliated by my crush," Alexander replied, sarcasm edging his voice. He really didn't mean to say it the way he did, it just slipped. 

"R-Right... Sorry, I'll leave you alone," the brunette's voice broke a bit as he spoke. "I just... I a-also wanted to let you know that I l-love you..." Alexander's eyes widened as he heard the door close.

It took him a minute to process what had just happened. John loves me? Alexander didn't know how to feel. When he heard the words, his heart flew from his chest and his stomach did backflips. He heard the words in his head over and over as he lay back, thinking everything over.

John and Alexander went to high school together. Alexander felt attracted to John, but never acted on it even after he knew he was gay. He felt like it'd ruin the friendship they built together, so he always kept silent, and managed to hide the feelings away. Alexander sighed, falling asleep from the sobbing from earlier. 

~

After a few days, Alexander's hidden feelings for John started to bubble on the surface. Seeing Jefferson made him want to gag, but seeing John made his world a lot brighter. Some of the people who were friends with Jefferson and were around for his little prank would point and laugh at Alexander, but he didn't mind. What he really needed to do was tell John how he felt. 

Alexander looked for John, finally spotting him in the cafeteria, sitting next to Charles Lee of all people.  "John, I've been looking everywhere for you," he said, walking up to the two boys. 

"What is it, Alex?" John tucked a loose strand of curly hair behind his ear, making Alexander's legs feel like jelly. 

"I need to talk to you," he tugged on John's arm. "Alone." he added as he looked at Charles. John shrugged, following Alexander outside to a little place with a bench and tree behind the school. The tree's roots were lush and green, and it looked very beautiful.

"What do you need?" John asked sweetly, though when Alexander looked into his eyes, he saw the sadness. "Iloveyoutoo," Alexander rushed out. John looked at him a furrowed his eyebrows.

"I'm sorry?"

"John, I... I love you too," 

"No, you don't, y-you're just s-"

John was cut off by a pair of lips on his. His shock kept him from melting into it, but just as he was about to, Alexander pulled away.

"I do, though. I love everything about you," Alexander grabbed that extra strand of hair and curled it, "your curly brown hair," he cupped John's cheeks and squished them, "your cute freckles, and your eyes - oh, look at those eyes!"

John grinned as his face burned red, leaning in. Alexander leaned in as well, until there was no space between them left. Their lips were in perfect sync as they kissed for a solid minute. Then, they both reluctantly pulled away. 

"So, John, do you want to be my boyfriend?" Alexander asked, his heart pounding. John nodded and blushed brighter.

"Of course!"