Next day in Sanjeevani:-

Riddhima feels weak emotionally and physically. She doesn't feel like to come to sanjeevani but she comes because of an important surgery.

She avoids every stare she is getting,every thing on her way and every person who tries to talk to her.

She doesn't want to talk to anyone about anything and She is not ready to interact with anyone yet.

She just walks looking down and reaches OT. She prepares herself for the surgery and prays to God as usual for the patient's well being. She goes into the OT and comes out after 2 hours of surgery.

She saw the patient's family waiting outside in tension. She goes near them and assures them with a smile that surgery was successful and there is no need to worry.

She cleans herself and decides to take day off as she is not feeling well. She goes to the locker room and stops as she will be getting flashes of all memories of her and Armaan.

How much ever she tries to not to cry and not to think about Armaan she fails. Everything,every place and every corner of Sanjeevani reminds her of armaan. And all that pain and tears come back to her.

She absentmindedly walk towards Armaan's locker , touches it ,opens it,looks at the things inside it and tears falls from her eyes like waterfalls. She then closes it and walks outside ignoring the stares and persons.

She walks through the corridor slowly and the memories again flooded back to her along with tears. She stops walking and freezes when she felt someone caught her dupatta. She turns slowly with a smile expecting armaan with her dupatta but she fell into cries when she realizes her dupatta got stuck to a plant.

She releases her dupatta from the plant, she stands there for some time with the support of the wall, when all their memories rush back to her.

She closes her eyes to stop the tears but couldn't. She slowly walks towards cafeteria and sits there at the table where once their gang used to sit. All the fights,laughs they had shared in that place made her break into continuous sobs.

She cannot see anyone wherever she went except armaan and his memories which made her cry more.

Little did she know that someone was behind her,following her on every step, seeing her crying which made him sad seeing her in such state.

Yes, Sid was there always looking at her miserable state. He got angry on himself as somehow he was responsible for her sorrow. He expected her to be sad after seeing that video as he came to know how much armaan loved riddhima but he didn't know that he will see her crying like this.

But what could he do? Nothing. She is not even talking to him to do something. He loves her and he wants her to be happy but the question is how?

He wants to take away her pain but.......he looks at her but she was not there........he looks around and comes out of the cafe. He sees her walking in the corridors like a lifeless person.

On the other hand Shashank and keerthi will be discussing something and when they look up they see riddhima in a dishelved state with puffy red eyes and nose,tear stained red face and is walking like a lifeless corpse. The next minute what they all saw made them to scream her name because she fainted and fell on the floor.

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Mein takh Gayya Hoon ladte ladte.........

An aur nahi.........

Woh Mera Bina jeena seekh li thi..........

Mere Bina kush thi woh........

Maine waapas aake sab kharaab Kar Diya........

Mujhe waapas aana nahi chahiyeh tha.........

Mujhe teek hi nahi hona chahiyeh tha.........

Aise hi bheemaar rahke mar jaana chahiyeh tha mujhe..........

mar jaana chahiyeh tha mujhe..........

mar jaana chahiyeh tha mujhe..........

mar jaana chahiyeh tha mujhe..........

mar jaane.................

" ARMAAN........."

Riddhima screams his name and sit up on the bed crying and panting . Hearing her scream Shashank,keerthi, Sid, Shilpa and JP comes running into the room.

Riddhima glances around the room and comes to know that she is in hospital bed. She looks up to see all the concerned faces staring at her.

Shashank runs to her side and hugs her tightly rubbing her back to calm her down.

" Papa......papa.....armaan......" Riddhima says between her sobs.

" Sshhh.....riddhima kuch nahi hai......bas chup ho jao"

" Nahi.....armaan.....mar.....ja....." She tries to say hicupping.

" Riddhima armaan bilkul teek hai. Kuch nahi hua hai use,don't worry" he tries to calm her.

" Papa aapne suna armaan ne kyaa kaha tha.......
Ki mein uske bine jeena seekh li hai. Uske Bina kush Hoon,usne kaha ki usse waapas nahi aan chahiyeh tha,usse teek nahi hona chahiyeh tha aur usne kaha usse.....m.mar j.jan....."
Riddhima trails off while crying hugging him tightly.

"Nahi riddhima usne Jo bhi kaha tha dukh mein aake kaha tha, he doesn't mean that.....ok" he tries to console her and all others just looks at them sadly.

" Nahi Papa sab mere vajah se hua hai,Maine use bahut dard Diya hai,aur woh mujhse takh Gaya hai......papa mein bahut kush thi jab woh waapas aaya tha, usse teek aur sahi salaamat dekh Kar mein bahut khush thi papa.......mein uski waapas aane  se dukh nahi thi......woh haalat aise the ki.......w.woh mujhse nafrat karta hoga papa......." Riddhima says sobbing.

" Nahi nahi riddhima tum aisa soch bhi kaise sakte ho armaan tumse kabhi nafrat nahi Kar sakta........
   Armaan ne aaj Tak Jo bhi Kiya hai tumhaare liye Kiya, tumhaare Khushi ke liye Kiya hai riddhima.
   Armaan ne isiliye nahi Gaya hai kyun ki woh tumse nafrat karta hai par isiliye kyun ki woh tumse bahut pyaar karta hai.....itna pyaar ki koi bhi kabhi bhi kisi ne nahi Kiya hoga.....itna pyaar karta hai woh tumse.........." Shashank says to her with tears in his eyes and Riddhima looks at him wiping her tears.

" Ok now I want to say something to you,should I say?" Shashank asks and she nods her head in yes.

" You remember when armaan came back ( she nods) , I asked him one day that how he became alright and do you want to know what he said? ( She nods again feeling tensed).
   Armaan said he became alright because of you. Usne kaha tha ki tumhaare pyaar ne usse teek Kiya. Tumhaare pyaar mein itna taakhat thi ki usse teek hona hi pada. He said that your love and your wish for him to become alright and normal like before made him overcome the disease. He said your strength and faith in your love made him won over the fate and kept him alright and alive." Shashank says everything looking into her eyes and she just stared back at him unbelievably with tears while all others stood dumbstruck.

" yeh Sab armaan ne kaha hai? Aapse?" Riddhima asks him.

" Ha riddhima ,armaan ne kudh mujhse kaha tha. He can never hate you riddhima, he loved you,loves you and will always love you. You are the only person he remembered when he forgot himself and living somewhere. He was living just by breathing your name riddhima so how can you think that he will ever hate you?" Shashank says and asks her and she again hugged him sobbing into him.

" I am sorry armaan I have always gave you pain,tears,sorrow and grief but in return you always gave me love. Only love. I am such a bad person. Mein bahut bura Hoon na papa........" Riddhima says and started crying again.

" Tum bure nahi ho riddhima,bas  haalat aur waqt ne Humein hara Diya hai. Armaan loves you so much that he left everything behind just for your happiness Tum bas ab chup ho jao aur aaram karo......tumhe aaram ki bahut zarurat hai" keerthi says coming to her side and wiping her tears.

" We will come again to see you di, till then you take rest" Shilpa says smiling with tears and she nods.

******

Riddhima will be lying in the bed just staring at the ceiling with lot of thoughts in her mind. Just then a knock disturbs her train of thoughts.

Sid comes inside hesitatingly and closes the door behind him. He looks at her who will be already staring at him.

" How are you feeling now riddhima?"

" Umm....fine"

" I need to talk to you riddhima"

" Ok, I was also thinking the same"

" I am sorry riddhima,I didn't want to hurt you. I was angry at that time and acted without thinking. I just.....I.I am very very sorry."

" I am not only the one you should apologize"

" I know......but I am really very sorry"

"....."

" Am I forgiven?"

" It's not that easy"

" Ok.....I understand"

" Riddhima you take your time but please don't hurt yourself like this, you are not being alive,you are present here but your mind is somewhere else,you are not being yourself ."

"....."(looking down)

"I know you are not able to move on....it's hard for you.......you are unable to digest the fact that armaan has left.....but riddhima he left and you have to accept and move on"

"....."

"Please say something riddhima......say something don't be quiet......I can't tolerate your silence anymore"

"....."(just stares at him)

"Oh! god.......please say something"

"....."

Sighs

" Damm it !!! riddhima.....why riddhima? Why? Is this because of armaan? Is this because he left?.......
   It's all because of him I Know. Armaan is the reason why this is all happening. Yes, he always comes between us in some or the other way"

"....."( Glares at him)

" What riddhima? See again you are affected by him. Why you are always so affected by him? Even if he is here or not you always think about him. Why riddhima? I don't understand. Why you are so much affected by him in his absence also? It's all because of him,even he is present here or not he knows how to affect you by his acts..... that naming a star by your name and that video yesterday....... everything is his act to snatch you away from me"

" SID "

" Sid you are again doing same mistake after everything happened. You are again accusing and blaming him for nothing"

" Oh really , but that's the truth riddhima"

" No, I have been quiet that doesn't mean that you are right and I am supporting you.
    One more time Dr.Siddhant modi one more time I hear one word against Armaan I don't know what I will do......I am warning you I am not going to tolerate one word against Armaan anymore......." Riddhima warns him with anger pointing her finger at him.

" Riddhima you are defending some other man in front of your husband"

" I am not defending anyone Siddhant,I am just saying the truth and Armaan is not any some other man ,he is the person who sacrificed his everything for me."

"....."

"Blaming someone for the wrong doesn't make you right Siddhant. You should have enough courage to accept the truth and face it"

"So what do you want me to do now riddhima ,tell me? "

" What are we doing ? Where are we going ? These arguments and silence are going no where riddhima."

"....."

"Silence is not the answer riddhima. Tell me what do you want?
We are husband and wife riddhima,we should together make our marriage work.You wanted to talk to me about something right ,what is it?"

"....." ( Closes her eyes sighing)

" What do you want to talk to me? Tell me riddhima."

" Divorce" she let's out her breath.

"WHAT!?" Sid yells shocked.

She looks up straight into his eyes without any emotions and says.......

" Dr. Siddhant Modi. I . Want. DIVORCE."

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To be continued.........

What do you guys think about riddhima's decision?

Love AR.