19 May 2021

Seventeen Dorm

"I won't let it slide if anyone makes you cry," I rapped in Happy Ending ages ago. So, why were tears streaming down my face as I read her now-familiar writing?

'My heart aches because I think that we've given our fans sadness, when you were likely looking forward to us more than ever. I've always worried only about "What pretty words will make our BUDDY happy?" but now I wonder what words can provide you comfort, and writing each and every letter makes my heart heavy...

I think it's such a blessing that I will always be able to remember and find our fans' support and cheers, which gave me so much strength. Although I was lacking, you gave me so much undeserved love, and because you always believed in me, I wanted to become a better person. From our debut, throughout all our promotions, fan meetings, concerts, and every moment in between, I always wondered, "Am I someone who deserves to receive this much love? Can I be this happy? I'm not as incredible of a person that BUDDY think I am, so is it okay for me to enjoy this gift-like time?" Because all these moments were only possible because you gave us your support. I was so thankful that I could sing such great songs, and I was so happy that we were able to shine thanks to you who recognised us.

To me, this was the happiest and most beautiful six years. That truth will never change. To BUDDY whom I will love forever, I hope your futures are only filled with good things. I sincerely hope your daily lives are filled with more laughter than tears. I thank you so much for being BUDDY that was so reassuring and dependable for GFRIEND. BUDDY must always be healthy and happy. I'll sincerely pray for you.

Regardless of where or how, I plan on working towards being able to keep singing. I will do my best to repay the fond memories I have with you all. This has been GFRIEND. Thank you, and I love you, our BUDDY.'

Eunha and I texted from morning to midnight and I found out that Source wasn't too keen on letting the members pursue solo careers. After prolonged conversation and deep consideration, it was decided that they wouldn't renew their contracts. I tried my best to comfort her knowing that it wouldn't be too long before Woo-sa contacted my girlfriend to keep her end of the bargain. Promising that I'd visit her and that we'd be together, she doubted my feelings. I wasn't angry because this was her nature- the singer even doubted her own talent, her fans disagreeing vehemently. I would write a thesis to prove Eunha wrong and send it out to sea in glass bottles.