20 August 2019

Saugus High School

"When I was younger and people would say hateful things towards me, I would take it personally. My once bright and bubbly personality turned to quiet and insecure bc I thought that what someone else said defined me. Now I realize that I'm fine the way I am ½"

"Anyone is entitled to their own opinion. However, I'm beautiful in my own way and I'm gonna own that. I'm gonna continue to be an inspiration towards those that have been told their entire life that they are never enough. Fuck anyone that thinks otherwise. Love yourself 2/2"

The next day

"It's sad to think that some people are so uneducated and deeply insecure about themselves that they feel the need to attack others and also promote unhealthy behaviors. Someone said they're body shaming in hopes I become anorexic. That's disgusting"

"I've noticed that there are so many stan people on here that thinks it's okay to be saying these things about certain idols or artists. Just focus on supporting your faves instead of attacking other people. What do you gain from hate? Absolutely nothing."

"While I don't take things personally, people need to own up to what they're saying. Trust me, we see everything so think about the consequences before you post or tweet something. I'm not just talking about me, but in general."

"If you could turn back time, would you be an idol all over again?" Alex asked me over our quesadillas.

"Yes, I got to learn so much about Korean history and culture," I nodded enthusiastically. "I made so many friends and sisters."

"I agree with you because I'm so proud of my girlfriend's singing, dancing and rapping skills," he sipped the freshly-squeezed strawberry lemonade.

"I'd like to try acting someday," I confided, the scarlet on my cheeks being all natural, and not Revlon Brush-and-Blush.

"Go for it," my boyfriend squeezed my hand, which was resting on the table.

I told him my favourite memory as a trainee, when we were hanging out at the Han River. After eating chicken, we danced one of the choreographies in the parking lot and had so much fun.