"Where are you going to?" Yoongi asked Jungkook who picked up his keys from the counter.

Yoongi was watching an anime show while eating popcorn. That's all he did lately. What else to do when he felt so deflated and sad?

Jungkook sighed and took a seat next to Yoongi on the couch. "I don't want to lie to you because you're my brother and I love you. I'm going to see Jimin,"

Yoongi inhaled sharply and forgot he had popcorn in his mouth. So, he started coughing as he chocked on the food.

Jungkook immediately started hitting his back hoping that would help. "Ouch! Okay, okay, I'm good." Yoongi finally said.

"Sorry. I was trying to make the popcorn go down."

"I don't think it works like that."

"Well, that's what I've always been told."

"Are you really going to see..." his name wouldn't even roll off his tongue. Saying it out loud hurt him in ways he couldn't describe.

He had been heartbroken before, but never to this level. Maybe it was because he had never actually been in love until now.

All Yoongi knew was that he didn't like this one bit. He didn't like that fact that he was falling apart while Jimin was probably having the time of his life without him.

Did Jimin even think about him? Talked about him? The doubt and heartache didn't mix too well.

"Jimin? Yeah," Jungkook softly said.

Yoongi laid back on the couch and swallowed hard hoping that the pang of pain in his chest would stop spreading everywhere.

"I don't know what's going on between you two, but I know you aren't in a good place right now."

"He's a fucking asshole." Yoongi bitterly said. Saying that just didn't feel right. It felt like he had to force himself to say it. Sure, he could call Jimin horrific things but at the end of the day he wouldn't mean none of them.

He was only trying to replace Jimin's absence with hatred and it wasn't working because he didn't feel that way towards him.

"Do you mean that?" Jungkook asked.

"What if I do? What if I don't? It doesn't matter. I regret ever meeting him." He told with tears brimming his eyes.

Maybe, if he hadn't seen him that night he wouldn't be here today. Maybe, if he would've stayed in the bathroom or left with Jeongyeon their paths wouldn't have crossed.

"I'm meeting up with him because I have to talk to him about, Taehyung."

"What does Taehyung and Jimin have to do with each other? You know what don't even tell me. I'm tired of the secrets. I don't need nothing else added to this shit."

"After we meet today I don't have to talk to him anymore. I know you said that I could keep being his friend, but I don't want to hurt you either. You're my brother and if you tell me to stay away from him I will."

"You don't have to do that. The problem is between Jimin and I and that shouldn't affect your friendship with him. Can you just refrain from mentioning him?"

Jungkook nodded, "You're a good person, Yoongi. I don't think people realize that. They often judge you as being cold without even getting to know you."

"But you know me. That's all that matters."

Jungkook sighed, "Fuck. Listen, I don't need to cry before leaving. I love you, okay? I'll see you later."

Yoongi nodded yet again. As Jungkook walked out the door he couldn't help to wonder if Jimin would mention him.

How pathetic to wait for something to happen when you knew it wouldn't.

•••

"Jungkookie! Did you miss your oppa?" Jimin teased planting a huge kiss on his cheek.

Jungkook smiled, "I guess so."

"So what's up? I'm sure you wanted to meet up for something else not just to see me." He said taking a seat in front of him.

"Let's eat first, yeah?" Jungkook said. Maybe eating first was a terrible idea. What if Jimin and Taehyung really were together? Could his full stomach digest that without throwing it back up?

"You ordered already? Wow, you know me so well." Jimin grinned looking down at his plate and picking up his fork.

Did he know him at all?

"Mhm. It's your favorite." Jungkook quietly said picking up the fork himself. The food suddenly didn't look as appetizing as it once did.

"This is some good shit right here." Jimin mumbled with a mouth full. He so badly wanted Jungkook to mention Yoongi.

As much as he hated to admit it he wanted to know if he was okay. Was Jimin selfish? Totally. He knew he was which was the worst part of it all.

"How's life?" Jimin added trying to stop the awkward silence. Jungkook and him had been friends for a while before he even knew about Yoongi's existence.

It was terrifying to know that Jungkook could end their friendship any second because of his problem with, Yoongi.

"It's been uhh...confusing lately." He admitted.

Jimin put his fork down and took a sip of the wine that was already served. "Okay, something's definitely going on. You aren't touching your food and that's scary as fuck. Jungkook not eating? In what universe?"

Jungkook laughed setting his silverware back down. "Okay, it's time to just talk about it. Not talking about it won't solve anything."

Jimin took a deep breath. Here came the Yoongi talk. "Oh no. It's about him isn't it?"

"Yeah, it is."

"I didn't mean to! I mean I did, but it's confusing. I'm confused. I like him, but I want him to stay the fuck away. I don't know, okay?"

"You like him?" Jungkook asked in disbelief. Had he been a fool the whole time that he didn't realize that Taehyung was Jimin's so called ex?

"I mean, yeah? I guess."

Jungkook took a deep shaky breath looking down at his lap. "Are you upset about what happened? Did he tell you? I'm aware I was an ass, but who the hell does he think he is catching feelings without consulting—"

"I like him too." Jungkook interrupted.

Jimin's mouth dropped, "You-you can't-" he stuttered in shock.

"What do you mean I can't? I like him. Actually, I think I'm in love with him. So you tell me what do we do about this."

Jimin was still frozen at the confession. He couldn't even move. Jungkook raised his eyebrows waiting for an answer.

"Jimin?"

"But you can't like him! Or be in love with him! Yoongi is your brother! Literally!"

"What does Yoongi have to do with this?"

"Wait who are we talking about?" Jimin asked startled.

"Umm, Taehyung? As in Kim Taehyung. Who are you talking about?"

"Oh, I thought this was about...oh."

"Jimin, I like Taehyung."

Jimin looked down at his lap. Talking about Taehyung was just as bad as talking about Yoongi.

In reality, he would much rather talk about Yoongi than him. It was too painful to even think about it.

Jungkook watched his expression and tried to read the emotion painted on his face. He couldn't.

He could often tell when Jimin was happy, sad, or angry just by the way he looked at him. At the moment there was only blankness in his stare.

"Is he your ex?" Jungkook whispered.

Jimin kept staring at nothing in specific. His heart was aching so bad. It was similar to the way he felt when he said all those mean things to, Yoongi.

"You can say that." Jimin answered quietly.

Jungkook was the one with the heartache now. He couldn't be in this position. It was either Jimin or Taehyung.

If he picked Jimin he would hurt Yoongi and himself. If he picked Taehyung he would hurt Jimin.

Jimin finally looked in Jungkook's direction. He was quiet and hurting. It was pretty evident.

"Maybe I should explain more." He said softly.

Jungkook nodded. Even though it hurt he needed to know the truth. He was currently digging his nails against his palms.

"He wasn't my lover. Never was. He was my best friend. We were best friends since I was eleven. I often moved schools due to foster care and stuff. Well, one lucky day I ended up in his school. He was often bullied for his clothes and I was often bullied for being the new kid. Either way, that brought us closer together. We promised we would always be there for each other no matter what. We were inseparable that was until he stabbed in the back of course."

"How did he do that?" Jungkook wondered.

"Uh, my ex boyfriend is a fucking asshole. You know that already, right?"

Jungkook nodded in response. He was intrigued now and the anxiety was making his underarms sweat.

"He didn't only seduce me. He seduced Taehyung too. Instead of telling him to fuck off Taehyung played along breaking my fucking heart. You know we had our whole lives planned. We told ourselves we would be rich, live together and always be together. I guess we didn't expect to like the same person." He laughed sadly.

"But Taehyung wouldn't..."

"Love makes you blind. Or at least he thought it was love. He didn't care about me or my feelings. I fucking despise my ex and I despised Taehyung for a while too. Until I realized how toxic he was and that he played Taehyung too. I guess I was just harder on him because he was my best friend. He was my everything at the time. My rock, my supporter, my friend and to think that he didn't take my feelings in consideration hurts. That's why I have fucking trust issues. Taehyung was the only important person in my life and the only one keeping me alive. After our friendship ended I became more of an ass. I was already a cruel fucker, but after that shit I became a worse person."

Jungkook ran his fingers through his hair. It all made sense now. Taehyung was guilty and that's why he decided to stay away from him.

To not repeat history. Except, Taehyung didn't know that there was absolutely nothing between Jimin and him.

"I'm so sorry," Jungkook said reaching over to hold his hand.

Jimin shrugged. He was numb at the moment. He hadn't ever told anyone about it and to finally get it off his chest was liberating in a way.

"Why did you assume we were together? Are you catching feelings for him?" Jimin asked remembering that he had seen them together at the dinner.

"I already did. He cut me off by saying that he needed to be with someone that had more money than me. I know that ever since we saw you at the dinner he started acting different."

"Hmm,"

"What?"

"He might've betrayed me five years ago, but I can assure you that boy doesn't pick money over love. He's ambitious and a bit selfish, or he tries to be anyways. At the end of the day he fights for love no matter what."

"I think he did it for you." Jungkook told.

"For me? What? Why would he do that?"

"When he saw us hug he asked me about you. I guess he feels guilty about what happened before with your ex. He must've think we were together."

"Oh,"

"It's a fucked up situation." Jungkook said quietly.

"Very fucked up. But, you can be with him. It doesn't matter to me. Taehyung and I aren't friends anymore anyways." He said as the knot got bigger in his throat.

Jungkook got up from the table and walked behind Jimin to wrap his arms around him. He planted a kiss on his head.

He had been so sad lately. It was the loneliness he felt within him. Was this divine justice? Was he a Taehyung in Yoongi's life?

"Don't ever let anyone tell you, you aren't brave or worthy, Jimin. You're constantly hurting and yet put a smile on your face. I get that you're emotionally hurt and that sometimes you hurt others unintentionally. That doesn't make you less of a person. You're just human. Be easy on yourself."

Human.

The craziest part of this was that no matter how much he tried to deny it he always felt human with, Yoongi.