Hello Fam!

How are you doing? 

I know I promised you guys something and have fallen short of delivering.

So here is the deal, the subject matter of this fiction is a very important and critical topic for me to explore and I want to do justice to it. 

However, I couldn't pen it down during the weeks I wanted to, reason being, as you all will be aware I have recently recovered from COVID-19 and within the almost twenty days of isolation, I didn't feel I was in the right frame of mind to write this down, while I wanted to - I felt, my isolation and struggle during the time of not seeing my little one for such a long time, not being able to work much, not going out whatever little we could so far and most importantly, literally snubbing out all human contact - would affect my thoughts, cloud my perception and finally impact my writing and not do justice to the story. I waited to start off after the isolation was over.

But, like all you working adults and hands on mommies out there can imagine, post recovery I was greeted by a truckload of office work, fatigue, and an emotionally disturbed toddler who was suffering from mild 'separation anxiety' (she had to be kept with her grand parents during my isolation). I realized no amount of Face-Time can replace your physical presence before your child and this became my immediate priority for a couple of weeks post recovery.

After all this, I had just begun to pen down the chapters recently. But this time the news of Parth Samthaan quitting Kasautii 2 reached my ears and it somehow left a bitter taste in my mouth. I mean, I was never a fan of the story-line the show had, but Parth-Erica somehow still managed to convey an epic love on screen by their acting and expressions; I somehow can't digest this news and feel detached from the show right now, with this apathy again i don't feel I can do justice to this plot. (Although I wish the actor all the best for his new projects and hope to see him soon essaying a new role - also I kind of think from his career p.t.v this even makes sense!)

Lastly, I really thought I will pull through and write this fiction, but honestly it will be a forced attempt on my part and I dont know how much good that can do - I finally decided, I will shelf this project for a while; I do promise, I will write this fiction eventually for the plot, but maybe once the dust has settled a bit? 

For now I do have a couple of chapters done, now it is up to you to decide - do you want me to upload these chapters anyway and then put the fiction on hold, or would you rather I finish it and then start uploading all chapters one by one? 

In my opinion the latter makes sense because these chapters, just about sets the context in place, and ends just from the point where the real beef is to begin - it will only keep you longing for more and  leave you disappointed - but then it's your call to make!

So let me know!

Once again, apologies for not keeping the promise this time, but I promise this story shall reach you all EVENTUALLY!

P.S. thanks a lot for your lovely comments and encouraging words and love and warmth for the Prologue, I have read every comment but haven't managed the time to reply - I will soon. I am just running late in almost everything right now, struggling to catch up with the 20 days loss of time. 

Until then, I know I say it too often, but it never seems enough, I love you all for reading my work, being there and staying as a FAM forever here :)

Much love,

A.