All I ever wanted was somebody to hear me
And all I ever wanted was somebody to feel me
And everybody wanna tell me that I'm out of my head
When I'm on the desk that's fine but that don't scare me
It's been a long time but I'm back now
Book prompts welcome to the library
Book prompts will live till I pass out blackout blackout
Everybody keep on wondering if I still write now
Are you serious, anybody out there hearing this?
Yo I came in the game with a pen in hand
And I'ma leave like that, period
You sniff plots, I write plots, you've now entered in my world
And you better get ready cause you might find
I'm from a different place and my kind
It's a little bit different than yours is
Quit snoring novels aren't dead
They've just been in mourning from the moment I quit creating
Quick, write down this
Listen I'm warming up and you're misinformed if
You think that I'm slipping up, this ain't sick enough, then I'll skip the story
I've been here ain't nobody heard of me?
Yeah I'ma turn this page to a murder scene
I don't live for the world
I live for the King, I live for the King, focus
Wrote this with emotion
It's hard to get a break when the door's ain't open
It's hard to get a shot when the gun ain't loaded
And it's hard to make a living when nobody wanna notice. Hold it
What am I insane maybe, plain crazy
You put me in a room with a pen you will not restrain me
You do what you wanted but you can't contain me
Lazy is not a character trait of mine, don't wait in line
This is the current condition of my state of mind

Don't tell me that this isn't real
Don't tell me this ain't how I feel
This is all I have all I have

All I ever wanted was somebody to get this
All I ever wanted was somebody to read this
Take my works, put it on their bookshelf and get goosebumps every time they read it, rate us
If that's my calling or not Father, maybe I should just not bother
Go back to that nine to five but I am not a quitter so quit that
I never been a killer but I guarantee I kill chapters
Put them in a coffin, lost in, rip that
Trying to make an impact in books, is that insane?
Well, I guess so
Write though, better give me that pencil
And you ain't ever gonna make it, it's all mental
I am in a place where I can't let go ah!
I still work a job and do this
And y'all know what's stupid?
I thought all you had to do was get it published and yo things start moving
But that's not the case because most of the times the series you read
You keep on thinking that author is new but that author has probably been at it for years
Yeah, in the back of my mind thinking
Am I wasting my time dreaming
And I ain't got no money in my wallet but
I guarantee there ain't no way that I am gonna leave this
I need this I swear to y'all I need this
And this fantasy's in my veins if you cut me I'ma bleed it
And yo. What you think I write stories for no reason, no
Take my pain and I put em in a book ever since I lost my sanity!
I've been a different person, don't try to predict my sequels,
What you're reading now is me whether I'm in front or behind that screen
I stand behind these words I'm a Christian but I'm not perfect
Don't tell me to calm down I'm calm now, listen I'm just working
Yeah it might take a minute to get it but once you get it everything will be crystal clear
I don't think they see my vision here I don't think they see my vision here!

Don't tell me that this isn't real
Don't tell me this ain't how I feel
This is all I have. All I have

A/N: the song in the video is the original version of this. It is called All I Have by NF. This version, however, is how my mind sees it. The words were not mine to begin with. I made them my own with this rewrite. Copyright is not mine. If you like it, if you feel that it is your voice speaking out, use it. If writing is all you have, then proclaim your fear of losing it to the world.