Very comfy Louis and Harry were lying on the bed in the Lake House upstairs in Louis' favourite room and finally watched the last two episodes of Shadowhunters Season 1 like they wanted to for such a long time. They were in the middle of episode 12 now. The episode Louis was kinda afraid to watch with Harry for an unknown reason. It was called 'Malec'.

"What? Did he really just die? We've known him for two minutes. Damn, Magnus really has bad luck. I'm so sorry for him" exclaimed Harry shocked at one scene.

"I thought the same thing. It's just not fair" agreed Louis with him. 

"I'm so freaking torn how to react when I see her. I like Lydia but this wedding is bullshit" frowned Harry. 

"I like her a lot. She does the right things and has a good heart but yeah this is stupid". As Louis looked back at the screen Alec was inside of Magnus apartment. He knew that scene by heart and knew what Magnus would tell Alec word by word and knew everything was true. From personal experience. 

"You're confusing me" groaned Alec in despair.

"Confusion is part of it. That's how you find out if something is there. Emotions are never black and white. They're more like symptoms. You lose your breath when they enter a room. Your heart beats faster when they walk by. Your skin tangles when they stand close enough to feel their breath" walked Magnus around Alec in a circle. Louis had goosebumps everywhere and glanced slightly at Harry. He was staring at the screen with an expression Louis has never seen before. Now he was scared. 

"I know you feel what I feel, Alec" and like always Louis wished he could say this so confident but he was way too stupid for that. 

"I see where Alec is coming from though" murmured Harry as Alec didn't react in a very good way. Louis just thought 'Me too'. 

"Will not ask again" was the last thing Magnus said before the scene was over. At that, Harry looked over at Louis which made him feel weird. Why was Harry looking at him like this?

"Wait, a second. I thought he was dead" gasped Harry confused. 

"He is dead" stated Louis. 

"So he is just an imagination helping Magnus or what?" tried Harry to understand.

"To be honest I have no idea" admitted Louis. 

"One day someone will come along who will tear down those walls you've built around your heart. When this love comes around you must do everything in your power to fight for it". Those words made Louis suddenly really sad. He would fight for Harry if he knew there would be a slight chance but there wasn't. So thanks Shadowhunter for making him sad. 

"Oh God, please don't marry her. Where's Magnus? We need Magnus" pleaded Harry desperately, making Louis grin to himself. 

"YES. There's my man" exclaimed Harry a few seconds later. 

"Your man, huh?" cocked Louis an eyebrow at him. 

"Guess Alec is going to kill me" grinned Harry. 

"What's that warlock doing here?" asked Alec's Mom. 

"Saving all of our lives. Thank you very much" said Louis sassily, making Harry laugh. 

"I can't breath" panted Alec out. 

"That was one of the symptoms" realised Harry. 

"Did she just...? Wow, thank you, Lydia. You're amazing". 

"Can they just fucking kiss already?" was Harry shaking next to him and Louis like every time hold his breath. This scene was everything. As they kissed Harry squealed out of joy and Louis was completely gone. 

"This was intense" breathed Harry out. 

"Yes. Best scene ever" agreed Louis with him. 

"That song was great. The lyrics made me sad though. What is it called?" Harry wanted to know. 

"War of Hearts. Here, I have the acoustic version so you can focus better on the lyrics" started Louis the song on his phone. 

Harry was leaning against his shoulder, listening to the song. That was too much for Louis to handle right now. His emotions were everywhere and hearing that song didn't help him at all. Being this close to Harry wasn't making it any better so he decided to take a break. 

"I'm back in a second". With that Louis abruptly stood up, left the room and went downstairs. He stopped in front of a window and stared outside. His heart was beating so much faster, making Louis think that he might die. To his disliking, he heard footsteps on the stairs and a few seconds later Harry was in the room too. 

"Are you okay, Louis?" asked Harry in a worried voice. 

"I'm good. Just needed some air" pointed Louis at the closed window. 

"Wanna sit down for a second?" patted Harry space next to him. Louis just nodded and sat down too. Silence fell over them and Louis knew this was because of him this time. 

"I just realised something" spoke Harry up. 

"And what?" faced Louis him. 

"This is the place where we talked back then. Where we made our promise that I broke. That's the fireplace". 

Hearing those words sent Louis back into the nightmare he had at the hospital. Dream Harry said something way too similar to those words. He felt his breathing picking up and his hands started to shake lightly. Harry picked up on this and worriedly took Louis' hand, just making it worse. 

"Lou, what happened? What's wrong?" panicked Harry. 

"Nothing. S'all good" croaked Louis out, panting heavily. 

"Don't lie to me. You're shaking" was Harry helpless. 

"That's exactly what you said in my dream" whispered Louis under his breath, not meaning to say it out loud. 

"Your dream? What about it?" hooked Harry. 

"Just memories of it coming back" coughed Louis. 

"That nightmare you had at the hospital? Oh God, so bad?" realised Harry what was going on. A bit. 

"Comes back at night. Came back now" breathed Louis out. 

"Okay, breath Louis. You wanna tell me what happened in it to get closure?" suggested Harry to him. 

"I woke up next to you in the hospital and your Mom was mad at me. Said it was all my fault but I had no idea what she meant. But turned out you lost your memories of a few years. You thought Jake was still your boyfriend and had no idea who Zayn was or Niall... or me. Everything they tried failed and you couldn't remember me. It was hopeless until we visited this Lake House and stepped inside. You remembered this exact place where we are right now" told Lous him, getting his breath back. 

"That sounds horrible" gasped Harry. 

"It was. It felt so real" shuddered Louis at the thought. 

"But was that everything? Did nothing else happen?" checked Harry with an unreadable expression on his face. 

"No, this was all. Nothing else happened. That was bad enough. Don't be stupid. Why should there be more? As if" stood Louis up and walked towards the patio door. 

"It was me, right?" called Harry after him, making him stop in his tracks. He turned around and looked questioningly at him.

"The nightmare was about me. You said it back to me, didn't you?" asked Harry softly.

"Not everything is about you, Harry. It could have been about everyone. Niall, Zayn, my mother..." contradicted Louis desperately.

"But you just told me the dream was about me forgetting about you guys after the accident. Forgetting about you. You told me it was about how you tried everything to help me get my memories back and how it came back as soon as I stepped inside this Lake House because there was no way I could forget our time here. And it's true. Right here you told me there was nothing I could do to make you hate me" approached Harry him.

"And that's true, Haz. I was disappointed, sad, angry, mad or pissed off but I never hated you. I could never hate you because....". admitted Louis honestly.

"You love me?" asked Harry hopefully.

"No! Yes. I mean umm...." stumbled Louis over his words. Of course, he loved Harry but he couldn't admit it because it was stupid to love someone you're not even in a relationship with, right?

"I really really like you, Harry. I really do. God, I tried not to for so long but it didn't work. I failed but don't worry. This won't affect our friendship. It didn't until now so why should it from now on? Except you want me to leave you alone now. Then I will. I know it's one-sided. I'm not a delusional idiot. I'm just your friend and that's okay. Well, even if it was different it wouldn't work out anyway. We'd be doomed to fail anyway" rambled Louis nervously because he didn't want to lose Harry completely.

Harry just stared blankly at him and looked kinda sad which made no sense to Louis. What was going on inside his head?

"It's because of me, right?" asked Harry barely audible.

"Huh?".

"You said we'd be doomed to fail anyway. Why are you so sure about this?" frowned Harry.

"Does it matter now, Harry? Why are we talking about this? We're friends and it's embarrassing enough for me. And you just broke things off with Max and you should...".

"God, Louis! Answer me!" exploded Harry, successfully shutting Louis up. "It's because I'm such a fuckboy right? That's the reason. No one wants someone like me. Why would they? I fucked too many people to even count and I'm a horrible person without feelings. You could never trust me enough".

"Hazza, that's absolutely not true. You are not a horrible person, you hear me? You are simply amazing. You had your reasons to be like this but you were about to stop it.  As soon as you knew you had feelings for Max you came to me and asked what to do. You were willing to give all of this up for him. That's not horrible" told Louis him, trying not to show how much he was hurting.

"I'm such an idiot" realised Harry. 

"What are you talking about?" frowned Louis confused.

"I came straight up to you and talked your ear off about a guy I liked while you have feelings for me. I not only hurt you. I cruelly crushed your heart and you were still there for me. You are still here for me. I told you I was ready to give my former life up for Max. I stupidly told you this without thinking about your feelings. I was ready to do it for him and not for you and I rubbed it under your nose. That must have been cruel".

"You didn't know".

"Still. After the kiss and my actions and your reactions, I shouldn't have done that. I shouldn't have brought Max in our life in the first place. I'm sorry".

"You don't have to be sorry".

"God, why are you always so understanding. Be angry at me. Be mad. Be something. I fucking hurt you" groaned Harry.

"Wow. Yeah, thanks for the reminder" snorted Louis sarcastically.

"Not a surprise you can't trust me" mumbled Harry.

"Haz, I do trust you" lifted Louis his chin with his finger.

"But why?".

"Because I do".

"Why would we be doomed to fail then?".

"Harry, can you stop this? You already know I have feelings for you. Can you just tell me if you're okay with it and we can still be friends or if you want me to leave your life? I'm okay as long as you are okay. Don't make this so hard for me".

"Was it about me?" asked Harry again.

"Harry" groaned Louis in despair.

"I remember you sleeping in my hospital room and mumbling things like 'Don't leave me' and 'I love you too' but the dream was about me. Lou, you sure you like me?".

"Why are you doing this to me, Harry?" was Louis close to tears.

"I just wanna know".

"What for? Isn't this bad enough for me already? Do you have to torture me? Why does it matter what kind of feelings I have for you exactly? I have to get over them anyway. Can we finish this conversation and just pretend...?".

"I love you" silenced Harry him.

"What did you just say ?" blinked Louis perplexed at him.

"I love you, Louis" repeated Harry his words softly.

"Don't say something like this if you don't mean it. You still like Max and you're just saying this because you're pitying me but I don't need pity. That's why I didn't want you to know. This is not helping" told Louis him shaken by what was happening.

"I never truly liked Max. I thought I did but I simply liked the idea of it. It was just the wrong person. There's only one guy that I really like " came Harry closer to him.

"You don't mean that " shook Louis his head.

"But I do. Louis William Tomlinson, I am truly madly deeply in love with you and I'm sorry it took me so long to realise that. I put you through so much pain and I don't deserve you but I'm selfish because I still want you and hope you'd want me too, even after all this shit" confessed Harry to him.

"Really?" asked Louis in disbelief.

"Really, Louis. My heart knew that a long time ago but my head wasn't listening and I'm sorry about that. I really wish you could forgive me and give me another chance but I'm not that stupid. I know for this, more than just feelings and liking me is necessary. I really fucked up" hung Harry his head low in shame.

"Yes, you did but it's in the past. I thought I made that clear, Haz" reminded Louis him.

"Just can't believe it. You're just too good for me" mumbled Harry sadly.

"Well, what can I say? Maybe I am. Maybe I'm not. We'll see in the future" spread a grin across Louis' face.

"What do you mean?" looked Harry now directly into Louis' eyes.

"Isn't it plain right obvious? I thought you already knew" placed Louis his hand on Harry's cheek, now standing not even an inch away from him. "I love you too". 

They looked deeply into each other's eyes before both of them slowly leaned in at the same time. Louis fluttered his eyes shut and a moment later he felt Harry's lips on his own. It was like an explosion was triggered inside of him. He felt tingles everywhere and his stomach felt warm and fuzzy and his heart was beating out of his chest. This sweet and innocent soft kiss was absolutely perfect. 

"Lou, open your eyes" whispered Harry as they broke apart. 

"No." replied Louis quietly. 

"Why not?" asked Harry, just eyeing Louis' facial features. 

"I'm scared you're gone when I open them. Scared I just made that up in my head. Scared you leave me again" admitted Louis timidly with still closed eyes. 

"I'm never gonna leave you again. I promise. Open your eyes, love" assured Harry him softly. 

Slowly Louis opened his eyes and was met with bright green ones already looking at him. "You're still here". 

With his thumb, Harry stroked over Louis' cheek, which made both of them smile. Harry leaned their foreheads together and pulled Louis into his arms. "And I'm gonna stay". 

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I'm deceased now. God, I wanted this so badly to happen and now it finally did. 

Question of the Chapter: Did you expect something else and are they gonna work out this time?

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