(Hello jelly beans how have you been? I have been swell i guess I was down for awhile and didn't have much inspiration but now I'm felling good and happy and have a strict schedule going so that's good in case you missed it in the last chapter I will ether be posting every Wednesday or Saturday depending on how long the chapter is. WARNING ⚠️⚠️ THOUGHTS OF SUICIDE AND TALKING OF SUICIDE YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED ⚠️⚠️enjoy jelly beans)
Vergils pov
Roman finally left me alone I pretended to sleep to make sure he wasn't still watching once I was sure he was gone I sat up ~they know now they're going to lock you away or worse THEYLL MAKE YOU FADE AND DISAPPEAR they don't love you or care they are happy that you want to die~ I bring my knees to my chest and lightly rock back and forth trying to not have another panic attack I cover my ears trying to ignore the voices and the dark figures coming out of the shadows of my room "please make it stop. It's not true." I whisper to myself there venomous words keep me up for the rest of the night.
~time skip(let's do the time skip again)~
Romans pov
I woke to an overly bright light and the feeling of not being in my room I squinted and looked around "oh your awake good now we can discuss how we are going to get Virgil out of his room" I roll my eyes and sit up "so is this why I'm in your room did you forcefully summon me ?" "Well yes i tried to get Virgil to come out of his room and he refused even when I tried to summon him so I summoned you to see if you had any ideas but you were asleep I thought the simulation of it being the middle of the day might wake you hence the desk lamp in your face" I look down at where my head was before I sat up and sighed yep there was a lamp I roll my eyes and get up off his study table "so you wanted to know if I had any ideas for getting him out of his room hmmm i have one but I don't know if it will work" he nods "well it won't hurt to try."
Virgil's pov
I hadn't gotten any sleep I was to afraid that the figures would get to me and make matters worse between me and everyone else. ~just do it cut kill harm no one cares or ever will just cut again make yourself fade before they try to fade you their coming to take you away you disappointed them and they hate you~ "your not real it's not true" I whisper I take a deep breath trying to keep the bad thoughts out of my head when there's suddenly a nock on my door and the dark figures slowly slink back to the shadows "what?" I say monotone not wanting to sound like I care or have been up all night. "I wanted to know if you would come out here and talk to me and Logan?" Oh of corse Roman the great knight is here I really don't want to stay in my room but I also don't want to see or talk to any of them "no I'm good I'll stay in my room thanks" I here him sigh "come on verge of you come out me and you can listen to some twenty chemical discos" I quietly giggly to myself at his attempt and roll my eyes "Roman I don't want to come out" "ok then" he opens my door and welcomes himself in i face away from him "verge come out now or I will make you come out" I smirk and snicker "and how are you going to do that?" I swear I could feel that stupid prince smirk of his. I could hear him messing around with my CD player I turned my head slightly to see exactly what he was doing then I heard it "teenagers scared the living shit out of my they could care less" he placed his hand on my shoulder "as long as someone will bleed so darken your clothes I'll strike a violent pose and maybe they'll leave you alone" I pushed his hand off shoulder and song along "but not me" he looked a little upset "I hope you know I'm still not leaving" "ok then" I turned away again and heard him going through my drawer "ah here it is let's see November 25 the first snow fall I wish I was snow so cold rushing never alone the others hate the first snow fall cause of how crazy some people act but I love it it's cold and dark and gives me an excuse to wear long sleeves to hide the-" he stops reading and flips to several other pages "pretty nose pretty nose I hang you around my neck and drupe my head wishing I was dead I lay to rest for the people who lie I fake smile and say I'll stay for awhile while I wish I was gone or mad or no longer sad I'm just hanging around I guess you could call me the clown of this awful town" I lightly chuckle "if you really think reading my notebook will make me leave my room then your dead wrong just give up Roman you can't make me leave my room so just leave ." I hear him sigh "fine verge I'll leave and let you stay in your room but~ I'm taking your knife and gun" "WHAT" he grabs my knife and gun and runs out my room shit I quickly get up and run after him as I run down the hall I hear my door shut I turn around and Logan's standing by my door Roman comes up behind me and pats my shoulder " I got you out of your room didn't I ?" He chuckles as he walks towards the main room "GOD DAMIT ugh" Logan and i follow him once I make it to the main room he grabs me by the wrist and makes me sit down on the couch there are two chairs across from me.
Logan has a medical book on depression and suicide and Roman has my gun and my knife. I try not to make eye contact with them. "Virgil do you have depression?" I barely open my mouth "I already know what your going to say 'no cause Thomas don't have depression' well I'm not talking about Thomas you are an individual and I mean you. Do you have depression?" I take a moment to think about it "I .... I don't think I do" "well according to the signs of depression I believe you have savior depression" Roman puts his hand on my knee "and I think you have thoughts of suicide. I'm going to be confiscating your gun and knife and any other weapons you might have" "Virgil we care about you ok? This is for your own good we will also be following to make sure you are not trying to harm yourself or hurt your self any more" I had kept my head down this whole time till what Logan said I looked up they are going to follow me around ~they think your dangerous and that you'll hurt Thomas they don't care they are lying to you they just want to lock you away they think you are insane~ "VIRGIL" Roman said snapping the voice from my head "you zoned out are you good ?" I only nod he grabs me by the wrist and pulls me up "wha-" "we are going to go get Patton ok?" I just nod and let him drag me down the hall we make it to Patton's room Logan walks right in. Roman starts to walk in but I pull back I love Patton but I dont like his room it's filled with things from the past and makes me think of what could have been. Roman looked back at me concerned and then understood he let go of my wrist I leaned against the wall by the door Roman stood across from me we stood there awkwardly waiting for Logan and Patton. Jesus what are they doing in there finally they come out "hey Virgil" Patton says hesitantly I look down at my feet "well shall we go" Logan says "go where?" I look to Roman "oh um Patton you want to answer?" I turn to Patton "oh no Logan you should answer" "oh no-" "WOULD SOMEONE JUST ANSWER" "alright fine everyday we all go to the living room or main room Roman ether sings or practices lines Patton knits or looks at cute videos and I read and research" "and since we can't leave you alone we decided you are going to join us" I roll my eyes why didn't I know they did this before? ~cause they never invited you they don't care~ I lightly shake my head and look up at Roman I sigh I give him this look and he gets it he grabs my wrist and drags me with them.
   ~time skip only a few minutes~
Ugh this is so boring and Logan makes this even worse by asking really random questions "so when your alone what do you think about? How deep do you make the cuts? If you had to kill yourself how would you do it?" I just kept ignoring him. Being here in this room is killing me I can hear every little thing like Patton's knitting thread Roman turning his script page and Logan typing something it's all getting to me I was sitting on the floor with my back against the couch I start banging my head on the couch "ugh" "hey kiddo if you want you can sit on the couch with me" I sigh "no I'm good Patton" "or Virgil you could run lines with me" "oh really run lines with with the great Roman?" I say sarcastically "if you were in your room alone with a loaded gun what would you do?" I sighed getting annoyed I was trying to tune out the noise but it kept getting louder and louder "UGH THATS IT" i stood up head to my room "where are you going?" Roman asked "to my room I can't take this anymore" "Virgil you need to stay with us" Logan says not even looking away from his laptop I feel the rage rise in me "verge of you ant to go to your room why don't I go with you" Patton says standing up "JUST LEAVE ME ALONE NONE OF YOU CARE OR TRUST ME TO BE ALONE STOP TREATING ME LIKE A CHILD AND JUST LET ME BE!!!!" I storm off to my room
    Romans pov
Patton tries to follow Virgil worriedly I stop him "look we all care about Virgil but we aren't helping him like this" I say Logan turns around and looks at me "well then what do we do it's not like we know much about him to help him" "exactly we need to get to know him and do things he would like" "but what would he like? How would we find out?" Logan asked skeptically "OH I HAVE AN IDEA?" I cover my ears at how loud Patton shouted "let's ...hear ...it Patton " "oh sorry for shouting but here's my plan we could have a movie night and pretend we can't find any movies to watch and have Virgil pick the movies and if he starts to catch on then we could do karaoke and have him go first and see what songs he picks." Me and Logan pause for a second that is actually an amazing idea "that is AWESOME PATTON" Logan gets up and raps his arm around Patton's shoulder "good job hun" he kisses Patton's cheek "what are you two?" "We are boyfriends" Patton says blushing oh my god that are so cute I wish I could be that way with Virgil.
    (Hello jelly beans hope you enjoyed this really long chapter does anybody have any requests for movie names and songs in the next chapter please tell me in the comments thank you have a good day jelly beans)