Trigger Warning: Cursing words and mature scenes.

Present Time...

Sarah

I was prepared to say my speech which I have been contemplating for so long. Alam ko nabibigla lang si Billy noong sinabi nyang cancelled na ang kasal namin.

Nadala lang siya sa sitwasyon niya. He is paralyzed from the waist down and his condition is serious.

There is no need for me to doubt his feelings. There is absolutely no reason for me to be doubtful nor suspicious of his actions towards me.

He was in denial about his condition. He still cannot accept his tragic fate. Who am I to question his health state?

I have made a snack for him. I made his favorite palitaw and kutsinta. I am eager to see him and hopeful to put a smile on his face.

I miss the old Billy. I miss him too much that it's breaking my heart to see him shy away from me.

In my comfortable jeans and shirt, I put on a light makeup and faced my full body mirror.
I tried to smile and act okay. But these stupid tears cannot stop falling.

I wiped them off over and over again.

My goodness! My eyes are swollen!

Dyahe! Minus ganda points!

I chuckled lightly and sniffed. I inhaled and exhaled a few times before I fanned to calm myself.

Masyadong mabigat ang dibdib ko ngayon. And, I don't know why.

Daig ko pa ang may pinaglalamayan. Hay buhay!

Once I was totally calmed down, I went out of the kitchen and searched for a decent tupperware where I can place these goods and put them inside the eco-bag.

Mom was out today until this Wednesday because Aunt Felicity has been asking for her to spend some time with her. They have been friends since high school days and I envy them for that.

It's rare to find someone who treasures the friendship they have for a long time. Aunt Felicity is a faithful and reliable friend. She has also became my second mother then when I was younger and wasn't able to take care of myself.

It took me only thirty minutes to check everything before I locked the door of our house and headed to the road to hail a cab. I glanced at my wristwatch and noticed that it's past three in the afternoon.

I smiled when my eyes rested on the ecobag which I had brought along. I was glad that our household is organized despite not having helpers around. It's easier to find things.

I reached Billy's house an hour after and I breathed deeply again before I knocked on their door. Nobody answered.

I frowned when I saw the gate was slightly ajar. I entered and did not hesitate to go inside.

I held on to the doorknob and jiggled it. As expected, it was open too.

Clinging to the strap of my sling bag wrapped on my body, I gripped on the ecobag tightly and walked towards the living room. It was quiet and the sun shone on their glass cabinet where Billy's mom's Teacup collection was placed.

I was about to call out for Billy or any one of their maids when I heard yelling and shouting from upstairs. Realizing that the sounds came from his room, I ran up to him.

When I get inside, I halted from knocking on his door. The voices had died down and all I can hear were their words.

"Let's just stop this, please. Nakokonsensya na ako." I heard how Billy begged at her. This time, I can hear him cry. "Mahal ko si Sarah. At masyado ko na syang nasasaktan."

"M-mahal?" Nathalie laughed despite tears. "Mahigit isang taon ka ng naglalaro ng apoy tapos sasabihin mo sa akin ngayon na mahal mo sya?"

I closed my eyes and I felt my face getting wet with tears I heard the painful truth coming out of her mouth. Truth hurts like shit. I can feel my blood boiling and I wanted to hear him say it.

"H-hindi mo sya mahal, Billy!" Nathalie yelled. "Dahil kung mahal mo sya, hinding-hindi ka matutukso sa akin! Hinding-hindi ka magpapatuloy sa gulong inumpisahan mo kung hindi mo din ginusto! Sarah deserved more! She deserved fucking more!"

"Oo! Tao lang ako!" I heard frustration in Billy's voice as he hollered back at her. "At pinagsisisihan kong nagpatukso ako sa'yo! Pero, binlackmail mo ako! Tinakot mo ako sa scandal na ipapakalat mo at ikasisira namin ni Sarah!" I couldn't hold it any longer. The grip on the ecobag became tighter as I clung to my blouse with tears streaming down my face nonstop. At that moment, I just want to burst. "At ngayon, masaya ka na? Nakikita mo na kaming sirang-sira?"

It looked like Nathalie had come to her senses and she began to sob again. She tried to hug Billy from where I was standing outside his room and saw how he fought back. Until she find her way to snaked her arms around Billy and I saw her crying on his shoulders.

"Mahal naman kita eh." Nathalie pleaded while hugging Billy. "Bakit hindi mo ako magawang mahalin? Ako na lang, Billy."

It was too much. But I couldn't find myself turning back to go home.

"You deserve to be love wholeheartedly, Nathalie. At hindi ako iyon." I heard Billy said and seemed to pull back from her embrace.

"For one last time, Billy, let's make love." Those were Nathalie's words as she locked her gaze with him.

I watched in horror as to how quickly their situation has shifted. I saw how Billy gently kissed her despite his condition. How his lips found hers while here I am, believing that he would never betray my trust.

I couldn't tear my eyes away from them. I know this is torture for me. But I want them to realize that they are not alone. That I have witnessed their betrayal. Their disgusting game with fire.

It did not take long for me to let my presence known because when I saw how aggressive they both are, I broke down and my grasp on the ecobag loosened and fell to the ground.

"Sar-Sarah." Billy looked at me in horror and he pushed Nathalie away, not caring if they are both naked.

"Sa-Best." Nathalie stuttered as she locked eyes with me. She struggled to drape the blanket around her body as she met my gaze.

Angrily, I walked towards them and when I get near her, I had already lifted my right hand in an attempt to slap her.

Nathalie closed her eyes and gave her cheek as an offering to my painful slap. I kept my glare at her and before I even have an urge to totally destroy her face, I returned my hand to my side.

She opened her eyes and mirrored my tears.  She tried to talk but I cut her out.

I turned to face Billy and I saw how his face became ashen and began to explain, "Sarah. I-I'm sorry. It was never my intention to cheat."

"Talaga ba?" I mocked and let out a sarcastic chuckle. "Maiintindihan ko pa kung lasing ka at hindi alam ang ginagawa mo! Pero hindi! Matino ang isip mo! Tangina! For the last time? Tangina! Ilang last time ba 'yan?"

I sniffed and laughed like a madman. I turned to face Nathalie who has changed back to her clothes.

"Lintik! Ano, masarap bang maglaro sa apoy? Kating-kati ba masyado?" I hollered and Nathalie jumped in startle when I raised my voice.

I was known to be the cool and collected type. They have known me that well since we have been fucking old friends for a long time.

"I-I'm sorry, Bes-" Nathalie started.

"Tangina! Best? Ako? Best mo? Kelan mo ba ako tinuring na bestfriend?" I shot back at her. "I was more of a SLAVE to you back then, di ba?"

Suddenly, Nathalie laughed with my words and put her hands on her hips and leveled me with a stare.

"Kasalanan ko bang tatanga-tanga ka? Na hindi mo na alam na inuuto ka na?" Nathalie snapped and flipped her hair. "Goodbye, Billy Babe. See you around." With that she turned on her heel and left us in his room.

I scoffed in disbelief and wiped my tears away. I felt Billy's hand on my arm and I glanced at his pleading eyes.

"Please let me explain." He said with tear-strickened face.

"Just so you know, hinding-hindi ako makikipaghiwalay sayo. Hinding-hindi ko kayo hahayaan maging masaya." I said and left him in his room.

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Ayan na nga!

Napuno na si Sarah! 😞😞😞

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