Hi guys! This takes place at season 2. Kanan isn't blind and Ezra is 15 years old. English is not my mother talk so sorry for my grammar mistakes. Just to let you know this story will have a lot of emotions and violence. If someone is too sensitive about those things, I hope he/she has a strong stomach. But I was watching movies about those things since I was six years old!Anyways! I hope you like it! Soooo, here we go!

No one's p.o.v

It all happened so fast. It supposed to be a simple mission. Yeah...Those never go well. But this time was worst than any other.

Kanan's p.o.v

The crates were in the Phantom and were ready to go. I waved at Hera to take off. Sabine and Zeb ran inside. Wait! Where is Ezra?

"Kanan!"

I looked behind me to see Ezra being held down by storm troopers. I took my comm.

"Hera, leave!"

"Not without you and Ezra"

"Ezra's in trouble. I'm going to get him. Don't worry we'll steel a TIE to leave and I'll meet you back to the base"

There was a long silence before she answered.

"Okay"

I ran to Ezra's side using my light saber to deflect the blaster shots. I was trying to get as close to Ezra as I could but the shots were to many.

I closed my eyes. I cleaned my mind and calmed myself. I took a deep breath and let myself dive in the force. I opened my eyes and I saw that all the storm troopers were unconscious. Even those who were holding Ezra.

Ezra was struggling to get up. I ran to him but before I could say anything. I heard a loud bang on the sky. I looked up and I was stained from what I saw. Phadom was shot and was falling with huge speed on the ground. The flames and the smoke were hugging the ship as it was falling. I took out my come.

"Hera?! Hera come in!"

"Kanan, I love you" it was the last thing I ever heard from her before the ship crash in the planet surface and blew up killing my friends and the love of my life. The time stopped. All the world froze. I stood there, not being able to move. They're gone. They're all gone. I could barely hear Ezra screaming. Tears escaped my eyes as my screams followed his.

Two days later. On the funeral of the Ghost crew

Ezra's p.o.v.

"Today we are here to honor four brave heroes who contributed not only to the rebellion but to the whole galaxy. They gave hope and they.... "

Sato kept talking but I stopped listening. My heart could take no more.

I felt a cold and wet sensation on the top of my head. I looked up. The sky was cloudy and rainy. I then looked at the three graves in front of me. Even the sky cries. I would cry too but I ran out of tears three days before.

It's been only two weeks since their death and I haven't said a word. I barely eat or sleep. Even though Kanan is practically begging me to eat but the food can't get down my throat and no sound could leave my mouth.

"...and they will always be remembered" Saying ended his speech.

I looked down feeling like my heart would fall apart in any minute. My breathing speeded up and everything became blurry. I felt the urge to black out and I would if it wasn't for the two strong and warm arms that wrapped around me. I looked up to see Kanan holding me.

"Ezra, you haven't spoken those two weeks. Please say something"

I stayed silent. I thought I ran out of tears but, I was wrong. I closed my eyes as new tears formed.

"I know you miss them Ezra. I do too. I have lost so many people in my life Ezra. I don't want to lose you too. Please say something" he pleaded as he tightened his hold.

I opened my mouth but my throat was sore.

"I miss them" I said as loud as I could but it was just a whisper. But I knew Kanan heard me because he started rubbing my back as I dig my head deeper on his chest. At least I still have Kanan. Little did I know that this wasn't true.

Kanan p.o.v

After the funeral everyone went back to their duties but I decided to help Ezra back to the Ghost. As we walked in silence the memories of his cries that cursed night flashed before my eyes.

Flashback

After some minutes. I stopped screaming and I took some deep breaths. I looked at Ezra to see him on the floor crying so hard that I thought that his heart was really breaking. I hugged him but he didn't moved. He just kept on crying. I placed his head on my shoulder and I tighten my grip on him when I felt my shirt getting wet.

"It's alright Ezra. I'm here. I'm right here. It will be okay"

I whispered to his ear but I myself couldn't believe my own words. How can everything be okay when everything you love and care about is just..... gone. That moment, I could actually hear my heart that cracked.

End of the flashback

I looked up to see that we reached the ramp. As we got inside I flinched at how silent it was. I signed and lead Ezra to his room.

As we passed the cockpit I almost broke down when I didn't saw Hera sitting on her chair. But I had to stay strong for the broken child in front of me.

We stopped outside of Ezra's room. The door opened and Ezra cried out, probably because his roommate wasn't inide. I put my hand on his shoulder.

"If you need anything, call me"

He nodded and he headed inside. I sighed and went to my own room.

I sat down and I tried to meditate. After I don't know how, I quit. I couldn't concentrate. I needed something to get rid of the pain. Anything!

I looked down.

"I'd better check Ezra" I got up feeling numb and I walked out of my room. I stopped in front of Ezra's room and I knocked the door.

Nothing.

I used the emergency code to unlock the door and once the door was open I looked inside worried. I was relieved to see Ezra sleeping on the bottom bank where Zeb was sleeping.

I walked inside and I kneeled beside the bed looking at Ezra. He looked so innocent but in the same time so broken.

I saw a blanket at the edge of the bed. I took the blanket and tucked him in. I saw a him smile on his sleep and I smiled too. I almost forgot how he looked when he was smiling. I got up and left the room.

I made my way to the kitchen. I sat on the table and I closed my eyes. I sat there, alone, deep in thought. After what it felt like forever I opened my eyes again.

I looked at the kitchen knowing that we would never be able to have a family dinner again. Hera would make us eat together in this table and wasn't allowing anyone to leave. We all hated that because we had better things to do but Hera was saying that in that way we would bond as a team and as a family. Now, the thing I hated is what I want the most.

My eyes suddenly laid on a drawer. That drawer. Hera made me swear that I would never open it again. Well she is not here anymore.

" Just one bottle so I can get rid of some of the pain" I thought.

"No, Jarrus! You will loose the control. You always do"

"So? I don't have to always be on control"

"There is a child on the ship. He just lost his family. He hurts as much as you do. If you lost the control you might hurt him"

My mind kept debating whether or not I should take some beers from the drawer.

In the end, I took my decision. I was about to open the drawer until..

So this is the first chapter. I hope you like it. The truth is I worked really hard for it and that's why it took me so long to update. Safe travels! Goodbye!
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