Title: Why'd You Leave Me?

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I clutched at my chest as I lurched forward, grasping the fence that was before me.

I couldn't breath.

My heart had probably stopped. It always did. Every so often.

My lungs felt as though acid had been poured in them and it sloshed and swayed in my chest. My guts felts as though a hook had been stabbed in and was tugging vigorously on them. My arms felt stiff and hard and I could barely move them.

It took an immense amount strength just to grab the fence. My legs felt like collapsing and falling; for what was the point of standing on this earth anymore?

Marco is gone. I, Jean Kirstein had no reason to exist anymore.

I slumped down the fence and rested my head on my knees. I cradled the side of my head with my arms and stared straight down to the ground with my eyes wide open. I noticed how the floor was moist and bare and how the grass had withered and died.

I'd seen many things die...

The rain gushed down enveloping me in water, it was as though the world was mourning alongside me. I strained my head so it was looking towards the sky. The clouds coated the sky and it was truly a vile and hideous sight. The clouds seemed to be blocking out the sky and I couldn't see the heavens that used to allure me so. I couldn't see if he was there. Why'd it have to rain? Marco hated the rain. He loved to see the magnificent sky.

Why'd he leave me?

We could of cussed and cursed the rain together. Why'd he leave me? We could of sat on the couch and snuggled together under a warm blanket, hiding from the cold air. Why'd he leave me? We could of done so much together. Why'd he leave me? We could of spent eternity together. Why'd he leave me? I thought if you loved someone enough you'd stay with them forever.

I love you.

I hope ya can see me from up there. Maybe blow away a few clouds and peep through a hole.

I smiled sadly.

I'll always ask myself.

Why'd you leave me?

A/N: It angst. What did you expect, joy and happiness?

I wrote this last year and felt like publishing it again.