I was reviewing the papers that my assistant gave me this morning when a warm embrace came from behind. 

I feel him kiss me at the top of my head after that he rest his chin to my shoulder.

"I love you honey,  why it took you so long to decide to go out with me?  Haven't you miss me?  Two days are very long lonely days without you.  I just arrived this morning and because you're not replying to my messages,  so why would I just come here to pick you up personally?  And I did,  can you go out with me now? "

Malambing na wika ng lalaking hindi ko inimagine na magiging boyfriend ko.  At magiging mahal na mahal ko. Funny na ang tawagan namin ay parang yong first name ko lang. 

"May magagawa ba ang 'No' ko sayo?  I know you would insist.... Naughty guy.. "

I said as I pinches his nose.

"Yea right!  You'd already know me.. So may be--"

"Uh-oh,  I still answers 'no' to that.  ..even how hard you will insist. ."

"It's about time to step up to another stage of our relationship honey.. Two years na tayo.. "

"Give up.. Di ba sabi ko hindi pa ako ready.. "

I cut him to what he was trying to say.  Umiling-iling lang ito at pumunta sa harap ko.

"Waiting is harder than I thought.. But I love you honey.. I still respect your decision. "

I smile at hinawakan ko ang mukha niya.

"I love you too honey.. And I'm so blessed to have you. "

Tumayo si Rai at inalalayan niya akong tumayo.  Kinuha ko na ang bag ko at lumabas na kami sa office ko while he holds my hand.

Anim na taon na ang nakakalipas,  Rai stays beside me through those years.  Sumama parin ako kay Rai noon kahit Ken has told me that.  We've been to Africa,  Vietnam,  Myanmar,  Egypt and to other countries that I cannot mentioned anymore. We both became Missionaries,  at sinagot ko siya two years ago. After he'd confessed to me six month later that day.

I awe this guy,  I still remember when he told me that I do not looked like his little sister anymore. Because for him,  I became so special and he said that he was afraid to lost the chance to have me as the love of his life.

It was so romantic.

Rai helped me to accepts things in my life. I know that God sent him for me. 

It was been so hard for me accepting things before. Really a tough situation,  believe me.  I don't know whom to trust.. I don't know whose telling the truth..

But praise God,  Rai do not leave me
..he guided me and prayed for me.

Ano man and dahilan nila tatay at ano pa ang hidden stories ng buhay ko,  I'd learned accepting it and let it passed.  I choose forgive and live a quiet life.

I had finished my schooling,  after that I stopped getting allowance from tatay.  I told him to let me  be independent and he let me. 

I own a small company right now.  Rai was my partner.  It doesn't make big money,  but it was very helpful to our ministry.

I never heard any news from Ken, Yohan and to others that I met before.

I met new people, and this time I'm carrying the personality that I should have had before.

I am friendly person now and I talk too much. I laugh so loud and smiles all the time.

May be because I had choose to live a happy life no matter what had happened.

I also have this guy beside me who never got tired understanding and loving me.

"Seriously, I never really had the idea why my girlfriend looks so happy today but her mind were like gone to somewhere? "

Wika ni Rai na umiling-iling pa.  With that I smiled sweetly to him.

"Thank you hon.. "

"Here we go again.. My super grateful lady.. Hindi ka ba napapagod na magthank you honey?  You've been saying that maybe three years ago now.. I said it's okay,  it is my joy.. "

"That's why.. Thank you. "

He stopped and gave me a quick kiss to my lips. 

"Stop thanking me okay... I suggest,  just say 'I'm super in love with you honey',  I think it's nicer to hear that."

And he winks.  Tinusok ko ng daliri ko ang noo niya.

"Don't convince me to do corny things."

I pull him to continue walking.. I love Rai,  and I do prays that we would end up together.  ..

I hope he can wait until the time I will be ready to marry him and to start a family with him..

He became one of my source of energy to face life everyday. We both serve God,  and I always think how perfect we are  to be partners.  I really love him..

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