February 1996

Henry is now seven months old

Henry had been learning to pull himself up now, standing with assistance by objects or by John and Christine as Henry was almost ready to start crawling and walking.

Christine was making dinner one night when he first pulled himself up with assistant of her legs and scared Christine half to death as she picked him up but now it was everything and they had to baby proof everything in the house now.

They were sitting in the living room, Henry was playing with his blocks as Christine played with him while leaning up against John as he cheered his son on but the conversation the night before was still replaying in both of their heads.

Christine sat down to relax in her husband's arms as they watched TV together as Christine started kissing his neck and rubbing his leg but John stopped her.

"Honey." John said as Christine just rolled her eyes because they had started trying for another baby but so far, no results except for a few negative pregnancy tests.

John wanted to take a pause on trying for another baby because this was such a stressful situation for them both.

"John, I'm ovulating." Christine said.

"Chris, we've been trying for a month and nothing is working." John said.

"Then, we'll schedule a doctor's appointment." Christine said as John shook his head no.

"Absolutely not!" John said.

"John, we need to because obviously nothing is working." Christine said as she was frustrated.

"There's no way in hell I'm letting a man stick his finger up my arse or touch anything below the waist." John said as Christine was so tired of having the same argument.

"Then what do you suggest we do John? Because obviously this isn't working or I'd be pregnant right now!" Christine said.

"Chris, I'm not about to go to the doctor just so he can tell me methods on how to get my wife pregnant, we didn't have a doctor tell us before how to get pregnant with our son and I'm sure as hell not about to do it now." John said as he raised his voice.

"Well, I'm going to schedule an appointment and see if my eggs are still good to have another baby because I want another baby." Christine said.

"It's all you seem to want anymore! What about me and our son? It's all about this now?" John screamed at her in anger as Christine started crying.

"Because I wanted to give our son a sibling and give you more children and now you just think that's all I want? If anyone who is selfish, it's you! You won't make a damn doctor's appointment and go at least see about your sperm count!" Christine screamed back at him in anger.

"Christine, that's all I hear about anymore is regimented schedules, ovulation tests, doctor's appointments, my sperm count, your eggs, you take a test, it's negative and you mope around here for days! I have to pick up the pieces with the house and Henry while you are in bed all day in the dark. Do you know how much I want this baby too but damn, it's hard when every pregnancy test you take turns out negative. I love you Christine but maybe it wasn't meant to be. Maybe Henry is meant to be an only child and we're about to go on tour again because the album is done." John said as Christine just stared into space.

"Oh how fucking lovely, you care more about a fucking album and a tour more than your own wife and sorry for ever wanting more because just when I thought you were going to be excited, but clearly you're not. Good night John!" Christine said as she ran upstairs to their bedroom and slammed the door.

Christine was heartbroken, her eyes were brimmed with tears as John felt so guilty but this had bottled up inside him and he was so angry that this was happening.

He wanted so badly for them to have another baby or two more after this because they wanted more children but time seemed to have run out as he walked upstairs as he tried to open the door but Christine had locked it.

"Baby?" John knocked as Christine had curled up in a fetal position, crying as she wanted John to hold her but she didn't have the energy to get up as she fell asleep instantly.

John walked away as he walked into the guest room and laid down as he tried to stay awake but this was draining him.

The next morning, Henry was sitting in high chair as Christine made baby oatmeal and smashed up some bananas for him to eat.

John walked in to see Christine's back turned to him as John wrapped his arms around her.

"What do you want?" Christine asked as she sipped her coffee.

"I'm so so sorry baby for what I said last night and I love you Christine and if a doctor gives us hope to grow our family, then I'm willing to do anything to make you smile again." John said as Christine hugged him as they cried together.

"I just want us to be happy, I want this life we've created together." Christine said as John started crying as he hugged her and kissed her forehead.

"We will baby, we will have this beautiful life we've always dreamed of and I love you so much." John said.

Later on that day

Christine was cleaning the living room when Henry started fussing as he wanted to be held by his mama.

"Hold on baby, let mummy finish cleaning and then, we'll snuggle together for nap time." Christine said as she went back to dusting the blinds but baby Henry wasn't having it as he started crying again and John walked in to see his little boy holding onto the table.

"Hey little man, what's wrong?" John asked his son as Henry looked at him and back at Christine.

"I need to finish cleaning and he's not having it." Christine said as she sat down and Henry reached for her.

"I know little man, mummy is more comfy than daddy is." John said as Henry laid his head down on his mummy's chest.

"Once he goes down for a nap, I'm cleaning the rest of this house. I still have a lot to do and I can't get distracted." Christine said as Henry yawned as Christine slowly walked upstairs into her son's nursery and slowly laid him down in his crib.

"I called my doctor and scheduled an appointment." John said.

"Thank you for being so thoughtful about this." Christine said.

"It shouldn't be that hard to make a baby, we're both healthy and I know it's a long shot but what do you say we go relax and I'll make lunch, hmm?" John questioned as Christine kissed him.

"Let's start trying again, even though it might not work but I want to be near you and I want this life, I want you and everything we want and built together." Christine said as John kissed her as he backed her into the wall.

"I'm so sorry for everything I said, I was an asshole baby and I would give anything to see you being happy again." John said as Christine held his face.

"I'm sorry I haven't been grateful, I have disappointed you enough and I can't take that look of knowing I can't bear anymore of your children, our children." Christine said.

"You have never disappointed me Chris, if Henry was meant to be an only child then at least we have a child with our DNA and our name to pass on. You are a great mother sweetheart and I love you both with my whole heart." John said as he kissed her head and Christine hugged him, crying into his shoulder, the heavy weight of everything was becoming lighter and John held her to him.

"You're a wonderful daddy and provider to our little family and I'm so happy to be able to call you my husband and protector for both me and our son." Christine said as John picked her up with her legs around his waist as their lips fused together.

They spent the next two hours in bed as Christine cuddled up to him as she closed her eyes as John looked at her.

"I know I don't pray for a lot but God, please let us be successful because this hasn't been easy and I hate seeing her sad and upset, it's not easy to bear and so I pray that this works because she is the best person I know and she deserves this life we have created and built together, so please God watch over us as we go on this journey."

John looked at Christine and put his hand on her belly, he wanted this life so much and he wants his lady to be happy as well and he didn't care how long it took to try again because he wants this so much too.

They woke up to Henry crying as Christine got up and walked into his nursery, she picked him up and he laid his head on her chest and he started babbling.

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy even when the clouds are gray." Christine sang to him as John listened to her sing to their son as he stood there, in that moment, he wanted to see that beautiful smile again instead, he caused her to cry and his heart ached to see his heart and soul just breaking.

"I love you, I love you, I love you like never before and the songbirds are singing like they know the score." Christine sang as she fed Henry his bottle and she looks at this handsome boy and sees her whole world, her little baby that she brought into this world and knew that if she couldn't have another child, that he was her reason of why she would lived and breathed.

"I ordered Mexican for dinner babe." John said as Christine's heart fluttered as she walked over to him and kissed his lips lovingly as they put their heads together.

"I have quite an appetite and I might see if Henry likes rice because he loves anything other than his bottle." Christine said.

"I know baby and come on penguin, let's go watch TV until our food gets here." John said as he lifted Henry out of his mummy's arms as he kissed his wife.

Christine looked at her boys and her heart swelled as she watched her boys as John walked down the stairs slowly as they sat down on the couch to watch a program.

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