20-Drake

Hindi ko pinahalata kay Anghel na hindi ako nasiyahan sa magiging resulta nito. Not because she passed the SASE but the thought that we would be distant away from each other. There would be less time for us, most probably only a tad of a whole of our time.

A lot of negative possibilities would happen. On the whole, could dash us into pieces.

Natatakot akong makakilala siya ng lalaking mas mautak, responsible, independent, at pasensyosong lalaki kaysa sa akin.

Maraming straight-A students sa Mindanao State University and they threaten the hell out of me!

Paano kung sumagi sa isipan ni Anghel na hindi pala ako sapat at walang-wala talaga ako sa kanila?

What if Angel would do a 180? Or had a change of heart? She was not that fickle at all. Even so, she was young and so do I.

I had to shut down all what ifs in my head. Or else it would make a nervous wreck and slowly capsize everything around me.

My thoughts were shifting to green light to red light and reverse.

If these thoughts remained to fluctuate and ended up to a steady red line of conviction. Just because I want a seal of approval that she was mine. I would undercut everything...

I shouldn't rush things... I shouldn't wobble this out. I chanted in my mind.

"Pansin naming ilang araw ka ng matamlay, Drake..." Drexter noticed it too.

"May problema kayo ni Angel?" Russel asked me with his observant eyes.

"Wala." I denied and walked to my room.

I just slept the whole afternoon to ease down my mind.

Nakatanggap ako ng text galing kay Anghel mga bandang alas kuwatro ng hapon.

prettygirl💄:

Drake, let's go somewhere tonight.

My mood lightened up. I texted back immediately.

Me:

Saan mo gusto?

prettygirl💄:

Sa Casa D'Vans kaya? Diba sabado ngayon?

Me:

Yes, pretty. May banda ngayon.

prettygirl💄:

Okie dookie!

A smile slithered across my face when an endearing picture of her crept in my head.

Me:

Susunduin kita mamayang alas syete. Tapos iuuwi kita mga alas-nuwebe e medya ng gabi.

prettygirl💄:

Magpa-alam muna ako kay Mama. I love youuu

The grin on my face was immeasurable. Her voice saying, 'I Love You' to me stayed in my ears like a sweet ringtone.

Me:

I love you beyond all words.

Sinundo ko siya at pumunta kami sa Casa D'Vans.

We ordered some foods and drinks. We enjoyed the music from the band, the cool air, and lights below the mountain. The loud resort was nothing compare to how loud my mind.

Umupo kami sa small nipa hut nila.

We were chilling like how we usually do. Angel was resting her head in my chest and her arms around me. If peace wouldn't be felt like this, then I don't want it.

"Drake, are you thinking something heavy?" She whispered, making small circles around the popping veins on my hand.

She noticed it too. But I didn't want her to think that something was perturbing my mind.

"Nothing." I lied. I swallowed and look at the finest angelic beauty before my eyes. "I just realized how lucky I am to celebrate big things with you,"

"I'm lucky too that I have you..." Hinigpitan niya ang yakap niya sa akin.

"I love you deep and true...."

I framed her small face with my hands. I inclined my face toward hers. My lips perched on her lips like the touch of our youth.

I bent my head to taste every plump area of her lips. It was so soft like a silk. There was a burst of emotion in me that drive me to set my kisses into a savory pace.

It made her dizzy somehow that she clings to me. As if the small nipa hut was swaying dangerously.

My lips craved to romp with her lips only, yet my mind was elsewhere.

"Psst!"

Daglian kaming bumitaw nang marinig iyon. She was breathing heavily. The kiss was pretty intense. There were tiny bids of sweat in her forehead.

"Are you alright?" tanong ko sa kanya.

"Hmm..."

I wiped her sweat with my handkerchief and grappled her hair into a ponytail. I always brought an extra pair of hair tie in case she needed it.

***

Isang sabado ng hapon ulit ay pumunta ako sa bahay nila.

Manunuod kami ng pelikula. Wala sina Mama Anne at Sonya. Hindi naman ako natutulog tuwing gabi dito. Umuuwi parin ako sa bahay namin.

I couldn't help it. I felt like I am drawn without seeing her. These past few days seemed to be mentally exhausting for me. There was a weird feeling in me. That I wouldn't spontaneously see her the moment college begins.

Angel threw her arms around me when the movie started. I scooped her in one swift, and we curled on the couch with the broad daylight outside. We just enjoyed quiet time together, relaxing on the couch, and watching romantic comedy movies.

"Drake, pansin kong may problema kang dinadala na hindi ko alam. Tell me what's bothering you? Di ba gusto mong walang nagsisinungaling sa ating dalawa?"

"Ang totoo, Anghel... I'm worrying about our set-up when we start our journey in college. Baka may magbago sa relasyon natin. What if-"

"Drakey baby, walang magbabago sa relasyon natin. No one can break us apart." She soothed me.

My heart softened.

"Thank you for assuring me. I love you."

I kissed her left cheek and lazed my face on her neck. She smelled like mine and security.

We watched the movie silently. Her phone beeped in the middle of the movie. She checked it.

Nanlaki ang mga mata niya. "Nasa labas sina Bonita at Kirsteen,"

"Ow,"

Panira.

Ayokong isatinig iyon. I didn't want to ruin this afternoon.

I stood up. I walked to the door and opened it.

"It feels like Angel spent most of her time with you. That's why we're here." Bonita announced straightforwardly.

Naisipan nilang magluto ng meryenda ngunit nagvolunteer akong magluto para sa kanila.

Bonita's reason was valid. Angel also had friends, and she needed to hang out with them too. Nandyan na sila bago paman ako naging boyfriend niya.

Habang nasa sala sila ay nagprito ako ng chicharron. I seasoned it with salt, pepper, vinegar, and garlic.

Bumili pa ako ng pandesal at ice-cream. Pagbalik ko ay narinig ko silang nag-uusap. Gusto kong marinig kung ano ang pinag-uusapan nila kaya hindi muna ako tumuloy sa loob.

"Masaya siya na nakapasa ako. Drake is not just loving and caring, he's also supportive." She told them happily. I smirked at that. "Kailangan ko kasi ng Scholarship para makatulong kay Kuya Soren. Ikaw ba, Kirsteen?"

"May personal akong dahilan kung bakit ako hindi nag-exam,"

"Ikaw Bonita, anong plano mo?" Angel asked Bonita.

"I don't have plans yet. I just don't want to think about college right now. I just want to enjoy my time after graduation."

"Ako rin. Kasi sabi nila madugo na talaga sa College. Hindi na rin kami magkikita ni Drake kung kailan namin gusto. May adjustments kaming dapat gagawin."

It was a wake-up call for me. It was keeping me awake every night. It was keeping my mind restless when I'm staring at the distance.

***

One night, I had to escape to a freezing cold water before I do something stupid like ask her to marry me: to give me that assurance that she would be chained to me eternally.

Na hindi kailanman maaagaw siya sa akin. Na hindi kailanman sumagi sa isipan niya na hiwalayan ako dahil lang sa realidad ng magiging buhay namin sa kolehiyo.

She filled every hole with my life. The thought of her ended to someone else and not to me, terrified me like hanging on the edge of cliff: alone and gasping for life.

My determination to ask her remained solid when our graduation was approaching. I didn't give two hoots of what our parents might think.

***

During our anniversary, I drove her to the Santa Cruz hill at night. I put a blindfold over her eyes. I got down on one knee in front of her. If I could not control the reality, why not hinder all the dismissive possibilities from happening, and we could be together forever.

"You can count on me, Angel, right?" I took out the small box from my pocket.

She nodded. Malaki ang ngiti niya habang may takip sa mata. She had no idea what was my surprise. I opened the red velvet box where the ring was shining with the stars. I brought this ring with my own money from motor crossing.

"Untangle your blindfold."

Her excitement altered into a bewildering tangle. She didn't gasp. Though, her eyes were kind of mellow and reflective. She was like waiting for me to explain first before she would overly react.

"What if we...tied the knot? A civil wedding before we move to college..." I seized the moment of auspicious silence.

"Drake, we can't..." She shook her head in refusal.

Her brows drew together in a vivid worry. Lumuhod din siya at mahigpit na kumapit sa aking mga kamay na hawak-hawak ang box ng singsing.

"It's not the right time yet. We're so young, Drake. I know that we're both on the legal age. But for now, we should focus on growing to be better and work on our future." pangungumbinsi niya sa akin.

"Nothing will change, Angel. Except that there will be a strong assurance that we're married. At hindi ka maaagaw sa akin..."

The trepidation that she might end up to someone else enslaved my imagination. I couldn't bear the sight of her on someone else arms. I couldn't trust other men. She had been with a cock head.

"Drake...walang aagaw sa akin." A sparkle of concern wavered in her eyes.

I cupped her small face. "I'm so scared that I'll be just one of those random occurrences in your life. I want to be permanent in your life, Angel. I don't want to be just a passerby..."

Her eyes were softer than she normally expresses as if she has the same thing in her mind, and it scared her too.

"I love you deeply, baby. Can we, do it? Mag-aaral parin tayo. I promise we will build a good future. Ito lang ang gusto ko bago tayo magkolehiyo..."

My voice sounded like an impecunious beggar asking her for a proviso.

"Let me think about it, Drake..." Binaba niya ang mga kamay ko.

Her eyes were elusive now. I could read what's inside her mind. It was in unsteady turbulence.

***

I sent her voice messages. I recorded a song and sent it to her.

Binigyan ko siya ng pagkakataon na makapag-isip. Ngunit sa bawat oras na dumadaan mas lalo lang lumalalim ang aking pangamba.

One night, it froze me with excruciating tremor and the inescapable anticipation to run away with her as fast and far as we could.

I was going to tell her to elope with me. No one could stop me. It felt like we're about to sail close to the wind.

"Can you feel it too, Angel?" I asked her once I leaped into her room sneakily.

"You can't sleep too..." She quickened into a stabbing expectancy.

Pareho kami ng iniisip at nararamdaman kaya hindi kami makatulog. We both lay hold of our affections to each other like a vice. It would be superfluous to say that we have the same plan in mind.

"I miss you..." I pressed her to my chest. "Why don't we run-away, Angel? Leave everything behind..." It was a thorough request.

She went stiff. In which she was bound to feel. I really wanted to know what her answer. I gulped a little and bit down my lip.

"Drake..." Kumawala siya sa aking yakap.

She was mingled with distrust and fear.

"Angel, do you trust me, right?" My voice was barely a whisper, lulling her into a shallow sense of satisfaction.

"Yes, Drake. I trust you. I believe in you. You know that. But why you sound like you're rushing? Bakit ka naging ganito?"

Her thoughts were clearly spinning a network of dubiety which reflects in her eyes and the soft folds of her forehead.

On sure ground of fact, my offer would lead us to false satisfaction. We were naturally prone to believe the impossible. If we propose a marriage to our parents before college. My assumption, they would not give their blessings. However, my new plan would be plausible.

"I know there are obstacles along the way but not insuperable. We will have the life full of bliss and horizon. Do you trust me enough, right?" pang-uulit ko. Ngayon ay nagsusumamo na.

I caressed her cheeks with my thumbs and let her see all the remaining reasons in my eyes that were genuine, reassuring, lovely, and promising beyond all words.

"Yes..." She agreed finally.

"Let's elope and be married." I stated with lofty determination.

She nodded her head in accord. Pinagdikit ko ang mga noo namin.

"Pack up your important things. Send me a go signal. We're going to escape in the middle of the night..."

Hinalikan ko ang ulo niya.

"I'll text you if I'm ready, Drake. Hindi ka pwedeng manatili dito. Baka pagdudahan tayo..." She pushed me lightly.

"I love you deeply. Trust me. You and me. Everything will be good..." I promised with the upcoming warm fuzzes of this plan.

Nag-impake ako nang makauwi. Hindi ako mapakali sa tuwing pumapatak ang oras.

I couldn't keep my mind still.

I was chaining smokes in my room. Kahit matagal na akong tumigil sa paninigarilyo.

I was waiting for her go signal. When the clock struck to midnight, my terror passed untamable as flies.

Naghintay ako ng ilang oras. Subalit lagpas alas dos na pero wala parin akong natatanggap na mensahe galing sa kanya.

I scraped a finger across the screen of my phone and took seconds to hold my breath before letting out a furious screech not caring about my sleeping brothers from the next doors of my room. I chucked my phone.

The expensive device hit against the wall with a satisfying crunch.

I buried my head in my hands and tried to calm down. I zoomed out of the house to my Yamaha with bags filled with my clothes. I didn't feel any hard feeling of rock poking at my feet.

Kukunin ko si Anghel sa bahay nila.

Iyon lang ang nasa isipan ko papunta sa kanila.

Matatag kong inakyat ang mataas na gate ng kanilang bahay at saktong pagbaba ko ay siya ring paglabas ni Angel sa pintuan.

"Handa ka na?" Hinihingal ko pang tanong sa kanya.

"Drake..." Bumaba ang mga mata niya.

Nagtaka ako kung bakit wala siyang dalang bag. She gently looked up at me.

Her eyes had that inkling hesitation and fence-sitting. She constantly picked at her cuticles and skin around her fingernails. Her silent action of indecision was slowly alarming me.

"May nakalimutan ka ba? Gusto mo bang sa ibang araw nalang?" Malumanay kong untag sa kanya dahil sa katahimikan niya.

"I-am n-not goi-ing with you, Drake..." She faltered like wings of an angel wobbling in the night sky.

Humakbang ako papalapit sa kanya pero daglian siyang umatras.

"Bakit, Angel?"

I heard the door creak and her brother appeared behind her.

"Mathildo, mabuting umuwi ka na sa inyo. I'll take my sister out of this town, out from your sight..."

I felt like someone violently sheared all the veins in my body and that fail me to work my brain.

Angel remained quiet, but her face turned passive. I couldn't see refusal in her eyes at his brother's statement.

"Pumasok ka na sa kotse, Angel. May flight tayo mamayang alas seis..."

Angel quickly hopped into their car as if I was going to take her hand and sprinted away with me. In which I would die to do.

"Angel..." Mahina kong tawag sa kanya.

She nonchalantly locked the door and closed the window without glancing at me.

"Pretty, talk to me, please..." I begged with my frailest voice.

Kumatok ako sa bintana para pagbigyan niya ako. Lumabas sina Sonya at Mama Anne na may dala-dalang mga maleta.

They were ready to leave. I felt like I framed-up my own self. I made my own fear comes into reality.

"We had high hopes for you and my daughter but it looks like you fail to keep your promise, anak."

They were full of regret. There wasn't any single amount of optimism in their eyes to me. Only the grounds of disappointment.

"I swear to God, hindi ko sinasadya! Nadala lang ako! Bigyan niyo po ako ng pagkakataong magpaliwanag!" I panicked.

I clenched my hands into a tight fist. If punching myself was acceptable, I would have done it in front of them. Regardless of my self-loathing at the moment, it wouldn't help to resolve everything.

Kuya Soren shook his head in utmost dismay. "You failed to keep your words, Mathildo. You failed her. Go home with your family..."

I turned around only to see my family watching me slowly cripple by my own wrong plan. I never realized that until they wore the same achromatic expression.

Nagdidilim ang mga mata ni Jethro. Kasing dilim ng langit at kasing rahas ng kulog at kidlat.

Alam na nila ang plano namin ni Angel bago paman ako makarating dito.

"Kuya, kayo na bahala sa bahay..." Huling habilin ni Mama Anne sa kanyang kapatid.

Buong pamilya silang lalayo.

They didn't say goodbye to me and simply get into the car. I didn't deserve that either. When the engine of their car revved up, I knocked the window at the backseat where she was sitting.

"Angel baby, mag-usap tayo!"

Angel didn't spare a glance. She didn't stick her head out of the car and listened to me explain. That slippery stuff in my chest suddenly settled in the center.

Hindi nila ako pinigilan. Lahat sila ay tahimik na pinapanood ang resulta ng katangahan ko.

When they drive off, I rode my Yamaha rapider than the wind and rain to chase them.

Doon lang gumawa ng hakbang ang pamilya ko. Sinundan nila ako para pigilan akong makahabol.

They were blocking my way, honking the car and beeping their motorcycles to stop me. Even so, my racer blood was rushing fast.

Nalusutan ko sila. Mabuti nalang tatlo lang silang humaharang sa akin. Sina Papa, Kuya Ranger, Jethro, at Khalid ay nasa kotse.

"Anghel!" I shouted as loud as the thunder.

Hindi ako sumuko. I picked up the speed of my motorcycle. I swerved every time Russel and Drexter got in my way.

Kuya Gunner didn't give me an easy defense. He would hinder me quicker both sides. I used the burst of acceleration to pull ahead when I had a chance to maneuver with overtake from his blocking.

I warded off my two brothers again when they accelerated and blocked me.

That was the riskiest move that could disarm me. I could end up in flames. But I didn't care anymore. It was between life and death situation.

Kita ko sa tugatog ng matayog na parte ng daan na pinaharurot ni Kuya Soren ang sasakyan nila.

Binigyan lamang ako ng ilang segundo upang makita ang huling anino nito bago tuluyang lumusong sa kadiliman.

I couldn't keep up with their vehicle's pace. I lost control of my motorcycle and made an abrupt change of direction. I was first rolled off to the grassy sidewalk before my motorcycle hurled violently few meters away from me.

In my greatest fall, the dark sky rumbled and the heavy raindrops began pouring. A ruthless blow of realization dawned in me that I wouldn't be able to see her for one last time. Maybe throughout this lifetime.

"Bumalik ka, Anghel! Don't leave me!"

I was shouting her name. I knelt down on my both knees: begging out loud; begging the universe to grant my wish under the pouring rain.

My clothes were soaked. My tears were riding with the raindrops.

"Itatanan mo si Anghel!? Gago ka ba!?" sigaw ni Jethro habang nagpupumiglas sa hawak ni Russel at Kuya Ranger.

"Paduol diri, Drake! Mapatay taka! Yawa man diay ka! Wala kang isang salita!" he roared, stabbing a finger at me.

Tila sinapian siya ng demonyo. Mapula ang mga mata niya. Nangangalit ang mga ngipin. He was clawing my brothers to get out from their hold. Kaya dinoble nila ang higpit ng pagkakahawak sa kanya. They dragged him back to the car.

Nakaluhod parin ako sa lupa. Halo-halong emosyon ang nararamdaman ko. Sumasabay ang mga luha sa patak ng ulan.

Kuya Ranger roughly tugged the collar of my leather jacket upwards, "Tumayo ka..."

I remained staring at the distance where the vehicle disappeared in the darkness.

"Ngayon na!" Nilakasan ni Kuya Ranger ang kanyang boses.

Nagpatianod ako sa kanyang balawis na paghaltak.

"Huwag kang duwag, Drake! Hindi ka nakinig sa amin! Pasensiya ang kailangan! Harapin mo kami!" He dragged me viciously and shove me inside the car.

"Huwag kayong magsigawan habang nasa kotse tayo..." Our father warned us coldly.

Nang bubugahan na naman ako ni Jethro ng mga mura ay bumukas ang pintuan. Tinakpan ni Kuya Gunner ang bibig niya gamit ang kanyang panyo at nilabas siya sa kotse.

Dahil hindi ako makakauwing walang pasa sa mukha at panunungayaw galing sa kanya. His voice muffled when he tried to speak.

Napakatahimik namin sa loob ng kotse na tila walang gustong huminga. Nakaangkas si Jethro sa motorsiklo ni Kuya Gunner at agad nilang kinulong sa kanyang kwarto pagdating sa bahay. I heard him shouting at me with profanities before they finally locked him.

"Russel, Drexter, at Khalid, bumalik na kayo sa mga kwarto niyo. Kami lang ang maiiwan dito..." mahigpit na utos ni Papa.

Sumunod sila. Kaming apat na lamang ang naiwan sa sala. Tulala akong nakaupo.

Basang-basa pa ako galing sa ulan. Naliligo pa ako sa sarili kong mga luha. Nakalawit pa ang isipan ko sa kanya.

"Anak, magpaliwanag ka ngayon. Bakit gusto mong itanan si Angel?" mahinahong tanong ni Papa.

"Gusto ko siyang makasama bawat araw, Pa..." My voice became faint like a child being reprimanded. "Ayokong maging temporero sa buhay niya.. Angel is my world. She keeps me running every day..."

Kuya Gunner snickered with sarcasm and annoyance. Kuya Ranger's jaw pulsed. It had been stigmatized as irrelevant. It had been a common error among young people like me.

"You're scared that she will not end up with you... na baka sa iba siya mapunta. Kaya ay gusto mong manigurado sa pamamagitan ng pagputol mo sa lahat lahat. Pamilya at mga pangarap niya..." My father perfectly calculated.

Tumingin ako sa aking mga kamay. I felt so small in front of them. Pinagdikit ko ang aking mga kamay sa isat-isa. Nilaro-laro ko ang aking hinlalaki gamit ang hintuturo upang maibsan ang lahat ng sariwang nararamdaman ko: ang hinakdal sa aking sarili; ang kapanglawan ng ginawa ko; at ang maamong mukha ni Anghel.

"You can't control the situations. You can't control everything, Drake. Even who will be with her in the future. Kung kasama ka ba o hindi...How can you sure that you'll end up together? Kasi kami ng Mama mo hindi kami magkasama ngayon..." Muling pangaral ni Papa na siyang nagpaputol sa aking pasensiya.

Biglaan akong tumayo na siyang kinagitla niya. "That's why I want to do it to stop all of that from happening! I don't want us to end up like that! Estranged and lonely! Kailanman hindi ko ninanais na maulit ang nangyari sa inyo ni Mama sa akin! I don't want her to end up with someone else! I will be a devil living in hell! I want her all by my side!" I burst out, feeling too dogmatic for their preferred behavior.

My father slapped me hard in my right cheek. The pain was stinging.

"You're a selfish son of a monkey!" He pointed his forefinger at me. "You only think of yourself! Both of you have dreams! In this phase, dapat nag-aaral kayo! Trying to focus on yourselves and trying to learn a lot of things in life!"

He grappled his chest as he winced in pain.

Naalarma kami.

"Kumalma ka, Pa..." Inakay ni Kuya Ranger si Papa sa kanyang kwarto para kumalma at makapag-pahinga.

"Anong pumasok na insekto sa utak mo at bakit nagmamadali ka?" basag ni Kuya Gunner sa katahimikang bumalot sa sala.

Nakatitig lamang ako sa kapatid kong hindi matabil.

"Bakit hindi ka makasagot, Drake? Naputol ba ang dila mo?" Umigting ang panga niya. "Bumalik ka na sa kwarto mo. Bago ko pa mabasag iyang mukha mo.."

He purged me in the living room with his glaringly offensive eyes.

I had another option in my head. Tatakas ako sa bahay para sundan si Angel. Alam kong makakahabol pa ako. The airport was just forty minutes away drive. I could reach there within thirty minutes or less.

Pinihit ko ang pintuan at nakaabang si Kuya Ranger sa labas ng aking kwarto.

"Saan ka pupunta?"

"Susundan ko si Anghel..." determinado kong wika. Hindi ako susuko.

"Manatili ka sa kwarto mo. Hindi ka pwedeng lumabas..."

He pushed me hard inside.

"Hindi kuya-"

"Drake, hindi mo ba naiintindihan? Puryagaba, hindi ka na bata! Ilang taon na kaming nagtiis sayo! Don't act fool and act according to your age!"

Tila may tornilyong lumuwag sa utak ko sa sinabi niya. "You have the guts to say that to me, pero hindi mo naman napigilan si Ma'am Rosea. Are you really that fool and coward? You did not make her stay... That's why you're still bitter-"

"Don't bring her up... Malayo ito sa kanya... Huwag mong ibahin ang usapan..." Kuya Ranger fought an unfamiliar tightness in his throat.

Our opinions were diametrically opposed. He let her go for a recreant reason. Meanwhile, I couldn't breathe without Angel.

I could not even help myself to be a hairbreadth distant away from her. It felt like someone would take her. And he was just fine without his woman for many years?

"O, diba? You just let her go away in your arms!" singhal ko sa kanya.

"It's her own choice, Drake. She had to go different path for her dream. Kahit kailan hindi ko iyon ipagkakait sa kanya..."

He was merely phlegmatic!

"Is that simple and easy for you?"

My brows furrowed at how facile he looked.

For goodness' sake, we're talking about the love of our lives here!

"You don't know how I endure every night, every day, Drake." He looked away as the shadows of yesterday passed in his bleak eyes.

"If I were you, I'll chase her and beg like an idiot if that will make her stay with me and make everything work. Pero hindi mo kaya. Hinayaan mo lang kasi."

I had a voice of an optimist but not for the best. But that was for the best in that prognostic woe situation.

"Susundan ko si Angel, Kuya. Hahanapin ko siya. I can provide for us... I can work us... I have a healthy body. Kahit anong trabaho kakayanin ko...Kaya kong mangisda, mamasada, o magtrabaho sa farm..." I sounded so sure.

It was an intolerable idea by just looking the way Kuya Ranger's forehead rugged in severe disapproval.

PERIEDOT