I ran out of my house, ignoring mother and daddy. I sprinted at top speed down the street all the way to Seamus’s house.

Would he do it?

Would he really do it this time?

I hoped not.

I got there, out of breath. “Alex?” Lizzy asked in confusion. She was getting the mail. “Seamus!” I cried. “What did he say when he got back?” She looked even more confused.

***Lizzy’s POV***

**A Few Minutes Ago***

The car pulled back into the drive way. Seamus got out of the car looking defeated. “Are you alright?” I asked gently, walking over to him.

He wrapped his arms around me tightly, surprising me. He never hugged me. I hugged him back tightly. “What’s wrong Shame?” I asked in concern. He shook his head. “Nothing. I love you Lizzy. Do you love me?”

What had gotten into this child?

“Of course!” I said in surprise. “Why wouldn’t I?” “I’m a bastard.” “No you are not!” I said fiercely. “I love you little tomato head,” I said, cracking a small smile. He smiled softly before heading towards the house. “I hope you always remember me Liz,” he said quietly before shutting the door.

Well that was a bit odd, even for Seamus.

I shrugged it off and went to get the mail.

***Alex’s POV***

Oh no. This was so not good. “We have to stop him!” I said desperately. “Stop him from what?” Lizzy asked in confusion. Tears rushed to my eyes.

“Before all we have is the memory of him.”

Her eyes widened in fear and understanding. “N-No. The gun is at my boyfriend’s apartment. He couldn’t kill himself!” I relaxed but only for a moment. “His pocketknife?” Her face went pale.

We ran inside the house.

“Seamus!” Lizzy yelled, knocking on his bedroom door. “Shame, are you in there?” She rattled the handle desperately. “Seamus!” she screamed, tears leaking down her face.

“What’s going on?” Josh asked, coming upstairs in confusion. “Josh knock it down!” she cried. “Liz, what’s wrong?” he asked. “My brother is in there! Knock the door down!” she begged.

Understanding lit his face.

He slammed on the door with his shoulders fiercely, trying desperately to knock it down. I could see Lizzy saying a silent prayer as she watched.

My own eyes were starting to water. “Seamus,” I whispered. He had to be okay. He just had to be. Because it was my fault if he wasn’t. Because I loved him and I was just to stubborn and selfish to admit it to him even when he deserved to hear it.

The door finally knocked down and we rushed inside.

“SEAMUS!” I shrieked. He looked up. There was a handmade blanket placed on him. He had his pocket knife positioned on his wrist. His headphones were in and blasting music loudly. 

He looked away and pulled his headphones out. “Go away,” he mumbled. “No!” I yelled. I ran to him and knocked it from his hand. “I was going to kill myself,” he whispered shakily.

I wrapped my arms around him tightly and desperately kissed his lips. “I love you Seamus. I love you so much!” I sobbed. He looked me deeply in the eyes. “You’re just saying that,” he said and turned his head away from me.

I forced him to look me in the eyes. “I love you Seamus.” A small smile crept on his face and he wrapped his arms around me tightly.

“God I love you Alex,” he whispered. I hugged him back and sat with him. Lizzy and Josh were still watching. But I didn’t care. I was finally in the arms of the boy I loved, emo or not.

Lizzy and Josh quietly shut the door, letting us be alone. We laid down on his bed together. He played with my hair and kissed my lips gently. I think he knew I didn’t want to have sex. He didn’t even push for a make out. I think Seamus was just happy to be with me.

And who could blame him?

I’m Alexandria Arnold.

“What are you thinking?” he asked quietly. I found myself getting lost in his eyes yet again. “Alex?” he asked nervously. “What are you thinking?” I smiled softly. “I’m thinking I want to kiss you,” I whispered and kissed him.

Seamus relaxed a bit and smiled. Daddy texted me to come home for dinner and Seamus walked me to the door. He kissed me and grinned. “See you at school?” I nodded.

I left.

***Seamus’s POV***

I walked back up to my room. Lizzy came up to my room and sat next to me. She wrapped her arms around me tightly. “You selfish fuck!” she cried angrily. “You can’t take your life!” I knew she was right. But I didn’t care.

“I have to go to bed now Liz,” I said flatly. I shoved the blanket dad had given me when I was born under my bed.

She bit her trembling lip. She grabbed my pocket knife and walked towards my door. She stopped and looked back at me. “Seamus…I’m happy for you. I’m happy you have Alex,” she said softly before closing the door.

I went to bed. In the morning, I made my way to school and over to Cliff. “Well?” he asked, raising an eyebrow. I smirked. He nodded.

Alex came in with Paige. I eagerly walked over to her. “Ew, fag!” Paige spat. I rolled my eyes and turned to Alex. “No. Let’s go,” Paige said and grabbed Alex by the wrist. Alex looked at me before biting her lip.

She walked away.

What the hell?