"You haven't seen the power of a chaos untill you've seen
the calm at their eye."

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Kenneth

How far have we come in life? I mean the past few years, all feels like a dream now. Sometimes it's hard to go back in time and think how lonely my life felt then and how worthless I thought this living was. Sometimes I wished, I was just a human and not some royal dragon. All my problems started from my status. If I wasn't a royal, I would have been happily married with Tiara and maybe I would have fathered my 6 to 7 years kids, this fatherhood that has been a blessing and curse at the same time, doesn't make me proud at all. Falkor is over the moon, whenever we see our son. I can understand his attachment to his own blood, but why can't I feel that same, like I should?

You no love hatchling? Asked Falkor, in a sad voice. I shighed. It's not that Falkor. You won't understand. I'm trying here, but it doesn't feel like my own. Something is missing. This child is very unfortunate Falkor, because I can't be the father he deserves. I just couldn't imprint on him, like Drake. I'm not sure about my other brothers, but even though I know, it's my own, I don't feel any excitement to be blessed with the fatherwood. I feel sorry for my son, who I can't even call my son. He'll always remind me of how I almost lost my mate again, because of him and his brothers. He cries keeper. Hold him. Pleaded Falkor. I feel bad for him and lifted my crying son from his crib, which made him stop wailing at once.

I gave him a sad smile and walked towards the window, with him in my arms. I sighed, looking out. "I'm sorry son. I'm not a good father. I'm.. I'm very bad. I can't keep anyone happy. I have failed you, I failed my mate and I'm a failure myself, because my mate is happy to have you and that doesn't make me happy at all. What kind of person that makes me?" I said, loosing a teardrop. I felt a presence behind me and turned to find Blaze with his sleeping kid in his arm. Then he very gently kissed on his forehead and layed him inside the crib carefully, and smiled.

I looked down at my son, and found him watching me with curious eyes. Maybe trying to figure out who I am, making me more guilty. "What are you so deeply thinking about, bro?" Said Blaze, coming closer to me and looked down at my son. "Hello little one. I'm your uncle, but your mom said, we are all your father sooooo, you can call me dada." He said, in a baby tone, making my son smile and blabber, which made me chuckle. Blaze then looked up at me, while playing with my son's small hands. "You didn't answer me. What's bothering you?" He asked, making my smile fall.

"Nothing just..I guess, I'm just not ready to be a father yet...Or more like, I'll never be ready as his father." I looked down at my kid again, he was sucking on one of Blaze's fingers, who unintentionally placed it on his lips. "What are you saying Kenneth? Don't tell me, you don't want him. Have some mercy on this innocent." He said, scolding me. "Easy for you to say. Have you once stopped to think, what our mate is going through? Just because she loves us, she excepted our bastard children and trying to raise her as her own. But isn't it an injustice to her and our own child in the future?" Blaze took a step away from me and stood against the window.

"She's happy Kenneth, trust me. And she's aware that, we would not treat our children differently. You just have to come out of your self hate world bro, or you would hurt everyone in the process." He said, like I'm just a teenager and don't know what's right and what's wrong. "If she's happy, then why doesn't she spend time with us? Why isn't she back yet?" I ask him. Its been 2 months, since we see her. As soon as we returned from the trip after the call from father, and once she declared that she would adopt our children, she left for the remaining trip alone, with only her bodyguards one day.

She just called for a meeting and said, she would be leaving that afternoon. She didn't even bother to ask any of us if we want to join her. She just left after the lunch. When we tried to talk her out of it, explaining her about the possibilities of she being pregnant, she waved us all off by saying, she isn't pregnant. She said, she would be back in few days, but days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months and she still didn't return. "I..I think, she hasn't forgiven us yet completely. But she does call us everyday and talks to us. Maybe she really is into her queen role and as her mate, we should support her Kenneth." He tried to console me. I scoffed.

"Who are you trying to fool, brother? Look at us all. See how miserable we're  without her. She might be the strongest person walking on earth Blaze, but she still is our little mate. A little human, we dragged into our complicated world, for our own selfish reasons. She's been giving and giving, without hesitation and we have been taking and taking, without any shame. Im not the only one responsible for her heart ache Blaze, we all are. The only thing we ever gave her was misery, pain and betreyal.

We pulled her out of her comfort zone and the little happiness that she had and gave her responsibility she never asked for. She's doing a job that we were supposed to help her with, but we're all so involved in our own new world, that we don't even care, if she's alright." Blaze wanted to say something, but I interrupted him. "I agree she said, she doesn't want us to leave the kids behind, but did any of us even protest to prove her wrong?" Now he understand where I was coming from. "She was right. Maybe you guys just needed her for an heir, and now that we all have what we always wanted, it doesn't mater if its her or some random bimbo, we didn't care anymore." I went and kept my now sleeping son in the crib.

"Did you ever stopped for once and asked her, if she's happy here? Whether she likes our new arrangements bother? No! Because our expectations were so high, we automatically assumed that she should be happy, right? Well you know what? Sometimes try to stay awake the entire night and try to reach her through our bond, then you'll realize that she is not happy at all. And I have had enough of this daddy duty for the last 2 months. I don't care, if you all want to join me or not, I'm going to go get my mate and if she refuses to come back, Im staying back with her." I spat and walked out of the nursery to pack a bag. Here I come, whether you like it or not my wife.

Blaze

He's wrong about everything. I miss her more than he would ever know. I love her more than my life. I call her everyday. We have video calls, individual and in group to let her know, how much her absence is killing us. Sometimes we talk untill she's tired and finally gives into sleep. I have always kisses her goodnight, when she finally closes her eyes. Although, Kenneth is right about one thing. We never stopped and asked her if she's comfortable with the new arrangements. We never asked her, if she's happy. We never ever bothered to ask her if she misses us or if she wants some break?

She actually is doing everything, that we all had expected of her and more, without even taking a single breather. She never failed to surprise us as a queen, without even complaining. And we should undoubtedly be ashamed of ourselves to let her handle everything on he own..

Tiara

"Deep breath...and release. Again...and release. Good. Everything seems fine to me. It looks like, you might just have a gas problem or maybe you're stressing too much, my queen." Said the middle age doctor. "Blame the queen's Job, Sarah." I said, taking her hand to get up from the examination chair. "Take my advice my lady. Call one of your mate atleast if you don't want to go back yet." She said, worried. "I'll. Why do you think, I take rests in between my work? Because I do know how important it is to take care of my health. You don't worry, I'm perfectly fine and my babies are as well." I told her smiling and she returns it as sweetly.

"But don't you think, you should tell your mates about your preg..." I interrupted her with a glare to reduce her tone. "My apologies, my queen. Although it is time, because you are almost 10 weeks and with the rate those twins are growing, it would be very hard for you to hide the baby bump anymore. Tell them before people start questioning." She said, patting my shoulder. I sighed. "I understand, what your concerns are, my dear, but when it comes to the safety of our future heir to the throne, I advise you to keep your thoughts aside for a while and think for your fetus's wellbeing. There is no shame in asking for help, while pregnant." She said, making me think.

But don't they suspect already? Yet they don't really care if we're pregnant or not, now that they have their heirs in their arms. Nyx is mad at our mates for not fighting much to be here with us. It's not the kids fault and I cant blame them. I miss them so much in these two months, even though I watch them everyday on video calls. No doubt, the kids recognize me as their mother, but where does that put my kids in this picture? If I wasn't pregnant, I would have definitely be more at peace, but the only reason I'm away from my mates is, because I don't want them to go all mother hen on me, once I confirm my pregnancy, resulting them to spend less time with their first borns. Am I being hormonal? Yes but, I'm also afraid, there is a possibility that, they would never let me work again.

And with those worries completely occupying my brain these days, I skip telling them the news every single time, every time I finally decide to spill it out. I sighed again. "I'll let them know, face to face, when I go back in a week." I said, recalling her suggestion. "Let who  know what?" I heard a familiar voice and Sarah and me both turned to the now opened door with all my mates in their hot glory. They all laughed and smirked, looking at my shocked face. I couldn't help but rush towards them, hugging the first person, closer to me. Kenneth. God I missed, how he smells. Reading my thoughts, he sighed.

"I missed you too, my wife...and you smell absolutely divine, but why are you in the clinic? Are you sick?" He said, examining me and suddenly his eyes fell on my little bump, which was not covered by my overcoat anymore. Busted! "Are you.." his words were chocked, like he was going to cry with excitement. "Maybe" I chuckled, making my other mates curious and pull me out of Kenneth's arms to inspect me head to toe. I tried to look innocent, I know the questions that will follow their now bulging out eyes. "You're pregnant? I knew it!" Said Kaiden, taking my lips into a mind blowing kiss. I relaxed after a few seconds of shock and returned it with the same passion.

"Wait a second." said Brenton, making us pull apart. "How long have you known about this, Tiara?" He said, narrowing his eyes, looking a little mad. "Umm..one week after I started the tour?" I mummered. "What?!" I heard multiple complaints and protests and angry growls, thrown at me from all my mates. "See? This is why, I kept it a secret, as long as I couldn't anymore." I said, glaring at them. "So you're telling us that, its wrong to be worried about your pregnant mate?" Asked Blaze, looking hurt. I sighed for the hundredth time today. "Would you have sent me on this trip, if you knew about my pregnancy? " I asked, folding my arms.

"Absolutely not little one. No question about it. Do you think, it's wise to travel this much while you're carrying?" Even though he wasn't shouting like his brothers, Drake look very upset and disappointed. "Look? I know, what I did was not safe and I'm really sorry for risking my and the babies health for this tour, also keeping this news from you guys was very unfair, but if not now, you wouldn't have allowed me to go untill the babies were born and a little older to travel. As a queen, I can't deny my duties, also as an expecting mother, I made sure, I was taking a proper diet and rest in between the traveling, to make sure that neither me nor the babies are strained by my queen duties." I finished, releasing a deep breath.

They were looking at me in awe? Oh was my speech that influencing? Cool. "I heard it thrice just now. You?" Asked Brenton to Kenneth. "Me too." He said, looking at me, like he's seeing me for the first time. I looked at them confused. "Tiara?" Said Kenneth coming closer to me, followed by my other mates too. "Are you carrying more than one, babe?" He asked, expectedly. I nodded, smiling at them. "She's carring twins, my lords." Said Sarah, bringing our attention to her. She smiled at all of us. "Both are boys and absolutely healthy." She said, resulting my mates to lift me up, bridal style in their arms and showered with kisses, everywhere possible. I was hugged by my mates one by one and they didn't hesitate telling me, how happy and excited they were for us.

"No more work. You covered almost the entire world in your delicate condition. Lucky for us, nothing unfortunate happened, but you're not off the hook yet for keeping such a big news from us little one. I do not like it at all." Said Drake, making me frown. "Hope you all know, how I must have felt, when you all together kept a big secret from me couple of months ago?" I said, making them open and close their mouth speechless and then they lowered their head in shame and understanding.

"But, this is different from what we hid from you Tiara. We did it to keep you away from harms and you did it for your own selfish reasons." Said Blaze, as Drake can't meet my eyes anymore.  Deep down they all know, this two situations are no different. "Oh really? Selfish reasons? Me thinking that, you would give your entire attention to me, instead of your first born, once my pregnancy is confirmed, definitely sounds like a selfish reason. Me not wanting the babies to be neglected, in absence of their mothers, is also a very selfish reason. So now that you know everything, I'm sure you know, how to put me in my place, because you are men, who are allowed to make mistakes, but as a woman, I should not, right?

Nobody could meet my eyes. "Tiara? We're sorry. I didn't know..." I stopped Brenton from speaking further. "It's exactly the same situation, no matter how you put it?" I said, folding my hands over my now a little sensitive and somewhat bigger than usual breast, unintentionally dragging their attention to them. Aaaaa. I groaned in my head. I don't know if it was my boobs or my question that left them at a loss for words, but their eyes instantly snapped back to my eyes, when I was pissed all of a sudden for my action and their lack of answers.

"You know what? I can take care of myself and I don't need any of you to follow me like lost puppies. Also, I already knew this would happen, when I reveal my pregnancy to you. Your men ego will never let me win over you. Do you know what they call people like you? A hypocrite!" I said, walking away from them again. They followed me as assumed, but I just don't feel like talking to them anymore. How my situation is different than theirs? I scoffed and ignored those bunch of plaster saint behind to act on their actions, while I calm myself down to face them again.

Can't I have just one peaceful day with them, without any disagreement in this life time? Why it has to be so chaotic every single time? Because we are the daughter of chaos. Laughed Nyx. Also my hormones.