"I'm in awe of you. I want you, and the thought of anyone else having you is like a knife twisting in my dark soul."

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Blaze 🔞

There it goes again. That heavy feeling in your chest when you don't feel any desire to speak or move. All you want to do is close your eyes and sleep, because the process of being broken is incredibly exhausting. You attempt your best to make your days fulfilling, but no matter how hard you try you can't seem to connect to anyone or anything. I don't know where I went wrong? Was I any different than my brothers?  Did I not show her the same affection that they did? I know I'm not that expressive, but she has seen my possesive side. Did she not like it? Or more like hate it?

"They're here" muttered Kaiden. Making me and my brothers look up at the two people, that were the reason of our sleepless night. "Welcome back. Done already? " Asked Kaiden, making Kenneth chuckle. "Why yes brother. Jealous? " He asked, hugging my blushing mate in his arms. "Maybe a little. Im just upset, you didn't invite me." He smirked, making me frawn. "Next time...maybe." He said, teasing my mate. Her eyes went wide imagining it, which made all of them laugh, except me. They all joked and made fun of each other for a while. I'm not upset. I'm most of the time the invisible man but, what hurt me more is, I'm invisible for her too.

Not able to take it anymore, I got up trying to leave the room silently to get the must needed rest. "Blaze?" Called Kenneth. "Are you coming? " I don't even have the slightest idea to where. "Coming where?" I asked, with a straight face. "Horse riding? " Said Tiara. "Was the ride yesterday night not enough for you?" They all almost fall from the chair, laughing. Tiara blushed a shade of red, making Drake pull her to him. She didn't even protest. They were all pampering her. I wish, I could do the same but she never noticed me. "I'm sleepy. See you guys later." I said, turning around.

"Oh comeon Blaze. It's for an hour. Tiara is here too." Said Brenton. He eyed me. He knows how I'm feeling. He does too but he's good at hiding. I'm not. "She won't miss me." The words were out of my mouth, before I can stop it. The room quited down, making me look up and our eyes met. She wants me to elaborate it. I avoided my brothers warning for once and walked closer to them. "I always thought I was not your first priority but, lately realized I was not even your last." It's not true, she barely wishpered.

"You know what the saddest fucking shit is Tiara? Waiting for that one day when you get treated like a priority instead of an option. Im not blaming you. It's not your fault, I gave you my everything without making sure if, you even wanted it. Why would you though? Your hands are full with all the attention you're getting." She looked at me unmoving. Like she can't believe, I'm finally speaking up? "Blaze? It's ok if you don't want to come. He's tired Tiara. Come let's go." Said Drake, trying to avoid any more conflicts.

"Blaze. I never knew you felt that way. I thought, you're just shy. I'm sorry if I made you feel neglected. " She said, looking at me. I scoffed. "I'm used to it." I simply said. "What the fuck you're talking about Blaze? Who the fuck neglected you!?" Barked Kenneth, looking pisses as ever. "Having her all to yourself, even though we talked, how it would effect us before mating, you went behind our back and fucking Marked and mated with her! You have no right to scream at my face." Tiara gasped but she needs to know.

"It was my anniversary. I had every right to spend time with my wife and how I spend it, should not be your fucking business!" Is he being serious right now? "It is my fucking business Kenneth because every time you fucked her yesterday, we felt it. You know how hard it was? We were supposed to mark her together before individually mating with her! But you selfish bastard couldn't take it, could you? You steel our fucking right Kenneth! How would you have felt if each one of us had fucked her throughly all night except you and you felt the same pain?" It was too late to take back my words when I felt a sharp sting to my face.

"Think before you say Blaze! I'm not a whore, you all will take turns fucking all night!!" She pushed at my chest. "I didn't mean it like that..." she shaked her head. "You know what your problem is? You're afraid of rejection. You're jealous because he had me first before you. If it were you, then we won't be having this discussion. And secondly, I'm not an attention seeker. I'm just trying to know my mates by being with them. They are not more and you're no less to me. I like you all in a different ways but the same. And the reason Kenneth was my first because I felt that connection with him. You never even opened up until now. What did you expact from me? Jumping your bones because I felt the pull to you?" I was speechless by her outburst.

"You guys are still complete stranger to me Blaze. When did you give me a chance to know you? I'm not a mind reader. Learn to express yourself. Speak up, when you're hurt. Screem, when you're mad. Come meet me, when you miss me. What were you trying to prove, fighting with your brother? That you have more rights to be with me? Should I take permission from you too sleep with any of your other brothers? "  She kept on going and going and for some odd reason, I felt at peace. I felt like, this is what I was missing. Our arguments that makes us open our hearts to each other.

One day, you will find that pairing soul. It will be a feeling beyond your imagination. You just can't help it but to adore them. You will feel your whole heart melt for this person. This beautiful soul will bring joy, laughter, calmness and so much inspiration, that you will finally see hope in front of you. For once, you can actually say, I'm in love. I can see a future with this person. I can share my life with this person. I remember Simon Saying it. Its so true. "I'm so fucking in love with you." I finally confessed.

She stopped mid sentence, with her mouth open, stunned with my confession. Then her shocked face morphed into rage and frustration.  "Are you for real right now? Fuck you Blaze!" She spat angrily and walked away from us angrily, making my brothers laugh at me and me cracking a smile at her retreating figure. I ran behind her to apologize. "Blaze!? A head start would be good. I don't want to run around with a hard on, if you guys decide to have an angry make up sex." Joked Kaiden. I flipped him off and walked faster. God she's faster than I thought. I followed her scent, that lead to the room she usually uses while spending time in the fortress. Time to show her, how madly I'm in love with her, properly this time.

Tiara

Was all this a joke to him? I was literally about to blow and he thought it was the right time to confess. Yes I asked to open up. Yes I asked him to express his feelings but he was telling me 'I love you' like...'shut up bitch. I had enough of your bullshit?' I need a bath or I'll explode. I heard a knock and groaned at whoever was at the door but, I didn't expact it was to be him. Before I could close the door on his face, he pushed it and came in, locking it behind him. "What do you want?" I said, turning around in order to ignore him. "I confessed my love to you and you ran away like your ass was on fire, you hot headed Phoenix." He smiled.

"I heard you loud and clear but, if you're expecting me to say it back then, you have to understand that, things like this takes time. And if by saying that I'm hurting you, I'm sorry because, you don't just fall in love with someone you hardly know." I said folding my arms, giving him a hard look. He smirked. He fuking smirked. This guy is definitely bi polar. "My my. You got a mouth. Wants me to make love to it." He said, walking toward me, cornering me to the wall, in the process. "Sh..shut up Blaze. Tell me what you want or leave. I'm still mad at you. Don't make me say or do things, we both will regret." I said, trying to distract him, so that I can escape. But he has already trapped me in between the wall and him.

"You smell like my brother. " He growled, closer to my neck. I gulped. "Well. For your kind information, you barzed in, when I was about to take a bath. Also, isn't it obvious to smell like him, when we spent the entire night cuddled together?" I would suggest you shut your smart mouth now keeper. His beast is on edge. said Nyx. "I..I should take a shower. See you later." He didn't move his hands which were trapping me. Then he took a step back and took his t shirt off at one go. I wanted to ask, what the fuck he thinks he was doing but his killer abs were to die for and so ripped..."I'll give you a bath." He wasn't asking. I watched him get rid of the remaining atricles of clothes, least bothered of how his naked glory was effecting me and dragged me toward the bathroom. "What makes you think, I'll listin to you?" I asked, making him halt. Then he picked me up bridal style, making me yelp.

"Blaze? Put me down. What do you think you're doing?" I know what he is doing. His territorial self is getting rid of the other male's scent from my body so that he can rub his own. Possesive much. He didn't answer, nor I argued, for his sanity. Also I need to calm down, in order to not blow this fortress off. He stood under the shower and started cleaning himself off real quick. Call me shameless but, his body is...fine and I'm drooling over his body like a bitch in heat. He pushed his wet hair back with both his hands, that made him look like an Adonis, right amout of stubble that could stimulate your sex drive while it rubs against your skin. Bulging big hard muscles, that can squeeze the hell out of you and..my eyes greedily roamed around his body, untill it stopped where the v line meets. Fuck! Why am I acting like a slut? I choosed to look away, but he caught me checking him out. Busted!

"Come here" He hissed, pushing me under the shower gently. "Aah Blaze? Seriously, I'm capable enough to take a bath myself." Before I could blabber some more, to come out of this acward situation, his predatory eyes stopped my action. "I said, I want to." With that said, he ripped my dress open and threw it aside. "That was very expansive." I commented, not thinking much about where his eyes were traveling. "You look more beautiful when naked." He said, placing butterfly touches around my body, deliberately leaving my private parts. Asshole is teasing me. Then his fingers traced Kenneth's mark, making me shudder. It's still sensitive, or is it supposed to be like that forever?

"My mark would look hot here." He said, tracing my pelvic bone. Then his fingers were tracing my pussy lips and im sure, he can feel my wetness there. Without any warning, he pushed a finger inside my already slick gap, making me go week in the knees. "Blaze? I think I should just take a bath alone and come out." My words were on deaf ears. He lifted my right leg, by my calfs and inserted another finger in me, slowly increasing his pace. I was so invested in his forplay and taking the pleasure he was providing that, I didn't realize he was already sucking on one of my tits, making me a moaning mess. He kept pushing me closer and closer towards my goal and I was trying real hard not to screem. Just when, my muscles strained and I was about to release my stress, he stopped atonce, completely pulling himself away from me. I snap opened my eyes, clueless.

"And to answer to your question earlier, I can make you do whatever I want, if I want to?" He smirked, making me want to wipe his smirk away. Shame on you Tiara. You got played by him. "You're an asshole Blaze. You're not what I think you are. Get out." I said, turning around and feel like crying. "And Don't try to touch me again, without my concent." I said, facing the shower to let the water wash away any tresses of humility or disappointment from my face. Suddenly I'm turned around and his lips were on mine in an aggressive and punishing kiss. I wanted to push him away but his hold on my hair tightend to keep me in place and plunged his tongue in my mouth. For sometime, we fought for dominance but then I gave up when a familiar sensation hit me. Curse the mate pull.

"Never ask me to never touch you again. It would kill me." He said, touching our foreheads together. "Im sorry. I was just teasing you Tiara. I don't know how to behave around women." Then he looked into my eyes, with so much pain, it ripped at my heart. "I want you so bad baby but, more than that, I want you to want me. I want you to look at me the way I look at you. I want you to crave me the way I crave you. You're my mate. My life. My everything, Tiara. You are right. I can't bare the pain of rejection from you. I love you so much, that it hurts baby. I never wanted some one this bad, like the way I want you. Please, just don't push me away again." He said, kissing my forehead, my eyes, my cheeks.

"I'm sorry to accuse you earlier like that. I'm just.." He struggled with the words. I hold his face in my hands and made him look into my eyes. "Insecure?" I asked and he nodded. I pulled him closer and brushed my lips with him. "I want you too Blaze, with all of the other things you desire." I said, biting my lips lightly. He groaned and lifted me up linking my legs around his waist, then pushed me against the shower wall. "Then beg me to fuck you." He asked, with his erect manhood, teasing my entrance. I closed my eyes in frustration. "Just fuck me already Blaze." I said, about to push him down and ride him myself. "Say you're mine first." He smirked. "Fuck! Blaze" He just laughed, watching me this helpless. "I'll. After you say that you're mine forever." He wishpered, still teasing my clit. I groaned.

"Blaze. I'm your mate. I'm yours. Just fuck me and make me your's forever." That just did it. I gasped, when he started pushing into me slowly, untill he was fully in. "Fucking perfect." He praised, moving in and out of me in a very slow and painfull manner. "Damn you Blaze. If you don't make me cum in another two minutes, I'm out of here." I said, glaring at his amused face. "As you wish." He said, increasing his pace and omg, what a mind blowing fucking job he did. It didn't stop, like he was possessed by a ghost. And like he promised, he made me cum, so many fucking times, I have just lost the counts and regret even for poking the bear. Dragon in my case. A crazy, horny, possesive dragon.

He sucked my pussy in between fucks. He used my boobs like some stress relieving balls. He squeezed my body like I'm his favorite doll and his lips and teeth, they didn't leave a single place untouched in my body. I'm sure, by the time he's done with me, I'll look like an used sex toy for the onlookers, body filled with bruises and hickies. When I thought, I can't take the assult of his pumping machine anymore, like Kenneth, his beast took over. His body released his flame which engulfed us both and I felt a sharp pain below my belly button, just a little over my pelvic bones. He growled and with a final jerk, emptied himself deep intto me. Thanks the heaven, fucking finally!!!

"Mine" He roared, making me release a breath. Next time when he offered to bath me as after care, I didn't protest. More like couldn't. while cleaning me up throughly, he was polar opposite of how he acted minutes ago. Something has changed between us. It was like, our minds and hearts are connected now and I can hear his thoughts just like Kenneth. My beautiful mate. I heard his thought. And with that said, we both fell deep into the slumberland.