*LONG CHAPTER ALERT*

Nithya was sobbing badly lying in Meena's lap.Meena patted her shoulder.
She let her cry for few minutes.
Nithya woke from her lap and wiped her tears.

'Enna prechanai ungalukulla?', Meena asked caressing her hair.
'Onnum illa athai..
She just said her the half truth.She Just said her that she was fainted because of skipping meals and the doctor's statement.
'Adhaan athai olunga sapdradhu illa nu enna thittunaaru adhu konjam extreme ah poiduchu avlodhan',she said.
'That's it?',Meena asked her.

'Haan athai thats it',she said.
'Nithya..I have seen Ashok for 28 years,Avanuku konjam kovam varum illanu solla maaten,aana ivlo kova padraanna,this is not the only reason.Am I right?',Meena asked and Nithya remained silent.

'Nee yedhuvum solla venaam,I don't want to interfere in you guys.Unga prechanai ya neengale solve pannunga..but before that you tell me the truth?Avana pathi ellathayum unkita sollitaana?',Meena asked and Nithya nodded.

'Ellathayum ah?',she asked and Nithya just looked at her.
'Ofcourse sollirupaan,he loved a girl and now she was not in her life nu sollirupaan.Aana adhuku aprom enna nadandhuchu nu sonnana?',Meena asked.

'Avaru farewell mudinja aprom andha ponna aprom paakave illa nu sonnaru',she said.

'Adhaan illa..enna nadandhuchu nu naan unta solla poradhu illa!Unakke koodiya seekram theriya varum.',she said caressing her hair.

'And andha vishayam theriyumbodhu innoru vishayam um unaku theriyavarum.But Nithya naan unkitta onne onnu ketutukuren ma!Avan life la neraya kashtapattutaan.Neraya elandhurukan,enna nadandhaalum en paiyan ah vittutu mattum poidadha ma',Meena said with tears in her eyes.
Nithya seems helpless.

She can't see tears in her mother in law's eyes.
She held her hand.
'Enna dhan prechanai ya irundhaalum please ma,en paiyan ku innoru chance kudu',Meena said and Nithya nodded.

After few hours Ashok came back.
He came and got blessings from his mom and they talked for a while.
Meena don't want to remember anything,she just talked with him casually.They had their lunch together and finally Meena ready to leave.

'Ma,you can stay here na.Vandha odane kelambureenga?', Ashok asked.
'Aama athai,please atleast stay for a week', Nithya said.

'Illa ma I should go,enaku neraya anga velai iruku!Summa ungala paakalamnu vandhe.Its time for flight ma', Meena said and they nodded.

Ashok went down to get his car to drop his mom.
'Nithya',Meena called her and Nithya went near her.
'En paiyan ah nalla paathuko, I'm sure he'll take care of you and I have something for you',she said and gave her a piece of paper.

Nithya looked at her cluelessly.
Meena blinked her eyes as an assurance and she kissed her forehead.She bidded bye to her daughter in law and went.

Nithya opened the paper.
'TAKE A LOOK AT STOREROOM.YOU'LL GET YOUR ANSWERS',was written on the paper.

She rushed to the store room and opened it.
She switched on the light and gave a look at the store room.
There was many things like, a cricket kit,a Guitar,and a Diary along with many many trophies,medals and certificates.

She touched at guitar.It was looking magnificent in golden colour.'SHUBBI',was printed on the guitar.
'Ashok ku guitar lam vaasikka theriyum ah?',she thought and her eyes went to the cricket kit.

'Paarah cricket kooda velayaduvaaraa?',she thought and took his diary.
'Ipdi aduthavanga diary ah padikiradhu indecent aana vishayam...but I should read it to find answers for my questions.

She opened it.

01/06/2009

First day of my new school.I still can't believe I was going 11th grade.
I'm missing my old school and friends. But its okay,I can make new friends here.

I went inside my class with many thoughts and I standing frozed by seeing a girl.

I didn't know her,but by seeing her my lips curved automatically.
Her skirt and shirt was tidy.Her high pony tail and her minimal make up made her look bold.
She was shouting something.

'Listen students,today many new commers will join us!So girls have you collected their details?Any handsome figures?',she asked.
I chuckled at her and went inside the classroom and she stopped me.

'Hey,you come here',she called me.
'Me?',I pointed myself.
'Yes Mr.Handsome you!',she called and I went near her.
'Your name?',she asked.
'Ashok!',I said.
'So from which school are you coming?',she asked
I said my school name.

'So already many girls were drooling over by seeing you.',she asked and I looked at her with a smile.
'So Ashok what was your extra talents',she asked.
While she was asking we heard a sound.

'Jessica Steve!'
I think he was our Class Teacher.
'Sir',she gulped.
'What are you doing?Is this the way you behaving with our new commers',he shouted.
I noticed,she was controlling her smile.

'This girl is something different',I thought.

'Sorry sir!',she said.
'Go and sit in your place',he shouted and she ran to her place.

'Hello my boy,What is your name?',he asked me.
'Ashok Kumar sir',I said.
Then he asked my details and I said.

'Okay,go and sit',he said and looked around for place.
I sat in the last bench.She was sitting before me.
'Heyy',she turned around waved her hand at me.
'Hii',I said.

'Hmmm...Friends?',she asked and she stretched her hand to shook.
I was actually expecting to talk with her.
I shooked my hand with her.

Her touch made me blush.This feeling was new to me.
Expecting good days with her.

31/12/2009

Yes I'm in love with her.I am feeling happy around her.Actually we both have feelings for eachother.Im gonna propose her.
Tomorrow was new year and we were gonna be the first couple of 2010!

I jumped over her house's compound wall.
I didn't know where the courage came, but I did it!
I climbed on her house wall by the pipe and finally I reached her room.

She was sleeping peacefully.I slowly knocked the window.
After knocking for two more times,she woke up and saw me with her wide eyes.

'Ash...', before she complete and I sighed 'Ushhh'!
She came and opened the door.I went inside.
'Heyy enna man?Epdi vandha?',she asked me.
'Ushh',I said again and looked at the clock.It was exactly 10 seconds before 12'O clock.

'10,09,08,07,06,05,04,03,02,01',I said and kneeled down and held her hand.
'Happy New Year Jessi!And I love you!',I said.
She gapped her mouth.
She nodded yes.
I hugged her.

For the first time I'm hugging a girl other than my mom.

Yes,we are the first couple of 2010!

31/03/2011

The last day of my school.Im gonna miss everything,my happy school days,my friends,class bunks, school fights and especially my I'm gonna miss my Jessi!

She was hugging me tightly.
'Im gonna miss you',she said and I caressed her hair.
'Im too,just for few days na Jessi!We are gonna join in same college,same course.These three months will pass soon',I said and kissed her forehead.

'Shall we go?Our friends will be searching for us',I reminded her and we went to our friends with hand in hand.

There was a photo pasted in his diary.
It was his school friends with him and Jessi!
Nithya sighed at that and she turned the next page!

27/08/2011

Our freshers party!
Im gonna play my guitar.
Super excited I'm!

My first love,my guitar!My Shubbi.

There was an another photo pasted on his diary.He was kissing the guitar and holding it tightly.
Nithya smiled at his photo.

I was bit nervous.I was holding my Shubbi tightly.My friends were accompanying me but Jessi was missing.
I need her now.To make me feel confident.But my Shubbi made me stronger.I looked at her and smiled.

I was on the stage.I closed my eyes tightly.I can hear the applauses and cheers around me.

I started.I gave my best and I slowly opened my eyes.Everyone was cheering.
I can hear my name.
'ASHOK! ASHOK! ASHOK!',the crowd was screaming and cheering my name.
My dream came true.

My friends hugged me!And finally I found my Jessi.She rushed to me and hugged me tightly.

And finally I won the 'Best Performer Of The Year'!

A photo was pasted.
Ashok was lifting the Trophy and kissing his Shubbi in the photo around his friends and Jessi.
Nithya smiled at the photo proudly.
She continued reading.

22/04/2016

Our college farewell!
6 years of my college days were gonna end.We are placed in different companies but I'm not gonna do the job.Im seriously searching a chance for being a guitarist.

I looked around everyone.Everyone was crying and letting their feelings out.

My friends were hugging me and we were talking about many college memories.But my eyes and heart wavering for my Jessi! Finally my eyes  found her.She was extremely beautiful in Saree.Her black saree and her open hair.She made my heart flutter.

She came near me.
I pulled her wrist and we went to some private place.
I hugged her.
'Gonna miss you!',I said and kissed her forehead.
'Miss you too',she said.

I don't know why her eyes doesn't show any emotions.
'Let's meet weekly once.Ill miss you every day',I said and she smiled.

'Indha job uh ku nee po Ashok,en veetla vandhu pesu soon.',she said.
'Wait for me Jessi,I need time and I'll become guitarist soon!I can't wait to marry you! But we should wait',I said and she simply nodded.

I know she was not so interested in my passion,but she is accepting everything for me!

And finally after a long talk we left the college once and last!

another photo,their gang and he is with jessi and holding her hand.their farewell photos were sticked along the diary.

24/04/2016

I received a call from my friend.
He said that she left to Canada yesterday!
She left me?No this can't be true!I know she can't leave me!
Tears were rolling down my cheeks.

And again my friend said that her father compelled her and sent her to Canada.
Everything became blur around me.
I beleive that she'll come to me.I'll become a Guitarist and I'll go and meet her.Ill gave her a surprise.

25/05/2016

Yessssss!
I am selected in the semi finals.Finals was in two days!Iam missing my Jessi now.Where are you Jessii?Soon I'll come to you!

27/05/2016

The worst day of my life!
I was cheated by my loved one!I was betrayed.

She can feel his tears on the papers.

I was happily getting ready for my Finals.My father was not interested in this but he gave me a chance.If I won I  can continue my passion,if I didn't I should attend the interview today.That was a very big industry and he wished me to get a good job there.
I was confident that I'll win the competition.I reached the auditorium and I was waiting.
Everything was absolutely fine till I received a phone call.

'Heyyy...Jessi was not in Canada.I saw her in her house! Actually she is going Canada in few hours da',my friend exclaimed.
I ran like a mad man from the auditorium.I didn't think anything about,I didn't wanna miss her.

I caught her at the airport.
She saw me but she turned her face aside when she looked at me.
I ran behind her and caught her hand.
'Leave my hand Mr.,I should go',she shouted.

My heart was broken completely.
'Please Jessi,come with me.I need to talk to you.',I said and she came with me.

'Why are you leaving Jessi? Without even telling me',I asked.
'Because I want my passion and not you',she shouted.

'What?',My eyes became watery.
'Because I didn't love you!I regret everything now.Passion is important than anything',she said.

'I can wait Jessi,You can run behind your passion, I'll support you!But why are you leaving me?',I asked and my voice broked literally.

'I was being happy with you Ashok,but that doesn't mean you can follow me for your entire lifetime.I had big dreams and big goals in my life!But you are running behind that stupid Guitar.'she huffed.

'Im coming to the point,I said yes to you just because you are famous among the girls and I wanna show off them.I know you always chose the best, that's why I followed you in UG and PG.I never loved you Ashok!You can go now please!',she said and she went there without even looking at me!

Nithya closed the diary quickly.She can't control her tears.She can understand the pain of him.She wiped her tears and continued reading

Jessi...please Jessi let me get my answer for my question please...',I teared.
'What????',she asked irritatingly.
'Enna nee eppavume love pannadhu illayaa?',I asked her.
'Eppavume illa Ashok',she said and moved.
           
I was crying sitting down in the airport.And I slowly got up from there and the time was 11.00am!
'Haiyoooo.... My audition',I remembered and ran again to the auditorium.

My dreams shattered infront of my own eyes.
I missed the finals.The finals were already over and they were distributing the prizes!

First Jessi left me,then my passion left me..I can't handle the pressure.I can feel everything was becoming darker to my sight.My eyes shut unknowingly.

I felt water splashes on my face.I opened my eyes, people were around me.I woke up and many of them were asking some questions to me.I was not ready to answer any question.I moved there without saying anything.

I reached my home,her words revolving around my mind,I shut myself in my room.
I remember,ma coming behind me and she was asking me something.I couldn't hear anything.I threw my Shubbi away.

I lied on my bed.
Just everything was revolving my mind,my tears were unstoppable it was flowing through my cheeks.

03/06/2016
Its been a week.Iam still being the same.I didn't like anything.I didn't even touch my Shubbi.I was being in dark.

I heard my appa's voice outside from the room.
He said he won't talk with me forever.
Because Neither I complete my passion nor his wish.

'What kind of son I'm!'...

This was the last statement of the diary.

TO BE CONTINUED...

Hey guys👋Hope you are all fine!And many of you asked me to quit their misunderstanding soon..So I have decided to give double updates today also🤗!
Don't worry guys Adutha episode la Ashok um Nithya um sendhuruvaanga😌!
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