Yes, gay guys can have crushes on straight guys.

I never fell for a high school jock, nor a best friend. My first boyfriend was my prom date and we lost our virginity in a car, the old-fashioned way.

In college I was having casual sex like a "regular" person and I assumed that crushing had been permanently replaced with... fucking.

When I started my first job, I found a beautiful apartment in a perfect part of the city. Subletting the spare bedroom helped cover the rent.

I spoke to three potential roommates before Otto walked into my life. He was smart and had a great sense of humour. His native German often led to some curious misunderstandings. Otto was also gorgeous, he looked like a mix between an anime character, a viking and an underwear model.

And of course, Otto was straight!

I first realized how bad of a mistake I made when he casually walked out of the bathroom wearing... nothing. Just a white towel slung over his shoulder. Apparently, where he came from people didn't make an issue of nudity.

I definitely wasn't complaining but I hadn't even told him that I was gay yet. Would that be a problem for him? Would he decide to move out?

I promised to tell him well before my next hookup but for some bizarre reason, I kept postponing.

Fuck, fuck, fuck!

Just when I thought the time for crushes was over, one grabbed me firmly by the neck and squeezed hard enough for me to thoroughly enjoy it.