I sat the entire morning on my bed trying to call Irene... She didn't answer any of my calls.
I stayed on my bed with my legs against my chest... This dream was horrible.
Dream? NIGHTMARE

I've had a lot of them, but this was the worst... It's on the top of the list...

Why the fuck isn't she answering?? What the fuck could she be doing?

I put my face into my hand and tried to calm down.

Get it together Chanel. Get it the fuck together.

Suddenly my phone rang, and I held it as fast as I can.

Xander.

"Hi Xander" I answered

"Chanel!" He said panting "I found the Joel guy. His name is Joel Frank. I have to see you, where are you?"

"I'm home" I said quickly my heart clenching hard

"I'm on my way." He said and hung up

I was scared... I don't know from what... but I was scared

Terrified

Joel Frank... who?
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"Who is he?" I asked

"Let me take my breath?" Xander panted

"Come on, Xander" I begged

"Okay so, his name is Joel Frank. He went to the same college you did. He wasn't a really good guy. He had parties in his mansion every week. He lived with his parents though with silver spoon in his mouth."

I sighed and rubbed my face "Me and him were friends?"

"I guess so" he shrugged

I rested back on the bed and knocked my head in the headboard when I noticed something. "Past tense?" I sat up

"What?"

"Why are you using past tense? Had-Lived? Why?"

"Chanel..." he shook his head

I stared at him and stood up "Why Xander?" I yelled

"Because he's in the hospital Chanel!" He yelled back

I felt like a crash happened inside me. "Hospital? Why?" I tried to hold my tears back

"I don't know..." he breathed out

I sat down and sighed "Can I go see him?"

"I don't know the hospital. The guy I asked didn't know"

I need to think... Think Chanel. Think.

"Did you ask that Xander dude?"

"He said he's gonna help but I guess there's nothing he could do" I shrugged

"I'm sorry but... isn't it a bit odd that he's your best friend and doesn't know any of these things?"

"I never asked myself that.."

I looked at Xander and thought of every single word I was gonna say next.

"Hey Xander" I started making him look at me "How do you know Irene?" I asked

"Irene?" He was silent for a second "You introduced us to each other"

"Was she close to me in the time before the accident?"

"I'm not sure..." he shrugged

"But how can you not know this...? You're my best friend" I asked

"You didn't tell me every detail in your life, Chanel" he yelled and got up

"I'm sorry, Xander" I stood up and held his hand "I'm just so stressed"

"I understand... I'll just leave now. Call me when you calm down" he kissed my forehead and walked out of my room
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"She didn't come back home since yesterday?" I asked aunt Lorain confused on the phone

"Yes sweetheart, maybe she's staying at a friend's"

"Okay then. Please let her call me when she comes back, Aunt Lorain" I said, and we hung up

I sighed and walked downstairs to mom. I sat down on the couch beside her watching tv.

After some time my dad walked in and sat beside me on the couch.

"You seem in a really good mood, dad"

"Yes, sweetie" he smiled and pulled me into his chest

"Good news from work I see" mom said while looking at the tv uninterested

"Yes of course" his teeth clenched for a second "So Nelly, what do you wanna do today?"

"Anything. I just don't want to stay home" I smiled

"Okay sweetheart. Let's go to the beach or something."
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Going to the beach with dad was a tradition. We used to go all the time and have ice cream and do fun things.

"Dad, I don't know why but... I feel there's tension between you and mom"

He sighed "Your mother doesn't really give me much attention anymore, Nelly"

"Why?"

"I don't really know... I guess we got too used to each other that out lives became boring"

"That's really bad..." I sighed "Try to work it out dad... please"

"I try, sweetie.." he rubs my shoulder "I guess you're the only string holding us together"
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I laid down about to fall asleep when I got a text. I reached to my phone and opened it and saw its a message from Irene

Oh my god

Irene:
You called me a lot dude what's wrong??

Me:
Where the fuck have you been?? I need you

Irene:
I've been staying with a friend of mine. What's up?

Me:
I have some questions. This Joel dude and I found this weird safe that idk the code to.

Irene:
Joel was one of your best friends. What safe though??

Me:
I have no idea. Is Joel in a hospital??

Irene:
No clue.

Me:
What about Xander?

Irene:
What about him?

Me:
Is he trustworthy or should I worry??

Irene:
Are you kidding me??? Xander is one of your greatest friends dude. Chill.

Me:
Are you sure?

Irene:
Obv.

Me:
Can you go home soon??

Irene:
My friend is going through some shit so when she's through I'll go back

Me:
Okay then..

Irene:
How's the dude?

Me:
What dude?

Irene:
The guy you told me about.

Me:
Oh. Leo? He's good. He's really nice actually.
He's here for me.

Irene:
Good for you guuuurlll! Just take care huh

Me:
Thanks Irene

I smiled and rested back and breathed out. I put my phone on the bed side and fell asleep.

"Hey Channy" The guy said

"It's you again..."

He shrugged and chuckled "Yep"

"Why?"

"Because I advised you to do something and you didn't" he sat down "I told you.. doubt to trust"

"But you never said who to doubt..."

"Doesn't mean you decide to trust everyone"

"What should I do?"

"Listen Chanel... A lot of the answers you're looking for you already know. Deep down on your brain. It's there. Stop taking your memory as a weakness it has way more than you think."

"I don't know..."

"Don't doubt yourself. You know, Chanel" he smiled

"Please help me"

"You will see me again..."