July 30th

Man, July went by really quick, we've come to the end of our 'European Mainland'  leg of the trip and are about to head off to the UK!

I'm so looking forward to seeing Niall in a couple of days, I kind of miss him. Today has turned a little dreary here in Le Havre, we spent our afternoon on the beach but it started to rain so we've just been sitting in our hotel room relaxing. It's been almost a month since I've seen Niall. We haven't talked since Thursday but I know his last show was last night in Paris and he told me he still wants to pick us up in Portsmouth on Tuesday and drive us to London. I have a whole day and a half till I can see him!

I'm on my bed reading a book called 'Island Girls and Boys'. It's one of my favorites, I've always read this book in the summer that it's become a tradition now. Chelsea and Bri are on their phones and Theresa is in the bathroom, when I hear Chelsea gasp.

I set my book down on my lap to inspect Chelsea, she's laying on her back on the couch across from me and is looking intensely at her phone. "What's wrong?" I ask. She slightly rotates her head, hiding her lips from me. "Chelsea..." I chide. No response. Okay somethings up.

I frown at her then get up from my bed to look at her phone myself. I reach for the phone, "Wait Jordyn you don't-" I don't heed her warning and take her phone anyway. The screen is on a twitter post that she's following called 1DUPDATES. Ok... I don't know where this is going... is this about Milan again? Are they still trying to figure out who Niall was with?

They seem to have re-tweeted something about Niall, the headline reads ['Niall Horan seen kissing another fan!'] Hmm okay, I don't see why Chelsea is so upset, maybe its a rumor about me? I scroll down further to a picture and I understand now why Chelsea is so distraught.

There's two pictures set side by side. The first picture is of Niall and I kissing back in Milan then next to it he's with a person that is clearly not me. There's another caption saying that this was taken yesterday... What the actual fuck. That son of a bitch!

I'm so pissed. Yes, anger is my first reaction because I thought we had something, I thought he was different. I've been played... Still gripping the phone I slide down the side of the couch with my knees up and I just hang my head between them.

"Oh Jordyn... I'm so sorry..." I feel Chelsea's hand rest on top of my shoulder, Brianna comes over and sits down next to me as well holding my hand, she gets a glimpse of the phone then yells, "THERESA!" Theresa comes rushing out of the bathroom with a towel on her head looking worried. "What?!"

I think she senses something is wrong because all she says is "Uh-oh," then comes over to us and sits on the other side of me. Fuck, I knew I shouldn't of got caught up with him like this, water starts pooling in my eyes... Don't cry, don't cry...

"Well he can go fuck himself," Theresa grunts after reading the tweet, "if he wants to do that to you, he doesn't deserve you."

Bri grips my hand tighter, "Yeah and if I ever see him again I'll beat the shit out of him!"

"You know what?" Chelsea grunts. "I'm going to text Liam and tell him to tell Niall that he is an asshat and to not bother you." I pass the phone back to her so she can do just that and she starts tapping at her screen feverishly.

That sounds like a great idea, I do not want to face Niall... I lift my head up to look at my friends, "Thanks guys." I sniffle, there are tears in my eyes but I blink them away. I don't want to cry because of him...

We sit like this for a few minutes while listening to Chelsea text on her phone. Only a few moments after Chelsea is done texting my phone then starts to vibrate on my bed, we all stare at it like its a bomb about to explode. Oh shit, that might be Niall... I shift my weight forward onto my knees about to get my phone, "Don't answer it!" Chelsea demands me, "It might be him! Make him wait!"

"But..." I sigh and plop back down on my butt. "You're right, I do not want to talk to him right now." The girls look at each other with concerned looks then back towards my bed. It stops vibrating, then it starts again, he's definitely trying to call me. He tries calling a couple more times with some texts added in as well, but he finally gives up all together. Good, that's the end of it then...

We sit in silence except for the pitter patter of the rain hitting the window, great my mood reflects the weather now... "Hey, since it's miserable out lets watch a movie!" Suggests Theresa.

"Yes, that sounds like a great idea!" Says Bri, "Oh and eat ice cream!"

Chelsea's face lights up and sits up, "Hells yes to all! What do you say J?"

I look back at my friends who are still sitting around me and they look at me expectantly, a movie would take my mind off of this BS. As I stand up they all join me, "There's nothing else I would rather do, at this moment, right now. I would love to watch a movie with you guys!"

"Yay!" They all cheer and give me a group hug. A twang of sadness hits me, I didn't think things would end like this with Niall and I but I guess it's for the best because it wasn't going to last long anyway. I was starting to really like him too.

Since it's late, and we are not going anywhere tonight, we change into our pajamas and cozy up in some blankets ready to watch the movie. Theresa is the last one to finish getting ready, so she stands by the door and crosses her arms squinting at us. "Since you guys are already comfy, I'll go get the ice cream downstairs." I nod at her, "Get me vanilla please!" I call after her.

"Yes, I know Jordyn." Theresa laughs as she's walking out the door and locks it behind her. I'm all nice and comfy when, crap I gotta pee.
but I don't want to move... I watch Chelsea and Bri, who are sitting on the floor, choose a movie on Netflix. "Goddamnit." I grumble as I get up from the couch not able to ignore my bladder any longer.

I check my phone as I walk to the bathroom. There's about 20 notifications from Niall, and I don't bother to look at any of them, it would just upset me more... I stand in front of the mirror and look at my emotionless, slightly sunburned face, and sigh loudly, why do I have feelings for him? I'm such an idiot! I bury my face in my hands. This is not what I wanted on this trip.

Once I'm done I exit the bathroom and throw my phone on my bed and sit back on the couch next to Bri while Chelsea is sitting on the floor setting up the tv, "Did you guys pick a movie yet?" I ask.

Chelsea turns her head back to me and says, "Yes, we are going to watch 'The Avengers'." My favorite movie by the way! I love action movies. She eyes Brianna quickly then back to me and smiles.

Chelsea, Brianna and Theresa aren't really into these kinds of movies as much as I am... So they must have chose this to cheer me up?

I shrug, "Awesome!" I dont question this because I know this is going to be a once in a lifetime thing. So I zip my lips and smile back at her pulling up my blanket.

Theresa finally returns with our ice cream in a large bag. "Ice Cream!" The three of us cheer at her. Theresa hands us our individual pints of ice cream then her and Chelsea cuddle up with us on the couch. This is a really comfy couch, I could almost fall asleep here.

Once we get comfortable Chelsea starts the movie. As the movie plays on, the picture of Niall with the other girl starts to fade away to the back of my mind...

July 31st

I wake up on the couch curled up against the arm of the couch. I lift my head to look out the window, Ow! My neck! and it's light outside which means I slept here all night. I must of fell asleep during the movie sometime... I then glance around the room at my friends resting in their beds.

My heart doesn't hurt as much as it did yesterday, who am I kidding it's not. But I can't think about him anymore. Well at least things can go back to normal now.

I stumble back to my bed to grab my phone and check the time it's 9:29, also my phones below 2o% so I plug it in and leave it on the desk to charge.

After we got back from the beach yesterday we voted to go again today since we didn't get much time in the sun. Everyone has nice tans while little old me only turned from a porcelain to an ivory. Yeah, I'm the snowflake of the group... Just like Niall. Ughhhh.

I yawn into my hand and stretch out my sore neck, then head to the bathroom to shower before the girls get up.

I'm still in the bathroom drying my hair with a towel when I hear the secret knock, then some shuffling and the door opening. "What are you doing here?!" Whoa... It's Chelsea screaming at someone. That can't be Theresa or Brianna she's screaming at but who else knows our secret knock? "Please Chelsea let me see her, I have to talk to Jordyn." I hear Niall's voice muffled through the walls. Oh. Shit. It's Niall. Can I just hide in here?

I poke my head out the bathroom, Brianna is watching Niall at the door. She is absolutely furious, she gets up and strides towards Niall like an angry bull. Oh crap! I step out in front of her before she can beat the shit out of him. I put my hands up in front of her, "Don't beat him up. I'll talk to him."

Chelsea looks back at me, not moving from the doorway. "Are you sure?" She asks almost shocked. I look down at my knotted hands and shrug, "Yeah, I think so." I actually really don't know, but I want to hear Niall's side of the story. You can't just believe everything the internet says. Although that picture is pretty convincing.

I take a deep breath and look up at him. She is still blocking the doorway from Niall but he hears me and leans to the side to see me. Niall looks like he'd just been running for an hour straight. He looks like shit.

"Hi." He quietly says to me. I step closer to Chelsea and put my hand on her arm so she can put it down. I don't dare look into his eyes, "Why are you here?" I question him crossing my arms in defense.

"You didn't answer your phone." He says quietly.

"Why are you here." I scold him through gritted teeth.

He shoves his hands in his pockets, "That picture... whatever words are going around none of it is true, you have to know that. The girl thought it would be funny to pose like that and her kiss... it- it caught me off guard... It didn't mean anything Jordyn I swear."

Tears start pooling in my eyes. Should I believe him? I want to but at the same time I just want to end it right here because I know there will be more drama down the road with him.

Niall sees that I'm about to cry so he slowly reaches his hand up to my face. I quickly stop him with a shake of my head and lean away. My act of defiance hurts him, he drops his hand to his side and stares right in my eyes.

Niall's POV

Shit I have messed this up bad. Jordyn looked so angry but now I think she's on the verge of crying. "I'm so sorry Jordyn." She hugs herself tighter and her chin starts shaking but she bites her bottom lip to stop it from quivering. To hide her face from me she looks down shaking her head more, her brunette hair is covering her face so I can't see it. No no no, please I need to talk to you Jordyn.

"I think you should go." Brianna says from behind them.

"Come walk with me so we can talk." I say ignoring her friend, Jordyn peeks up at me but doesn't respond. "Please?" I beg. My heart is pounding in my chest. I want to fix this. I can't lose her. God I never wanted this to happen.

Jordyn frowns in my direction, "Let me go change and then we can talk." She says softly, not meeting my eyes.

When Jordyn walks away, Chelsea stands in the doorway again, "You can wait out here." She growls at me and shuts the door in my face.

Jordyn is completely silent as we walk down the hallway and it's making me uncomfortable. "Say something please."

"I will once we are outside." She responds with a small voice. Jordyn is naturally a quiet person but this is not natural...

When we get to the entrance I open the door for her, she gives me a quick 'thanks' and steps outside. She's marching down the street a few feet from me already so I catch up beside her. It's a hot one today and because I ran here I'm all sweaty, but I can't think about that now. I need to fix things with Jordyn.

Where is she going? I continue to follow her, we turn down a street and I spot the ocean at the end of the road. I then realize that we are going to the beach.

I blow out a huff of air through my mouth. "So... Um.." she doesn't slow down at all and just keeps looking ahead of her. I sigh and scratch the top of my head. We continue walking in the beating sun until we reach a large wooden pier, she slows her pace but keeps walking past and she herds me to go underneath it. Now that we are sheltered from the sun and people Jordyn faces me.

She inhales through her nose and out through her mouth, looks in my eyes, then says, "Ok, explain." I'm about to open my mouth and tell her what happened when she puts up a finger and says.

"First, I just want you to know that I have been in a long distance relationship for 3 years and that was the hardest shit I have ever done. Now I need to know if this is going to go anywhere... Because..." she looks down at the sand and rocks on her feet. "Because I think I'm starting to have feelings for you."

Jordyn has feelings for me... If I was in a different situation right now I would've kissed her and told her that I do too but I don't because it's not the right moment.

Your POV

My heart is racing, it's all on the table now. I mean I thought it was apparent that he wanted to be somewhat serious since he asked me to visit him in London and spend a couple nights with him when we're in Ireland.

Niall runs a hand through his hair and looks at me, "I do want this to work Jordyn." He looks up to the pier we are standing under as if he can find the words up there.

I cross my arms frowning towards him and wait for him to continue. He looks back at me with his hands on his hips. "That picture is a misunderstanding, the girl was posing for a picture with me." Obviously... I know how his fans get.

I look down at my feet and kick at the dirt because I don't know what to say but Niall takes a step closer to me and continues.

"And she was trying to kiss me and I was trying to hold her back but next thing I know she's kissing me. And of course the person taking the photos didn't get that part... Just of us...kissing." He sighs frustrated. "I'm so sorry you had to see that Jordyn."

Ok. I exhale loudly through my nose, well I don't know what say. I'm just standing here in awkward silence looking at Niall so I just nod my head.

"I'm really starting to like you too Jordyn, and I promise you that that kind of thing will never happen again." He eyes me intensely, he's only a foot apart now. "I swear." He whispers.

My heart melts a bit at his words, he likes me back, it looks like he's serious too but I want to know for sure so I put up my pinky in the space between us. Niall looks at it funny then smirks, realizing what I'm trying to do. He lifts up his pinky as well and hooks it around mine.

"Promise." We say at the same time.

I know doing a pinky promise is childish but for me it solidifies promises. Right now his promise is official. We let our hands drop by our sides and Niall moves forward cautiously, is going to kiss me?

Instead he snakes his arms around my waist, buries his face in my neck and hugs me tightly. Aw, he really does give nice hugs. I slide my arms up around his neck and bury my face in the crook of his neck as he just did.

I feel safe in his arms, he's really warm too and, not to sound creepy, smells of a musky cologne and a little of sweat. Mm.

"Are you still mad at me?" He looks at me after our hug.

I peek up and shake my head slowly at him. I can't stay mad at him, it was an honest misunderstanding. But I better not see that shit again.

"No," I shake my head, "and we pinky promised so this better not happen again." I point my finger at him.

He raises his eyebrows and laughs. "No, it will never happen." He shifts his weight to the side. "Plus I never want to see you that mad ever again, especially at me!"

Thanks for the reads! Stay beautiful! xoxo