May 9th, 2022

I sighed, looking at the date, as I remembered how fast the days have went by. My school days, my childhood, some online friends and drama with a tragic ending (I like to exaggerate and you know it).

I remembered my WORST days - the days when I'd to deal with a lot of online creeps, and the same day, missing Adam a lot because he was nothing like these perverted old assholes, and at the same time missing my real life friends and school life. I was having a hard part of life, but I still lived through it somehow. That's life. There's so much to deal with that we can't even remember the happy stuff, so better get over the bad things and live on. Be confident in yourself and live like the person you are, just don't obsess over the negative stuff.

As you all might know already, school had been closed for two years due to the pandemic and I missed two important years of my school life, seventh and eighth grade. Now I'm a freshman, a ninth grader and a 14 year old girl who looks like she's twelve (Don't mind me, just roasting myself).

Our school had closed right on March 10th 2020 and now, it's going to open soon by June 1st, 2022. It felt like a very slow mode when it had been going on but now, it feels like two years had passed by like a breeze. In between that, I'd even went with my friends on a trip to Lunar mall yet again on April 1st 2022 (Yep, April fool's!), which we thoroughly enjoyed, since there were more people this time than the first time on March 10th 2021, when there were only six of us - me, Stella, Mia, Devyn, Sam and Anne, with Anne being the toxic friend who no one liked to add in the trip but we had to. However, this time, all of us were smart enough to not notify her about the upcoming trip and call only the nice friends in our group. So, this time, the additional members were Riley, Kadie, Eliza and Laxel, plus the members of last time, me, Sam, Devyn and Mia. Stella didn't come this time, since she had been a little busy.

I also went to another place with my whole family, which, on the other hand, sucked a lot because;

1) My mom got food poisoning.
2) Everyone got separated and at last, my parents and the other members had to go home separately, ruining the exciting mood.
3) That place we went to had the worst customer service ever. So rating out of 10 = 0

And then last but not least, the main part of this story - Adam, my 'Lol' friend, plus those other online donkeys (I mean the creeps, but why not call them donkeys? Oh but then again, donkeys are of a higher level than those low-life emotionless creatures!)

I checked Instagram everyday. But after losing Adam's friendship, I turned my whole attention and focus to Wattpad like I did before, writing my other stories like usual when I felt immensely bored or unhappy. Writing became my passion, my stress-reliever, but that doesn't mean that I do it only when I feel like it. Writing and listening to music are two of my favorite things now. Without these two, I felt like my life was nothing, and I spent no single day without them both, even if I was busy the whole day. When I listened to any friendship songs, I was reminded of Adam, but I slowly started to try to forget him and think of other things instead - like my school about to reopen, for example?

Everytime I checked Instagram, I waited for that 'one-message' symbol in the chats option, and if I ever got any, it turned out to be any other random people instead. It wasn't turning out according to my wish, nothing was happening!

My thoughts were this - why should I keep waiting for an arrogant idiot guy who blocks his friend without any proper reason? Why should I curse myself for asking him about his so-called 'crush'? Why should I miss him?

But at the same time, my optimistic side said the following; You miss him because he was a true friend while he was there. Because he defended you and spoke off a random messenger asking him about you, when it had been you the entire time.
Because he was probably the only guy you met on Instagram who spoke from his heart, spoke like a real friend.

Because of all these thoughts, I had initially made a plan with both Riley and Mia back at the time when Adam had blocked me:

My 14th birthday had been upcoming on December 13th 2021, and Adam knew that. He blocked me way before that.
So the thing is, if he unblocks me on that day, at least just to wish me, then it's proved, he still likes me as a friend and doesn't hold a grudge against me. I know, it sounds a little... senseless, but it all depended on my mood and my luck. A true friend would never forget to wish you on your birthday or miss it.

As expected, no message came from him on my birthday. No 'Happy birthday', no status. I had been initially unhappy, but my friends changed that for me using a lot of surprise online gifts.
1) They changed all of their WhatsApp, Instagram, and Google meet profile photos to a photo of me in my favourite dress. Google meet because we had online classes.
2) They all posted a status for me from about 12am - 7am time duration, with Stella and Riley posting right at 12. Of course, they were my best friends.
3) They spammed me... Yeah, of course it's a great surprise to get your chats spammed with 'Hello' a hundred times on your birthday.

After this, is when I truly realized one thing; we shouldn't keep waiting for people who don't consider us friends to wish us on our birthday, or even message us and instead, focus on our REAL, true friends.

Maybe - or maybe not,- Adam doesn't even consider me a friend. Maybe what he meant by calling me a 'friend' is that I'm just one random girl he knows somehow. That doesn't really make us friends, honestly, but that's not how I found him. He had planted a very admirable place in my mind, but maybe that's because most other online guys weren't nice and friendly, but either way, I wanted that freak to return! 

So my 14th birthday passed by without a single message from Adam, but even still, tons of happiness and enjoyment. And then January passed by like a breeze, so did February, March, and April, especially after our friends trip on April first and then me staying at my cousin's house for one whole week afterwards.

May came in next, and that's when the unexpected started happening.

1) You guys do know that I moved to my current school in fourth grade and I met my old school friends through Instagram, right?

But there was just this one friend who was so hard to find - Andy. He had been my best, BEST friend since first grade, and he had also been one of the nicest guys I'd ever seen in real life, because just like those online donkeys, some of my own real life guy classmates weren't really nice either. They weren't perverted though; just not nice. So, while I was able to meet all my other old friends through Instagram and even Wattpad, I couldn't find this guy at all. He was like the hardest to find.

But fate does like to surprise me sometimes.

One day, I got Andy's WhatsApp number from another guy friend (who didn't even remember me, for a fact), and the second I messaged him, he remembered me unlike all my other old guy friends, and then he chatted with me for hours. It was clear that he remembered me and our friendship very well, thus making me feel happier. The thing is, Andy was so interested in chatting; when I replied with long paragraphs, he replied to that in even bigger paragraphs unlike most people online. It was so fun to talk to him, and I felt worthy. He also motivated me a lot even from afar, telling me that I will definitely reach heights of success when I mentioned my storywriting hobby to him, and that I'm very talented and should keep writing. Even my own parents never encouraged me about that hobby of mine. His chats weren't just stupid, cheesy compliments though; he was wishing me luck from the depth of his heart, and he knows me from 1st grade, so he practically knew a lot about me that way too. He wrote a whole paragraph telling me this:

'See dude, you are super lucky and talented. Your life is going to be amazing, and I can see a great success in your life right now itself. And I'm sure you'll reach there and you have all the confidence for it. You can also get motivation from me 😂

Anyway, all the best dude :)'

The thing is - I felt like the best girl around him, and any guy who makes another person feel that way is surely the best guy ever that a girl can have as a friend (Highlighted it because I didn't want you all to think that he liked me romantically, he doesn't, I know him very well). He also called me 'dude' and I called him the same too, unlike other guy friends of mine who just called me by my real name in a real boring way. Hey, friends should always have some pal-names for each other, right?

However, I had lost his number days later due to changing my phone and losing all data expect my photos and videos, plus music. But fate played its role again; months later after the incident, Andy messaged me himself on May 1st, and we started chatting again. Sweet relief! I got back my guy best friend and personal motivator!

The next surprise was the most surprising one, though.

One that I never expected to happen, EVER AGAIN.

Adam unblocked me.

As I'd mentioned before, he had his username changed to Mr.crazy, and right after unblocking me, he liked the latest post of mine (which was me and my friends at Lunar mall). I was dumbstruck, and waiting for his message to appear: hi.

Nothing happened.

My dumbstruck reaction changed to being just dumb, because my expectation didn't happen. He unblocked me, yes, but there wasn't any message. Did I feel unhappy and happy at the same time, even after so many months? Yes. Did I feel like I deserved an apology or at least the reason why he blocked me? Yes.

Did I feel like hitting the shit out of the jerk for blocking a friend so randomly? Yes.

So, Adam, if you ever come across this story, I'm telling you - I am NEVER being your friend EVER again! (Also, just dump the two capitalized words in the trash, because you know very well I'm kidding).

Okay, maybe I'm too desperate, but that's what happens when friendship is too valuable to you. I'm the type of person who might stay calm if someone bashes me, but if they do to the same to my friends/family/Toffy, they've chosen death. They're my whole world, and if someone hurts my world, then that's it.

So, yes, everyone - my parents, Toffy, my friends Stella, Mia, Devyn, Riley, Sam, Amy, my guy friends Andy and Adam, were important to me in different ways. If they hurt me, I will either forgive them or just ignore them unlike my usual response, where I might lose my whole self-control. But if they get hurt, I'll be there for them, whatever happens to me. I'm only 14, I still have a lot to know and realize, but the world has changed a lot and I already know a lot. Today's kids are more smarter and well developed than before, so I do know how to deal with shit or even start shit, if needed.

Okay, now back to the unblocking session - Adam posted a status just minutes after he had unblocked me.

This definitely was NOT referring to me, whatsoever, because he just unblocked me. That isn't leaving me, that's returning to me, so by posting this status, he was definitely referring to someone else...

Nila...?

I nodded, it must be her. Who else can it be? 

Then again, if taken in this sense, it can be referring to me - he used to message me and chat with me before and then blocked me, then unblocked me but didn't message me this time. That can be taken as leaving me, can't it? He had a friend named Rose and he left her later, unblocking her but not messaging her ever again. But the thing is, when we take into consideration his poor skills of thinking and stupidity, he won't think that far unlike me, who's obviously an overthinker and loves to think on the bright side than the negative one. This status must be referring to Nila itself, that makes way more sense than it does if it's me, and maybe that's even why he unblocked me...because his crush left him. 

Even if it is me itself, I doubt the word 'love' in it, because he did say that he messaged me only as a friend and he didn't have a crush on me. He either considered me a mere distant friend online or a good friend, like I do. Whatever it is, he unblocked me and that's what matters. He can't unblock me just because he saw me out of nowhere or something, since that's not possible. He must have remembered me somehow, and maybe a breakup with Nila is what led to it?

Nope. Nope. Something else has definitely happened in between all of this, and I'm far from the truth of this mystery. So what does this exactly lead to? Nothing, or something? 

That's exactly why I've continued this mystery story and added a new part to it; because Adam unblocking me had only been a dream until now. It wasn't expected, and though it's only months later that he unblocked me, it feels like years and years.

So, here we go: Here starts the Part 2 of An online mystery with more to come, more to go through...