Sadness and despair, you think that life's not fair, all alone seeking a friend, just wishing the pain would end,

A smokey demon disguised as a hero, wraps its' tendrils around you whispering 'I'm here now,'

Just one puff, but it's not enough, you want more, something that will lift you from the floor,

White dust fills your nose, it's alright if no one knows,

You do more and more each day, your brain starts to decay, the pain is never gone for long, your remedies were wrong,

Now you're laying on the ground, not making a sound, needle and bottle in hand, you can't even stand,

The pain has dissipated, but what a mess you've created, alone you lay, as your life slowly slips away.

Lily

What happened to Benjamin?
A question I used to hear often,
I never knew what to say,
Usually I left it at 'He passed away,'
He was my only sibling,
I wish I knew what he was thinking, when he gave his life to a drug,
I couldn't even give him one last hug,

I opened his apartment door,
Found him cold on the dirty floor,
My eyes filled with tears,
A scream that would deafen any ears,
Spring out of me,
Then a sudden pain in my tummy,
Blood slipped down my thigh,
I cry out to the emptiness 'Why?'

Later sitting on a hospital bed,
Crying while I bled,
They said seeing him made my body go crazy,
Causing me to lose my baby,
It's ironic because the reason I was there,
Was to tell him about the child I was to bear.

Now I have no brother to scold,
and no child to hold,
The gun is like ice on my head,
I can't wait to be dead.

Mother
My babies have all gone away,
My heart is heavy on my last day,
Lily and Bennie,
I thought I loved them plenty,
I never got to say goodbye,
And now it's my turn to die,
My eyes fill with tears,
Like they have for the last two years,
They should both be here,
Helping me not to fear,
What lies in the darkness,
But I'm alone and childless,
I have so much regret,
I'm not ready yet,
As I watch my last sunrise,
My life flashes before my eyes,

Blonde curls bouncing,
A little boy pouncing,
We used to play pretend,
They never wanted it to end,
Butterfly kisses,
From a little princess,
A bear hug,
From a little bug,
Their lives were ended way too fast,
I didn't think I'd be last,
I take my last breath,
And there stands death,
I try to flee, death grabs ahold of me,
Dragging me to the blackness,
It wasn't supposed to be like this.