Dear diary,

              Sometimes things don't go the way we wished they would. I've been stuck all day trying to solve a simple maths problem and somehow I still didn't get it right :(
School today was still as boring as ever; Even as a geeky book loving and weird person I still don't get interested today, maybe because of my anxiety to be at home binge watching some Discovery channel.

Lucy says mom phoned again while I was at school saying she'll be back by next weekend, though I'm hoping it's earlier than that. I do miss her and sometimes I'm so lonely I think I'm better off dead. But still, it's just a thought you know; it's not like I could literally jump off the Empire State building or go swimming in Tiger Bay on a Sunday or something, but ......... aaaaah.

I'm thinking of going clubbing tomorrow with Gabbie and her other friends( which I totally know nothing about). She's been pestering me, saying that I'm too "Platant", whatever that means; I'm not really good at the friendship making department, so I'm hoping my shitty luck throws a light on me when I need it the most.

I've been thinking about my origins, mom hardly says anything helpful, especially when I bring up anything about dad.
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Ohh well, think I'mma stop here today .