POV MEW

I'm going to try Gulf one more time, because for the last three days, his cell phone's still out of reach.

--Damn! -I explode frustrated.

--Mew? -- I hear a call, it's Bua on the other side of the room who comes into the living room and tortures his hands --No news? -- he asks me.

- No... she turned off her phone. - - I answer with concern.

--He'll come back to you, I'm sure. Give him some time to think, while we're thinking about us, will you? -- he asks me.

--What do you mean? -- I look puzzled and only now I agree that she is restless.

--I need to talk to you...-- he says, still torturing his hands.

--Bua?! Are you okay? -- I'm starting to worry.

-Yes, no...-- she says confused.

--Okay, come here! -- I'll tell her to sit on the couch next to me --I'll listen. What's the problem? -- I'll ask her.

Well, between the two of us, it's always been the one that stops and reflects on what to do whenever a problem arises. It's weird for me to see her so nervous, I think sitting next to me.

--Whatever it is, I'll help you find a solution. -- I'll tell her by grabbing her hands and trying to calm her nerves.

- Mew, I'm just a little embarrassed to talk to you about it, but I have to. - He tells me with conviction.

--Is it Pon? -- I ask.

--Mm, I think I'm in love with him. That's what I said! -Sigh relieved.

- -Oh, Bua, I'm happy for you! What about him? Have you told him? - I ask her.

- No, he ran away this morning. - He whispers to me.

--You two have...-- I don't finish the sentence because her embarrassment is now also visible from the scarlet color of  face.

--Mew please!! -Screaming from the couch and going to lock yourself in the room. It is obvious that they spent the night together.

I'm glad she finally found love, but I hope Pon feels the same, I love her and I don't want her to suffer for unrequited love.

Better to go and talk to him too to understand his intentions.

I'm gonna go out and find him in the back of the house, and I'm gonna fix the garden, shirtless.

--Pon? You got a minute? -I'll call him and he'll come over and put his shirt on.

--Did something happen? -- he asks me alarmed.

-You tell me, did something happen while I was gone? -- I ask him to be as serious as possible.

Noticing his embarrassed face I can't keep a serious attitude; therefore, after giving a pat on his shoulder, I invite him to sit down.

--Let's sit down, I think we need to discuss what's happening to you. - - I propose calmly.

- Mew I... I'm sorry. - Try to deploy me.

--Pon, I'm not against it. But I don't want to see her suffer. So I'm just asking you not to play with her and her feelings. I've never seen her like this, so if you're not serious with her, stop now. -I'm saying firmly.

--Thank you for your frankness and allow me to be just as frank. What is or is not between us, only you and I will deal with. Yours is a special situation and I do not intend to create a tornado of scandals. I don't know by saying I don't feel anything, just that I'm careful. She is married and in the eyes of the world she would become an adulteress; I will not allow that to happen. --he says with a hint of concern.

--I will remedy this problem. - I say --But you must promise me that you will take care of her! I will not be able to do it anymore. I had already decided, before knowing that something had happened between you, to ask for a divorce from Bua.-- I conclude while I see Pon's perplexed look.

POV TUL

-Mew, believe me I don't know where he is! None of us can find him! -- I answer.

It's been five days since Gulf disappeared.

He texted us saying he was fine and he'd be back in a few days.

But now I start to worry and not only about him. Mew, these days, has officially filed for divorce from Bua for incompatibility of character. But we all know that he has finally begun to remember everything and that he wants to take back his happiness.

This choice does not surprise me, but it has been days that he has closed in on himself and does not want to see anyone. He barely eats and sleeps little. The headaches, due to the continuous flashbacks, have restarted with assiduous frequency. Now he knows if Gulf doesn't come back, he can't be with anyone but him.

Beep.

I grab the phone to read the message and I jump as soon as I read the sender. It's Gulf.

"I'm coming back. Don't tell Mew because I can't see him yet. I have to do something, but I need time. Try, if you can, to keep him busy these days." He writes to me.

I hope the thing. That it must be a surprise for him, otherwise Mew will be devastated.

"Gulf, there's news so get back to him ASAP. He's been looking for you for days, please give him a message because he's going crazy. Just to let him know that you're okay. Believe me when I tell you that we're worried about him." he answers with a simple 'OK, I will'.

POV GULF

--Why do I keep running? -- I wonder like a fool as soon as I finish reading Tul's message. That I missed Mew so much is a fact, as is my love for him. And he felt the same thing since he called me 40 times these days, left 10 voicemails and 120 on line. Which I've only seen and read now that I've turned my phone back on.

After answering Tul, I start packing because I'm going back to town tonight.

In these five days I have reflected a lot on our love and on how to go on; sincerely I have not found any solution. But I realized I can't live without him anymore, so I have to come back.

This time, in fact, I will not allow my fears to push us away.

If I have to fight everything and everyone, I'm willing to do it.

Tul asked me to send a message to Mew, because everyone's worried about him. And then he mentioned something new, but who knows what he was talking about?

I lay in bed and open up Mew's chat room just as he notices I'm online.

"Gulf! Please let's talk." he writes to me along with a weeping emoticon.

"At least tell me you're okay..." he continues. " Tell me, please, where are you! I can reach you?!" I take courage and answer.

"I'm fine, I just need time to think about my feelings. Please give me that, because I promise you we'll talk when I get back."

"I love you and I don't want to lose you "  answers with more sad emoticons.

I close the chat and turn off the phone again.

I think I love you too.

It hurts me to know in these conditions, but I also have to think about how to get out of this triangle without losing it. Yes, because if on the one hand I want to be with him, on the other I don't intend to be the lover. I want to love him in the sunlight.

POV MEW

"I don't want to lose you."

That was the last thing I could tell him before his phone was out of range again.

I wish Gulf would answer my phone, tell him what's going on, the divorce from Bua, and if he doesn't come back, I'm gonna have a nervous breakdown.

Lying on the couch I grab the phone and send a message to Tul and Bright to ask them, once again, if they have news of Gulf.

-Mew, come and eat please. -- Bua asks me from the kitchen door.

For a few days I can not eat and sleep well. Bua decided to stay here with me until Gulf does not return. I understand you're worried about me, and that's why you and Pon are avoiding an outpouring in my presence, so as not to make it worse.

--I'll eat something later, because now I'm not very hungry. -- I say --I'm going for a walk in the garden. I need some air. -- I'll finish on the way out.

--Mew please! You can't keep this up! -- I hear them on the way out.

"I would love to see you Gulf, hug you and kiss you." I write to him, without getting an answer again.

I walk around the perimeter of the garden and I stop to contemplate the sunset. If I could just talk to him, I'm sure I could show him how strong our love is now. I don't even remember if I ever confessed.

I sit on the grass as the sun starts to set. I don't look away even when I hear someone walking towards me.

- Well, I told you, I'm not hungry, I'll eat something later! - I whisper.

I feel the presence behind me and a very familiar scent runs through my nostrils.

- I must have gone mad if I now smell her perfume... Gulf...- I whisper to myself.

--Too bad you're not hungry because I brought the sandwiches you like so much!! -- whispers the person behind me to my ear.

-GULF! -