Dove's POV

Twilight!

*gasp*

My eyes flung open as I immediately got up from where I was sleeping. Tumbling backward as my body had a hard time balancing.

"Dove, lay down," I heard Mammon say as he pushed me to lie down on the bed. "You need to rest."

"Mammon... where is Twilight?" I asked.

It was a dream, right? It was just a bad dream I know. Like every other nightmare of mine, Twilight's death was just a bad dream.

"Your body is weak, you were knocked out for a week. You need proper rest, Dove," Mammon spoke.

"I asked you something, didn't I?!" I raised my voice. "I asked, where is Twilight?!"

I heard Mammon taking in a deep breath as he shook his head. There was sorrow in his eyes as he looked at me with pity.

"Vinter asked me not to tell you this, but you are leaving me with no choice, Dove," he spoke.

"Twilight Harris is no more-"

I started laughing hysterically. My tears won't stop flowing. Mammon's eyes widened.

I let out a shrill scream as I dragged my nails on my cheeks. Mammon tried to push my hands away from my face, I could feel blood dripping down my cheeks.

"You are hurting yourself!" Mammon yelled. I could only reply with chuckles.

"This pain is nothing compared to what I'm feeling in here, Aries!" I screamed laughing and pointing at my heart.

Mammon wrapped his arms around me. I struggled to free myself but his hold only got tighter.

"You can cry it all out," he whispered. "I'm here for you. I will always be here for you whenever you are at your worst."

"Let go!" My screams got muffled.

"Hush!" He slowly made me sit on the bed.

Twilight Harris left me alone in this world. Cursed me to live without him, why? What did I ever do to him?

Is this cause I loved another man when I had a soulmate? It's not even his fault! It was my fault that I loved him! Why does he have to die?! Why am I not dead? It should be me...

It should be me

I should have died

Why am I not dead

Kill me

Kill me

Death

I want death to devour me

I want death to embrace me

Death

Death

Death

Something snapped inside me as I pushed Mammon away.

"Water..." my voice sounded hoarse.

"I'll bring you some," Mammon spoke as he got up and left the room to bring me some water.

"Idiot," I mumbled.

I left the room making sure that I don't get caught by anyone. I was still in the hospital. I suppose I was admitted immediately after I passed out.

Passed out...

Twilight is dead and I don't see a point in continuing this life. I have no motivation to keep living anymore. I feel so empty and there is a huge hole where my heart is supposed to be.

I feel nothing...

Everything feels so numb. I could barely feel myself.

I couldn't walk straight, I have no energy to walk. I stumbled now and then as I hurried my way up to the rooftop.

"All your sufferings will end soon, Dove Stanley," I mumbled.

I opened the door of the rooftop as my eyes fell on the bright blue sky ahead.

"Freedom," I pointed ahead.

I made my way toward the parapet and climbed up. Balancing myself up there I looked down at the ground.

"Everything looks like trash from up here," I spoke.

"I finally get to live my longest-awaited dream."

"I finally get to commit suicide."

"Doesn't feel like a very good day to die," someone spoke from beside me. I gasped as I stepped back almost falling when I saw Vinter standing beside me. He caught my wrist before I could fall.

"Careful, won't want my soulmate to die before me," he spoke.

"Vin-Vinter," I stuttered.

"What are you doing here?"

"I'm here for the same reason as you," he replied.

"What?" I asked.

"I'm here to commit double suicide with you, my dear soulmate," he spoke.

His face had no emotion, not even a single one. This is not the Vinter I know. He is giving me the same energy as Lucifer. He feels intimidating. So intimidating.

"Why?" I asked.

"Why, you ask? Isn't it obvious, if you will die a part of me will permanently die and I will have lifelong suffering? After losing Twilight, I can't lose myself too," he said.

"You are stupid," I mumbled.

He grabbed my chin harshly and made me look at him.

"I'm stupid? You are the selfish idiot here, Dove. You want to die and give me permanent suffering, what did I ever do to you?!" He hissed in anger.

"What do you even know about my suffering, Vinter? I lost my lover-"

"And I lost my fucking brother and father! That brother for whom I gave my all to protect my entire life. Your suffering is no greater than mine, Dove Stanley. But unlike you, I'm willing to keep living so you don't suffer from the pain of losing your soul!" He yelled.

"You think that losing Twilight is what makes you want to commit suicide, but I know you so damn well. You just wanted a reason to die because you are a bloody coward," he chuckled devilishly. "Don't play your stupid mind games with me you, selfish bitch!"

My eyes widened in horror, I have never seen Vinter behave like this.

"I don't want you to die," I mumbled.

"So now you care," he mocked.

"Why are you being an asshole to me?" I sobbed.

"I am sorry," he mumbled as he pulled me in his arms. "Let's get you down from here."

He helped me down from the parapet but as soon as we did that, my legs gave out. Vinter held my waist tightly before I could hit the ground.

"You need to eat," he spoke. "I don't know how you managed to get up here without any energy."

He picked me up bridal style as I buried my face in his chest.

"Take me to Twilight first," I grumbled.

"After you eat something, I will," he said.

I know it's taking a lot of strength for him to not cry and mourn over his brother's death right now. It has only been a week, I have no idea how Vinter handled everything alone.

"I'm sorry, Vinter," I cried.

"I am so sorry. I ruined your life and family-"

"Shut up, none of it was your fault. And if you want to blame yourself, then I'm equally to be blamed as well," he spoke.

When we reached the room where I was admitted, I saw a furious Mammon approaching us. I buried my face in Vinter's chest again.

"You fooled me again, brat," Mammon said.

"It's okay, Aries. I knew where she was going to go, don't worry about it," Vinter spoke as he placed me on my bed. Mammon sighed.

"I'll go get you something to eat," Vinter spoke.

Mammon took a seat near my bed as he took my hands in his.

"Look I know I can't comfort you as Levy does, but we are here for you. Especially Vinter, he called me as soon as you showed no sign of waking up. You gave him hard time," he said.

"What did I do?" I asked. He shook his head.

"Ask him yourself," he replied.

Did I go lunatic again? I hurt Vinter physically, didn't I?

I keep hurting people who love me the most. Do I even deserve to live?

Why did I not die instead of Twilight?

Vinter entered the room with my food in his hands. He placed the plate down in front of me and sat on my bed.

"I'll leave you two alone," Mammon said as he disappeared from the room. I looked at the food and then at Vinter.

I saw Vinter's hands wrapped in bandages. I could feel my heart filling up with guilt.

"Did I hurt you?" I asked pointing at the bandages. He covered his arms up immediately.

"This is nothing," he spoke as he picked up a fork and cut a piece of food item with it. He stabbed the food with the fork and brought it toward my mouth.

"What did I do?" I asked. I pulled my face away from the food. "Reply or else I won't eat."

He sighed.

"You... you stabbed me with a pen. It's nothing bad and you were not conscious-"

"Can you arrange a room for me in the mental asylum, Vinter?" I asked. He looked at me shocked.

"No! Why would-"

"I'm dangerous. People either get hurt when they are around me or they die-"

"You are staying with me whether you like it or not. I'm not sending you anywhere. I will live with you and I will die with you," Vinter spoke as he shoved the food in my mouth.

I took his hands in mine as I brought them to my face. His hands immediately reached out to hold my cheeks. I could feel the warmth of his palm as I let out a deep sigh.

My eyes softened when I saw the expression on his face. This man has lost enough and I don't want to take more from him. I need redemption and if staying with him is a part of my path of redemption, I'm ready to do that.
I silently ate the food as he helped me eat.

~~~

I got discharged from the hospital and now here I'm in the car on my way to see my dead boyfriend. After a week, I couldn't meet him one last time, I couldn't attend his funeral. I couldn't do anything for him.

I pressed my knees to my chest as I coiled up in one side of the car. I can't cry anymore, or maybe my body was still trying to process everything that has happened.

Vinter stopped the car in front of the cemetery as he looked at me.

"Will you be able to go on your own?" He asked. "I don't want to disturb your private moment with Twilight."

I nodded as I opened the door.

"Will you be here?" I asked. He gave me a small nod.

"I'll be right here," he spoke.

As soon as I got my reassurance I stepped out of the car and went inside the cemetery. I could feel my body shivering with anxiety.

Death is equal to all.

All the people here are buried in the same manner. Six feet deep inside the ground. Rich or poor they are all the same in the eyes of death.

My eyes fell on a tombstone and my breath hitched. I slowly walked toward it as my breathing becomes heavier.

I read his name inscribed on it in bold.

Twilight Harris.

My legs gave out as I fell on my knees in front of his tombstone. I could feel a scream erupt from within me as tears uncontrollably fell from my eyes.

My chest ached as I could feel myself hyperventilating.

"No!"

"No!"

"No!"

"No!"

"No!"

"No!"

"Twilight! No!"

"Come back to me, bunny!" I screamed.

"I love you so much! I promise I will never try to commit suicide! I will become a better person! Just come back to me! I will protect you with my life!" I uncontrollably sobbed as I buried my face in the ground.

"What do I do to switch places with you, Twilight?" I asked.

What difference will it even make even if I switch places with him? We will still be worlds apart. We were never meant to be, were we?

I heard footsteps approaching me as someone placed a bouquet near Twilight's grave. I wiped my tears as I looked at the person.

"Satan?" I asked.

"I was expecting you to be here," Satan spoke. He looked at me with pity.

"I'm sorry for your loss," he said patting my head.

"Are you here to take revenge since I betrayed your leader?" I asked.

"Quite contrary actually," he spoke. "I'm here to tell you the entire truth. But I don't want to ruin your time of mourning, so I will come back some other time."

He was about to leave but I caught his hand.

"No, tell me," I mumbled.

He helped me stand up and we walked to the bench nearby.

"Take a seat," he gestured for me to sit.

I sat on the bench as he sat beside me. He inhaled sharply as he looked at me.

"You must be thinking that you betrayed Lucifer," he spoke.

"But Lucifer was always aware of the fact that he was going to get betrayed by you or by Leviathan sooner or later," Satan spoke. My eyes widened.

"He wanted you to betray him. He created the circumstances that led you to betray him."

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"He made Leviathan keep an eye on Harris's family, so you two will stay in touch. He knew that Snow White would approach Leviathan and you will find out the truth eventually. He believed in your sense of justice, he knew you would do anything to protect Leviathan and other sins once when you will find out that Lucifer is the only one to be blamed while the other sins were just his pawns."

"You teamed up with Snow White and in return, you asked him to leave Leviathan, Belphegor, and Mammon alone. He planned to keep the rest of the sins safe including you. He planned to carry all the burden of the crime alone."

"But why?" I asked.

Why would a monster like Lucifer make such a big sacrifice?

"He loves us," Satan sighed. "He loves us too much."

"But if he planned all this. He could have easily escaped-"

"He knew if he did anything like that, you would face the consequences of it. There is no way he would let you suffer, after all, you-"

Satan abruptly stopped talking. I looked at him in confusion.

"What happened?" I asked.

He shook his head.

"Here," he handed me a letter. "It's from Lucifer. He wrote it the day before he got arrested and told me to give it to you when everything has ended."

Satan got up from the bench.

"Where will you go now?" I asked.

"I will make a plan to get my leader out of the prison," he spoke. "I don't care what you all think of Lucifer, you all never truly understood him. I pledged to follow him till my death and I will do so."

"He's still a murderer," I spoke. "Nothing will change that."

Satan chuckled.

"You have no idea, Dove," he spoke as he walked away.

What is that supposed to mean? Am I missing something? Does Satan know about Lucifer's past?

I stared blankly at the letter in my hand as my head was filled with a hurricane of thoughts.

♤♤♤

Ahh! Well! Did you cry?

"In the back of my mind
You died
And I didn't even cry
No, not a single tear
And I'm sick of waiting patiently for someone that won't even arrive."

~Romantic Homicide by d4vd