Anika pov

Suddenly shivaay kept the laptop aside.

" Khanna what you are doing here at this time. "

" Sir how are you now?? "

" Seriously khanna you came to ask   at this time when you should rest when you yourself is injured. "

" How can I sir. When because of me you got shot. It's my duty to protect you. But you are the one who came in between when they are aiming me. And everyone think I am the one who saved you. "  I was shocked to the core after hearing this. He himself take the bullet to save khanna bhaiya.

" Khanna you saved me because of you only I reached the hospital. And about this thing you are not going to tell anyone. "

" But sir "

" Khanna no. And you also know what you have to do now. I need that person in front of me you have 48 hrs. Do you get that. And increase  security around Anika no way I can let her harm because of me. They know about Anika I don't  want any harm to her and family. Do you get that. "  I think shivaay thought that call is cut or else he didn't said this. And I never going to know about this.

It's like some one throw the cold water on my face. How can I think of shivaay like this. When I know how selfless he became when it's came to his family. He didn't show that he cares but he makes sure that everyone around him are happy and safe.

Here I am scolding him behaving so rudely when he need someone to understand him.

He is facing trouble because someone is targeting me. It is his dream project and i am becoming hindrance in his path. I never wanted that because of me shivaay had to face problem.
Am I becoming his weakness when I want to become his strength.

" Yes sir I will make sure. Thank you once again sir. Take care. "

Before he gets to know that i heard his conversation I cut the call.

I starred the night sky resting my back against the wall.  At this moment I just wanted to be with shivaay. I wanna scold him more,  I wanted to hug him. Tell him what I am feeling. How much it's hurts to see him like this. And I wanna scream this.

First time when I met shivaay first time I saw him, his eyes. That moment I felt something which I never felt for anyone. The way his eyes were looking at me made mine heart skip a beat.

The way he had put his views, his expectations there I knew he was the man I wanna spent my whole life with. From that time I saw him putting efforts in our relationship. His cares, his gestures everything is enough to feel me out of the world.

Even though he was so busy. He came Delhi to surprise me on my birthday. He did what I asked him to. The memories that we made together. In this trip only when I get chance to be with him. He did everything to make me happy. Even forgetting his comforts , his priorities. From taking care of me to make me comfortable. He was there with me when I needed him the most. His believe, trust on me only made me strong. The time we had spend together , the memories  we made is treasure for me which I am going to keep with myself only.

But the moment when I heard that he got shot had consumed a fear in me. The fear which I am unable to get rid of. The fear of losing you Shivaay.

The pain is unbearable for me when I didn't get a single news about you shivaay. It was difficult for me to even breathe I was feeling so suffocating.

This intense feeling shivaay what are they. Why I am feeling like this to see you hurt. This fear of losing you.
This numbness.

And it hit me. That now my heart is not mine anymore it's your Shivaay. This fear, restlessness I am feeling because now this heart is with you.
If this is not love. Then I don't know what love is. Yes I fall for him. I love Shivaay.

I wipe the tears which I tried to stop but they are not. Shivaay image of sleeping. His face his pain everything is rotating in front of me again and again.

I take my phone from the table and called him because I don't have strength to face him.

"Hello" Came his gentle voice.

" Shivaay.. I... I" I tried but struggling to form a sentence.

" Anika what happened you are still crying Anika listen?? "

" I am sorry Shivaay "

" Why are you saying sorry Anika?? "

"I am sorry for behaving like this. I didn't meant to hurt you."  I wiped my tears.

" Anika.. " I cut him in between.

" No shivaay it's just that I was very scared since the time I heard the news. I just can't control myself and went out all my frustration on you."

" I understand it's okay. "

" No shivaay it's not okay. Nothing is not okay. "

" I just can't get rid of this feeling. I am trying, the more I try it's getting suffocating. I am feeling miserable. " More tears starts pouring in.

" You remembered what I said to you at airport??"

" What??? "

" You will not cry Anika. And you know I don't like it. And specially when I am not their to wipe them."

" Tell me one thing I am expecting the truth from you. "

"There is no need to be scared. You have believe on me."

" Yes "

" Then stop worrying I will  set everything. "

" Stop crying you literally making me freak out here. Now sleep peacefully it's already a very exhausting day. "

This man God.

" You didn't taken the medicine yet? "

" I was going to take them then khanna came so i had to cut the call. "

" Khanna bhaiya how is he. Gauri is telling me that he also get injured. "

"He is also fine Anika. Stop worrying yourself. I am taking my medicines and sleeping so  you also sleep will talk tomorrow good night. "

" Good night "

I don't know I should be happy or not. Happy that shivaay is fine. I realize my feelings. Or sad with this negative thoughts which are not leaving.

I cut the call. I will talk with khanna bhaiya tomorrow. I kept the phone aside on table. Such a hectic day it was both emotionally and physically.

I change my clothes and came back. When I find Manav message.

" Bhabhi don't worry about Shivaay I will look after him. "

He is in chandigarh for the conference. I replied to him.

" I know you will "

Next morning,

I wake up with a jerk. I looked around signed that was the very bad dream which I saw.  I see the time on my phone God  I am going to late for office.

I hurriedly complete the morning chores and come down to get my lunch.

" Maa papa left for airport "

" Yes did you talk to shivaay how is he??? "

" Yes maa he is fine now. Need to take rest for few days. "

" Thank god I will call him today"

" Sure maa and give him some advice to take rest. "

"Why?? "

" He is not going to rest maa you don't know him. He can't live without his work for a hour. "

" Sure any other complaint against my son in law "

" I have so many but don't have time. I will get late so going byy. "

" At least have breakfast "

" No maa i will take something in canteen getting late?? "

I put my things at backseat. Settling myself I started driving. I called khanna bhaiya.

" Good morning mam "

" Good morning khanna bhaiya and how many time I have to tell you don't call me mam. "

" But mam.. "

" Again mam first tell me how are you?? "

" I am fine. "

" Good to know khanna bhaiya I personally want to thank you for yesterday. "

"There is no need mam. That was my duty which I fail to do"

" No khanna bhaiya you didn't fail. I know the truth bhaiya because of you only shivaay reached the hospital. "

" You know " His voice held surprise.

" Yes I know also that you increased security around me. Until one car used to come behind me now I can see three. "

" But how do you know?? "

" I know khanna bhaiya. I just want one thing from you. "

" What?? "

" That you will be there with shivaay always whenever he go outside. If he deny then also. "

" I will mam. I promise you. "

" Okay take care of yourself also. "

After bidding bye I cut the call. I reached the office and find Bhavya in parking lot. She came and hugged me.

" How is Jiju?? "

" He is fine bhavya. "

" Why you didn't go to Mumbai with uncle "

" From today my notice period is starting if you are forgetting "

I can't take holidays in notice period.Then I had the meeting with hr and manager. I apologize to them for yesterday as without informing them I left. I start to resume my work but my mind was elsewhere.

Then I get his call. And I was expecting this.

" Anika this is not done why the  hell you did this. " Came his irritated voice. I can imagine him sulking.

" Because that only the way left. As I told you earlier I will make sure you are not going to any work. "

" First I am taking rest. Second I am fine. Third ask this idiot to go from here. "

" He is not going anywhere and for God shake shivaay he is doctor and your best friend."

" See bhabhi only know my value" Came Manav voice.

Manav told me that he is returning back to Mumbai. And he has day off. So I requested him to go OM and make sure he can't do any work. And he agreed happily.

" Don't you have your house Manav. "

" Yes I have "

" Then go their stop being so annoying. "

These two again started.

" You both can continue. I am in office will talk later. Have food and medicine on time shivaay. Byyy "

" Byyy "

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Here is the next update. I really wanted to know your views and please avoid one word comments. A lot is going on in my life. One thing wanna just have patience this story is going slow I know but their is reason behind that you will get to know in upcoming chapters. Will wait for your comments.

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