I walk around helplessly in my quarters and let different scenarios go through my head.
In one, the confession is good to Peter, but not so in the other.
Slowly I run through my hair, sit on the bed and look at my phone. I'm watching an old video from Ned, Peter and me. We had a movie night and laughed, pelted each other with popcorn, talked about that the happenings were physically not possible and argued about who had the best weapons. My favorite was the man with the machete.

That was the time when everything was easy.
Spend time with friends.
Easy.
School.
Easy.
Only finding friends was always hard.
When I was younger I only had Blake, he was my best friend. But then he was gone.

On my way to training, I think about it and come to the decision that I have to find the right time to tell him. I realize that it is not fair to him.
But now I'm just not able to do that.

"What is going on today? You're always so fast", says Spider-Man mockingly, after he defeated me.
I just ignore it and sit down.
"What, no farther stupid saying?", he asks.
"Just leave me alone, please", I just say and look straight ahead.

Peter's Pov.

What is wrong with her?
Is she a bad loser, or what?
"Everyone can lose", I say. But I realize that this isn't the reason when she looks at me.
She seems desperate.
But why?
"What's going on?", I ask, this time not joking and sit next to her.
"Nothing", she says. I don't stop asking until she finally decides to have a normal conversation with me.
"It's difficult to talk to a friend about a secret, do you know that feeling when you're keeping something from someone, you want to tell him, but you don't dare.
Do you know that?", She asks.
Of course I know that, I'm Spider-Man!
Only Ned, Aunt May and the Avengers know that. Not even Amanda did.
I keep this secret, even though she's my best friend. I'm afraid she might hate me.
"I'm sure you know that, you're a superhero, I doubt you'll tell anyone who you are," she says softly.

"Well, just try to find the courage, he'll understand, everyone has secrets", I say. I hope that helps. Although I don't like her, I still don't want to see her sad.
"Thanks for the conversation, you were really helpful", she says thankfully.
"As if I wasn't always. After all, I'm the friendly neighborhood Spider-Man", I say proudly.
"The geeky spider from the neighborhood is more likely to hit it",  she says cheekily. I just start laughing and then I'm on my way to Tony.

Amanda's Pov.

I see him leaving and then go. The conversation with him really helped me. After dinner, I will look for Peter to talk to him about it.

A few hours later

Somehow excited and sure now, I walk through the corridors, looking for Peter. I won't put it off anymore. I left the mask in the room, I don't need it anymore.

It takes a while for me to finally hear his voice from one of the rooms.
I take another deep breath and then knock on the door.
As the steps approach, my heart begins to beat faster again.
But when the door opens, my breath stops. Peter wears Spider-Man's costume and looks at me shocked.
"Amanda, w-what are you doing here?", he asks.
I just turn around and leave. He follows me,
"Amanda please let me explain, since when are you actually here?", he asks confused, whereupon I quickly turn to him. He's startled, because my eyes are glowing again. Now it must be clear to him.
"I've been here all the time", I say and disappear in the next moment.

At a corner I stop, because the tears make it difficult for me to breathe.
Peter is Spider-Man!
How could I be so stupid and not notice that?

Peter's Pov.

Amanda was there all the time. No wonder Speedy reminded me so much of her. Now she knows who Spider-Man really is. And I thought it was Tony.
What do I do now?