"We're traveling to Minnesota!"

I stop walking immediately.

Why would we do that? Is that some kind of an Aprils fool? Wait, no – it's still October.

"Why?"

"Keira, really? Alyenis High, the-"

"Oh, right.", I say. "I was just joking!"

I was so not joking.

Sometimes I think my brain isn't made for supporting me. It's just ... something that is blocking my head.

"Is there anyone you wanna say goodbye to?"

"Nope."

"We're leaving tomorrow."

"Ehm ... what do I have to take with me?", I ask excited. "I mean, how long are we going to stay there?"

"Well ... I called Mrs Erlingham, and told her that we live pretty far away. And, well: You can stay there."

I can feel my eyes widen in shock. 

What the hell is that supposed to mean? I'll stay at some High school in Minnesota?

Do I have to sleep in the dirty hallways or what?

"How's that supposed to work?"

"A few chosen students get the opportunity to actually live there, like in a boarding school."
"I don't wanna go to a boarding school, I just-"

"I know, and it's probably not for long. But, like for a week or so we test, if you fit in there. That way we don't have to travel back again and again. You just stay-"

"What if it doesn't go good? What if it's terrible there and this Mrs Erlingham doesn't want me in her High school?!"
"She offered you a stipend! How bad could it possibly go?"

I sit down on the couch, which is standing next to me. This thing is standing right here since I can think.

Always the same green couch with the ugly pattern at the right sight.

"You're scared."

"Maybe.", I say silently.

"A lot of things are going to change. But you know what?"

"What?"

"You're not leaving something good behind. Three high schools, Keira. Maybe it's time to try something new."

"Maybe."

"Look: I know you live since fifteen years now, Keira. You're a strong girl. And now it's time for you to show that again."

"I guess that's true."
"Well, I don't guess it! I KNOW it sweetheart!"

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So here I am. Packing my stuff.

I'm not panicking about the new school, that stuff isn't really new for me.

Instead of freaking out I'm just asking myself, if I should pack my purple lamp with the stars.

The rooms there are probably very boring, so I might need a bit of color and some home feelings – on the other hand: I don't even like that lamp.

Am I happy?

Actually I'm just asking myself, why it's always me. 

Three times.

Three times some weird fire stuff, three times getting kicked out of the school. 

WHY?!

I mean, I know there's something wrong with me, and this "thing" is the reason for everything. Let's just say I have a talent for getting in trouble and being the "person-who's-done-it". Maybe it's my face?

Am I looking dangerous? I'm starting to frown, when I remember how I look.

But, no, that can't be it.

I'm still one of those shy-looking girls.

I just hope that some day I will figure out, what all of this is about. Because otherwise I'll probably ... you know what? That's enough honest thinking for today.