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Chapter 18

Autumn’s P.O.V.

“Cupcake.” Someone whispered. Something warm but sweet landed on my jaw but I couldn’t wake up. I didn’t want to wake up. What ever was happening was feeling good. 

“Cupcake wake up…” like silk trailed off as the warm but sweet feeling trailed down to my neck.  I had the energy to groan but it came out as a moan. 

There was a laugh before someone else’s hand covered over mine the warm but sweet feeling was at my ear. “ I know you are awake Autumn”. Instantly I knew who the person was. It was Nathan and he was causing me to feel like this.

My eyes slowly opened and I was correct. He was hovering over me, sattling my legs. His hazel eyes were a little darker then usually but they were still shining as he starred into my eyes. His brown hair was messed up proving he just got of bed. “Nathan.” I stated unable to say anything else.

“Shh” he said coming down and kissing my shoulder, slowly pulling my bra strap and spaghetti strap. With his other hand he moved the straps away from my other shoulder. I didn’t do anything to stop him, I didn’t even try.  I bit down on my lip to keep in the moan that wanted to come out. Closing my eyes I let him take control of my body but quickly I snapped out of it when his hands started making there way under my shirt.

I pushed him away and hopped off the bed. Getting myself as far away as possible from him. He looked at me confused but slowly his confused look turned into a angry look and for the first time ever his eyes turned black and I mean completely black. 

 A pure black that could only mean one thing. What have I got myself into!

He got up and slowly walked over to me. His black eyes staying the same. I took another step back until my back hit the wall. I looked over at the bathroom door thinking I could make a run for it but Nathan’s voice boomed throw my ears. 

“Don’t even think about!” he was right in front of me and had both hands on the side of my head. “Nathan”. 

“”Why are you trying to run away from me!” he said coldly his black eyes looking straight through me and into my soul. 

“I’m not running away from you.” I whispered.

“I thought you like it when I touched you.” He said taking his left hand and running it on the side of my body. “ I thought I made you feel different.” He said looking down at my body making me shiver. 

 A smirk was on his face but his eyes were still black and cold. “Tell me you don’t like it.” He said.

I couldn’t lie to him but I couldn’t say anything, from the way he was running his hand up and down my body. “Stop” I managed to say. 

“I don’t think you really want me to stop now do you?” he asked me.

“Yes, I do want you to stop.” I said.

“Bullshit!” he yelled punching a hole in the wall right near my head. I closed my eyes thinking that he was going to hit me but it never came.

“You know that you want me as much as I want you. Your in denial and we both know it.” He paused bring his hand to my face before saying. “ I was never going to hit you and I never will. I love you too much to hurt you.” And with that he moved away from me and out to the door. Slamming the door behind him. 

What was that about? I asked myself. But before I could over think it I grabbed my stuff and went into the bathroom locking the door behind me just in case he tries to come in. 

If he really wants to come into the bathroom he could probably break the lock but just in case I still locked the door.

If I wasn’t scared of Nathan, then now I was scared of him more now than ever. If he did hit me would he regret it? He problely won’t cause I would probably deserve it. I leaned against the door and until my butt hit the ground.

I let the scene play over and over in my head and shook my head not liking the ending. Tears started running out my eyes. Maybe he just wants to get in my pants because what I admitted to yesterday. But that’s not the Nathan I love and know-----.

Nathan’s P.O.V.

 I can’t believe what I’ve just done! I’m such an idiot, now she’s scared of me and think I would hit her! Shit! What’s happening to me and why now. I’m so out of control. Is it because what she admitted last night about the letter?

I don’t think it is. It’s something else that’s bothering me and making me like this, it’s my wolf. Usually it’s so easy to control it but now it feel like it’s getting stronger when I’m round Autumn.

Autumn---- she’s probably crying her eyes out in the hotel room thanks to me. It’s all my fault, I couldn’t resist her. 

When I woke up she was cuddled up in my chest and her expose legs looks so sexy and smooth. I could help but to touch her and kiss her where my mark will soon be.

But then that’s when I got out of control---- I didn’t stop until I practically made her cry. I know Seth would of killed my ass right on the spot if he were here. 

Even though we’re buddy, buddy know I think that he would come all the way here to kick my ass still but he knows that I love his sister and he’ll probably understand that I didn’t mean to make her upset. 

I ran my hands through my hair. I miss home but I would rather be here with Autumn. Home is where she is and that’s never going to change want I mark and mate with her. My hormones are running so high now I don’t think I would be able to keep from marking and mating with her. 

We have four more days and five more nights here and I don’t think I would be able to hold out that long. But I am--- we’re here for a reason that I don’t want to mueachen right now. 

Plus, Cole’s words to me were DON’T EVEN THINK OF MATING HER. He told me to keep those thoughts out of my mind until we’re back home but I can’t help it. I keep thinking of so many ways to----- uhg! I really have to stop thinking like this.

I pulled out my phone to see what time it was. It was a little past 10. I looked around the pool but no one was there. I dialed the first person I knew I could talk to about this situation and would actually take this seriously. 

The phone rand twice before he picked up. “ Hello?” he asked.

“ Seth, it’s Nathan” I told him causing him to laugh. “ I know that idiot. You know I do have called I.D..” I sighed maybe I shouldn’t have called him.

“ What’s wrong with Autumn?” he asked in a serious tone. Wait----how did he know? “ I didn’t say anything yet how do you know if Autumn in trouble of not?” I asked him.

He seemed to be in thought before saying “ I had a feeling. SO what’s wrong?” he asked again. Here we go….. “ Autumn scared of me because I’m an idiot.” I told him.

He laughed at what I said and I couldn’t help but to crack a smile. “ You know Nathan, there are a lot of things you could do to make yourself an idiot…. What exactly did you do?” he asked with humor in his voice. 

Maybe calling him was anthoner idotoic choose of mine. “ Now your not going to tell me huh? Well if I find out from Autumn and it’s not good---your dead pup.” he said flatly. I starred out into space. “This guy has a mental problem.” 

“Hahaha I’m just kidding. Now tell me what you did.” See, he really do have a mental issue. 

Ok, how do I put this? “ Well, I made her cry.”

“ When?”

“This morning---”

“So--”

“ I left her in the hotel room.” 

“ Nathan shut up for a minute and tell me what exactly happened and from the beginning. No crappy answers either or else I will just call her in hopes to make it worse.” Is this guy drunk?

That’s when I decided to tell Seth everything starting from the beginning. “ Last night she confessed that everything in the letter she wrote me was true and I don’t know what happened to me. I already know that it was true but I liked hearing it from her now mouth that it was true.”

“ Keep going.” he said when I stopped. 

Here comes that part that Seth is going to yell at me for. “ This morning I work up and couldn’t help myself to touch her and kiss her. She woke up but didn’t stop what I was doing so I guess my wolf took total control of my body.” “ She pushed me away and I kind of got mad and yelled at her. I punched the wall near her head but my attention was never to hurt her.” “ I left the room to cool off but---I just don’t know what got over me.” I admited. 

It was quiet on the other line giving me the thought that Seth hung up the phone. Their was a heavy sigh on the other end. “ I’m not happy to hear that you scared her but it was bond to happened sooner or later.”

I sat down in the closet beach chair that was by the pool and ran my hands through my hair. “ What are you trying to say?” I asked. 

“ I’m saying you should try to control yourself more.” Seth spoke but funny part was that their was no anger in his voice at all. “ I know and I’ll try to do that but it’s just hard now for some reason. Ever since she confessed I kept on having fantasies about her. Not that I didn’t have fantasies about her before but now it’s worse.”

Seth started laughing on the other end of the phone. At first it was kind of like giggling but then it turned into a loud full blown out laugh. You see why I think this guy is mental. 

“ I’m glad you find my problems so amusing.” I told him. Calling him wasn’t really much of a help.

“ Your in heat baby wolf.” he laughed. Once he finally stopped laughing I was finally able to understand the words that he said. ‘Heat?’ he said something about that while we were at the hospital--- ‘ I’m surprised you were able to control yourself around her for this long.’-----something along those line. 

I groaned. That’s just what I need! To be in heat at a time where I can’t mark or mate her or else I’ll be messing up our whole plan. “ Why you sound so down?” Seth asked. “ It’s not that bad.” he said but you know he meant that sarcastically.

“ How do I make it stop?”

“ Nathan you can’t just make it stop, it’s either you wait a couple of days so it’ll fad away or you either mark and mate her. I can’t believe I’m saying this but why don’t you just mark and mate her.” I’m glad to have Seth support on mating her but Cupcake wasn’t ready for that yet. 

“ I can’t mate with her because Cole gave me these special pills on hid my scent. Since Autumn isn’t marked or mated her would scent is just faint that the Vampires in this area wouldn’t notice. If I mark and mate her then my scent will rub off of her and their only enough pills so that my scent could be hidden for the last five days here.”

“ Well that’s going to hurt, especially since it’s begin your first time in heat it’s going to last longer then any other.” “ thanks for helping me Seth.” he laughed at me again before saying. “ You are so going to mate and mark her before you guys come home.” 

A smirk pulled it’s way onto my lips. “ You don’t think I can control myself for the rest of the week?” I asked and he laughed before saying. “ That’s exactly what I think.” 

“ Alright we’ll see.” I told him, I’m up to his challenge. “ Alight Nathan I got to go pick up Marissa I’ll talk to you later.” 

“ Alright, bye.” 

“ Wait! One more thing.” he said. “ What is it?”

“ Don’t forget to use a condom, I don‘t want you bring my sister back home pregnant.” he said and the line went dead. He really has no faith in me, well we’ll see who wins this little bet.  

Autumn P.O.V.

The room door opened reviling Nathan in an all new alfit and his brown hair slightly wet. “ Where have you been?” I asked him. He didn’t look at me as he walked into the room and sat on the edge of the bed.

“Out.” he said bluntly. 

I climbed over the sheets and pillow and sat on the bed next to him. Yes I’m still scared of him but he’s my best friend. I don’t care that I cried in the shower for an hour straight, I love him to much to stay mad at him. 

Right when I sat next to him. He got off the bed and went over to his suitcase and started digging through it.  

“ Nathan.” he didn’t answer me. Why is he ignoring me? I felt tears prickling at the rim of my eyes putting my head down I let my tears run down my cheeks and into my lap. I bet he hates me now and it’s all my fault!

I was acting stupid this morning! He sighed heavily before walking over to me and wrapping his arms around me for a hug. Pulling me put he rocked me back and forth while I tried and making the tears stop. 

“I’m sorry Cupcake.” Nathan said kissing my forehead and rubbing soothing circles on my back. “ I should of never----” but I cut him off. I hd to let this out because I’ve been holding this in for far to long. 

“ I’m sorry. This morning I lied to you. I like that feeling I get when you touch me and I love the fact that you make me feel different. You make me feel like I’m special and I love you so much that I’m afraid of losing you.” he looked down at me with a twinkle of joy in his eyes. “ I had these feeling for you for years, probably when we first meet but I didn’t know it then. Just please don’t be mad at me. I love you!” I whispered the ending feeling my throat close in on itself.

Nathan wiped the tears from my eyes before smiling and saying. “ I could never be mad at you for something outside of your control. It was my fault completely. Even if it were your fault I still can’t stay mad at you. I love you to much to do that to you Autumn.” his word made my heart flutter and the tears of sadness to turn into tears of joy. 

A small smile made it’s way onto my face as he held me tighter in his arms. He glanced down at my lips and my heart started beating faster then it already was. Leaning downwards he keep glancing from my lips to my eyes so that I could away at any second. 

I smiled before moving up and then our lips meet. His lips were so soft and he didn’t kiss me roughly. He kissed me showing me all the passion and desire he had for me. Wrapping my arms around his neck I did the same. This is my best second kiss ever. Yes second kiss and it’s with the guy I love and he love me right back. 

Someone cleared their throat and I quickly pulled away from Nathan. I thought the room door was closed. Nathan looked at the room door annoyed. 

“ I’m sorry to intrude on such a moment but I don’t want to see anything farther from you two kissing.” Cole said leaning against the door frame with his arms crossed over his chest starring at Nathan. 

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