Song of the chapter; "This Love" By Taylor Swift.

Katniss's POV;

We wake early, draped in each other's comforting arms. I peel myself from him and take a hot shower. Halfway through I hear a soft knock on the bathroom wall. "Hello?" I smile.

"I need a shower." He tells me.

"So do I that's why I'm showering." I say holding in a laugh. He's standing on the other side of the curtain now, I can hear his breathing over the roaring water. It sends electricity through my body, and then i remember Peeta's here.

"I need a shower." He says again.

"So go to Haymitch's" I reply. I peel back the curtain and find his face inches from mine, and with a little more inspection I find he's naked. "Peeta Mellark!" I shriek covering my eyes. "What are you doing?"

"I need a shower." He repeats for the third and final time. I close my eyes and shake my head, and then suddenly we are in the same shower.

I cover my body the best I can, I remember he's already seen me naked; but that doesn't make this any more uncomfortable. "I slipped?" He says with a questioning tone in his voice.

"Yeah, I'm sure." I grumble pulling back the curtain to get our of the shower.

"Hey, where are you going?" He asks softly.

"I'm apparently done now." I say irritably. I can't even take a shower around here.

"Why not?"

"I don't feel comfortable being naked around you." I confess. This makes him laugh.

"Katniss we've had sex! We have a kid together! I've seen your body!" He says with a striking smile.

"Exactly, we've had a baby. My body's changed a lot. I look ugly, and I'm fat." The words rattle of my tongue, I say and speak them so often.

"Hey! Stop that." He orders. "You are none of those things. Do you hear me Katniss? You are the nod beautiful person on the plant and your not fat. Your a twig!" He says taking my wrists in his large hands.

Him doing this exposes my entire body, I can't help the tears that fall down my cheeks but they do. "You really are scared..." He whispers looking at his feet.

"Yeah." I nod and this time he lets me leave the shower. I know I shouldn't be nervous or embarrassed but it's hard to.

"I didn't really need a shower anyways." He mumbles turning the water off and stepping out. As he's drying off I steal a peek at him in the mirror. Toned check, back, and shoulder with scars that mark his body. My fault I think to myself. You should have eaten those berries and died. I push those thoughts from my mind, they come so regularly now. "Do you still want to go to the meadow?" He asks me.

"Of course." I nod and press an innocent kiss to his cheek. I dress quickly, and then waddle downstairs to pack a picnic. My can hear Peeta and Willow talking upstairs and he's getting her dressed. I smile, I have one big happy family finally.

They come downstairs, Willow with her hair in a braid like mine, she's wearing a beautiful sun dress.

"Look mommy!" She squeals throwing her arms to the side and spinning in a circle. I laugh and pat her head softly.

"Mommy will be right back, I have to get dressed too." I say.

"Daddy helped me, maybe he can help you too!" She exclaims with a loud laugh, I look at Peeta and my face drops. I walk past him to the stairs and he stops me.

"I'll carry you, okay?" He asks kindly.

"Sure." He carries me up the stairs and sets me down on the bed. "I'll come down by myself okay?"

"Yeah." He presses a kiss to my temple and leaves me alone to change.

I think about the meadow, my meadow. The place Gale and I used to hold sacred to our hearts. The place where you go and all your stresses, and problems disappear and all your left with is peace. The place my sister is buried.

I dig through my closet, and sigh when I've found the dress. She's seen it once, after my first games when I was discovering my 'talent.' It's one of the dresses I 'made' she and mother were the only ones that knew about me not doing the work.

She always asked to see me wear it, but I always denied. 'It wasn't my thing' or 'I don't wear dresses.' Or excuses like that, I believe she just wanted to see me wear a beautiful dress for Peeta. Somehow she knew we'd fall in love.

I lay it on the bed to admire it. Lace is wrapped around the entire thing. It's white, with a beautiful tint, I put it on, and look at myself in the mirror. Scars. I stuff extra clothes and a swim suit in a bag, and then braid my hair and finally start downstairs. I throw the bag on the table, where are Willow and Peeta?

I turn around and find him, he's staring at me slack-jawed. "Katnis..." He whispers coming close to me fast. "You look ... My god you look stunning." He caresses my cheek with his big hand.

"Thanks." I feel the blood rush to my cheeks producing a deep red blush. "You look really handsome." I nod; head wearing khaki cargo shorts and a light blue collared shirt.

"Thanks." He presses a kiss to my lips, and I place my hand on his side. "Are you sure you sure you can walk all the way there? I don't want you hurting yourself." He asks with concern.

"We're leaving for the Capitol again tomorrow, I need to relax." I say.

"Your leaving for the capitol." He says.

"No Peeta, your coming with me." I say as I lift the basket and my bag. "We can talk about it later."

Willow appears again and gasps. "Mommy!" She starts. "You look like a princess." She says with a toothy grin. "I wish I looked like you." She mutters.

"No, I wish I looked like you little duck." I widen my eyes when I say it. No one but my mother knows about the conversation, so both of them look at me strange. "I'm, I'm sorry. Let's just go." I stutter

The meadow is calm, well it was until our daughter saw the pond. That's where her and Peeta are currently playing. Both of them in the shallow end, splashing each other and laughing. My lift couldn't get any better.

I duck behind a tree to change into my bathing suit and run to the pond laughing, I jump into the deepest end. Peeta looks scared probably thinking it's not deep enough; but I've done this a million times before. With Gale.

I swim to them and take Peeta's hands in mine as we wade towards the deep water.

"What are you doing?" He asks.

"We're swimming." I giggle watching our daughter climb to the bank. His eyes look at me with fear and embarrassment. "Nothing to be scared of Peeta, I got you. I'm not going to let anything happen to you, okay?"

He nods unsurely. "Don't let me drown." His voice wavers, he looks like he could cry at any second.

"Hey we don't have to." I touch his face. His eyes waver to my body and I blush. "Do you want to stop?" I ask.

"No." He shakes his head. He takes another step closer to me and I smile proudly.

"Okay, watch." I turn and demonstrate how to swim on my stomach. "Now you try it" I say standing and brushing at off of me.

"Will you stand next to me?" He asks me, I nod and wade into the deep end holding onto his hands and looking into his perfect blue eyes.

"Lay down on your stomach." I place my hands our palms up, and he lays on my stomach. He looks at me. "Your okay." I smile. I look and see Willow is behaving playing with some flowers. "Now paddle like I showed you."

He starts to do that, and finally I let go of him and he swims a few feet then turns to me with a big smile. "I did it!" He smiles.

This is my Peeta, the happy, innocent, childlike one. Not the depressed, angry, and always sad one the Capitol is guilty for creating. He picks me up spinning me in the air and we come down with a splash. "I need to sit." I mutter, my ribs and foot starting to act up. I fall onto my butt purposely, and he follows me. We sit with our legs entangled, I look up at him and smile. "Your really handsome." I whisper, I earn a blush from him. 

"Come here.." He connects our lips, and I sigh into him. My hands stay on his chest, and we continue to kiss. When we finally break, he lifts me up and carries me to the blanket. He wraps a towel around me and then one around him.

We dry off, and he presses his chest to my back as we lay watching our daughter dance and play in the meadow. "I should go visit Prim." I whisper. "I'm going to take Willow, try and explain it to her. Do you want  to come with?" I ask.

"Yeah." He stands then helps me up and we walk towards Willow. "Sweetie, we're gonna go for a walk, come on."

Peeta lifts her onto his shoulders, and we take the short journey to her grave. Fresh flowers are there, I know I didn't bring them, I look at Peeta. "Hazel." He tells me. I nod and kneel beside her grave. Her headstone reads.

Primrose Everdeen.
Soldier, sister, daughter, fighter. 

I almost choke on the tears. "Mommy, what's this?" Her small voice asks.

"Do you remember those dress up clothes you tried to put on?" I whisper.

"Yes." She nods.

"This is where mommy's sister is." I tell her softly. How do you tell a three year old your sister is dead?

"Why is she in the ground?" She asks kneeling beside me, exactly like I am.

"Because mommy's sister died." I sob, and cover my face with my hands. Peeta is on my other side now, and my daughter on my right.

"Why don't you go pick flowers?" Peeta says to her and she skips away. He takes me into his arms, and I sob into his chest. "Come on, today was supported to be a happy day." He says jokingly. He rubs my back, as I make a large pool of tears on his chest.  "Your okay Katniss."

It takes fifteen more minuets to calm me down. He gives me a quick pec. "Good job."

"For what?" I ask hoarsely.

"That was a quick episode." He tells me, he smiles down at me proudly. "We better go find Willow." He says.

"We're terrible parents." I laugh and we walk towards our blanket.

"Willow." He father calls. "Wills, where are you honey?" He asks his voice and face growing with concern by the second. He looks at me. "WILLOW." He shouts, he takes off towards the pond. Checking to make sure she didn't fall in. "Katniss where is she?" He looks at me with tears in his eyes.

"Willow!" I scream, my voice shoots through the empty woods like a gunshot. I turn around quickly doing a 360, and stop dead when I see it.

Carved into the tree above our blanket is a letter.

M.

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Hey guys, So I'm so so so sorry about not updating yesterday or on time today. I usually write in my classes, but I got new classes & can't use my phone at all. So, I haven't had time to update.

When I do have time to write I'm writing me new story. Which for some reason isn't getting any reads. So I've got a proposition; if you have never read the story before and go vote on the chapters; I WILL GIVE EACH AND EVERYONE ONE OF YOU SHOUTOUTS IN A AUTHORS NOTE POSTED TOMORROW. (Lauren excluded cause no one liked Lauren. Jk she's the bomb for com) SO, if y'all could do that I would mean the world to Lauren & I. 

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