I woke up to a blinding light.

"You're awake!"

I turned to the source of the sound. I saw my mum. But that was it. I had no other family, just my mum and I.

"Did anyone.. Did anyone else visit me?" I asked hopefully. Mum's smile faltered.

"No.. no one else, sweetie, I'm sorry," Mum said gently. I didn't know why I was so disappointed by it. I had expected it. But at that moment, it dawned on me that I had no friends, no boyfriend, no one.

The only person I had was my mum, but even that wasn't enough sometimes.

"I'm going to inform the doctor that you're awake. Give me a moment, love," Mum smiled at me softly.

She left the room, leaving me alone with my thoughts.

I sat there, thinking about what I had done wrong. I slowly realised that I didn't do anything. Beth had planned this out with Charlotte and Ray since the first day of school.

They didn't even get to know me before doing this to me.

I remembered when Beth had acted weird with Ray. I was too oblivious to notice, too naive.

When Beth asked me about my date with Ray, her tone was filled with anticipation, as if she was waiting for me to mess up with Ray.

When I told her we were dating, Beth frowned and looked away, upset things didn't go the way she wanted it to. She had wanted me to chase after Ray like a helpless puppy, not date the guy she was into.

I knew I couldn't just blame it on Beth. Ray and Charlotte had been part of it too. I wasn't upset about Charlotte, I knew she was a horrible person.

But for the two closet people to me to do something like this.. I couldn't help but wonder why.

I started crying. I couldn't help it. I lost my best friend and my boyfriend.

I choked back a sob. That was where I went wrong. I didn't lose Beth or Ray.

I never had them in the first place.

"Why.. why me? What did I do?!" I thrashed and screamed, tears streaming down my face.

I cried and cried, leaving tear stains on my pillow, not caring if people could hear me. I screamed again, trying to let my emotions out.

My frustration, my anger, my sorrow, everything.

Mum rushed into the room.

"Honey, what's wrong?" Mum asked me, her voice laced with worry.

"Everything, Mum, everything is wrong. But most of all.. I miss her," I spoke between sobs. Mum hugged me tightly.

"I miss her too, Bianca, me too." Mum was crying now, too, but I couldn't hear her well.

Her voice sounded far away, and my vision turned blurry.

And just for a moment, I slipped away.