I was still smiling.Minho hyung reminds me of my mom alot.I really miss you mom.I know I shouldnt be smiling.Its my fault your gone.But I really cant help it that nickname has so many great memories to it.My only good memories.

I was standing in front of my house.I should stop smiling now.But I cant stop at all.I enter my house.I was gonna go up to my room before my dad interupted me.

"Why are you smiling little bitch?!"
"I..-"
"Your not allowed to be happy you worthless brat!"
"Da-"
"You arnt allowed to call me that!"

He grabbed me by my hair and threw me to the floor.He kept on punching me and kicking me.He kept on calling me worthless.Its all true though.

He left me after a good hour of beating.I slowly avenged myself and went to my room.I opened my drawer and took my best friend out.My best friend is very sharp.Its shiny.Its helped me through 9 years of my life.My bestfriend is a blade.

I slit my wrist once.Then twice.I kept going.I slit my wrist 10 times more.The blade fell from my hand on to the floor.I lifted my hands up the blood was dripping down my wrist.I felt satisfaction.

You deserved all this Jisung.I got a notification from Minho hyung I take my phone to open it up.My broken screen had blood all over it dripping from my wrist.

Minho hyung💞

Minho hyung💞:Hey Sungie I was wondering if you got home savely.

You:Yes hyung thank you for asking.

Minho hyung💞:Your welcome well goodnight then.

You:Goodnight.

I was in pain but talking to Minho hyung made me feel better.I closed my phone and decided of doing something I never did.Bandage my wounds.