jimin and i decided to spend the weekend at his house and play our favorite video games.

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and i'm losing badly at mario cart.

very badly.

but then i get a rocket bomb and blast jimin's yoshi off the course and it sends my toadette flying into first place.

jimin whines no fair! as i win.

haha! i said in victory and stuck my tongue out at him as jimin sighed in annoyance.

then, all of a sudden, he roars and his fingers come flying to my side, tickling me senseless.

i laugh and laugh, trying to push jimin's hands away when he gets closer to me.

i realize that jimin is really close to me and freeze.

he does too.

we blink, and slowly widen the space between us.

jimin clears his throat.

so... i was wondering if you'd like to come to the first basketball game. jimin said as the tv screen showed a large toadette accompanied by a number one.

i looked at the tv screen, and could feel his eyes on me.

of course i would! i've been going all these years, why wouldn't i go to see my best friend play his first game? i said, and turned my head to see him nod. jimin seemed a bit down...

when is it? i asked.

next friday at seven. jimin says as i nod.

ok. i'll definitely be there.

we then began to play another game of mario cart.

and after an hour or so, i went back home.

i wonder what jimin thought when i called him my best friend.

i mean he is, but... i need to know if... he feels the same.

i really don't want to ruin our many years of friendship.

jimin was the first friend i really ever had.

the one who knows all my likes and dislikes, my fears, my pet peeves, and all my secrets.

but not this one.

i can't let him know about this or else all our friendship is going to be gone.

i'm so conflicted.

i want our friendship to last, but should i risk it?

it's been seven years since i've liked him.

and eleven years of friendship before that.

with my pajamas on, i laid like a star fish on my bed after dinner and a bath.

i hear jimin calling me from my window.

i get up, and lean on the ledge.

hey there soo. jimin said as i nodded.

hey chim chim. i smiled back softly.

we talk about random things, and we start talking and laughing away.

i could feel my face flushed and heart beating fast.

i could also feel my cheeks hurting from laughing at the funny faces we're making at each other.

as we settle down and bid each other a good night, i lie in bed in the same star position, smiling and feeling happy.

that's it.

i'm going to tell jimin this friday.

i'm finally going to get this off of my chest and will accept his response, whatever it is.

i will prepare myself, i have to.

i'm going to risk everything.

and i have to be okay with both of his answers.