i feel like crap.

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i caught a bad cold yesterday, and my parents made me stay home.

all i did this morning was eat, sleep, and watch tv.

my chest felt heavy, my throat was dry, and my body was like lead weights.

i felt really cold too.

maybe i have a fever...

anyways, i was sleeping.

i think i fell asleep after getting up to use the bathroom around one pm.

and when i felt warm hands on my head, i stirred.

omma? i croaked.

oh, i sound so horrible.

i turned around, blinking hard and rubbing my eyes since i couldn't see clearly.

wait what? why is he here?

what're you doing here? 

silence.

he touches my forehead and sighs.

he gets a towel from the cabinet and moments later, a cool towel is spread across my forehead.

you're burning. jimin says quietly as he kneels down to look at me with sad eyes.

go away. i said.

no. he replied.

i said go away! i shot up, sitting.

i'm not going to. you're in terrible condition—

you were the one that— that... you told me to go away. and—and i told you that i hated you. don't you understand? everything hurts so much. i don't want you here.

but i do. i'm not going to do anything or go away from you soo. i paid the price already. losing you, fighting with you, look at the state you're in!

i thought you didn't care. now leave me alone!

no. jimin says, grabbing my hand. do you remember the time in eighth grade? when i liked hye ji?

ya! why are you talking about her—

do you remember?

i nodded.

eighth grade was also a bad time (but not as bad as this).

well, you said that a girl says the opposite of what she really wants, and that girls are weird since they do that.

i nod again. jimin had asked me why hye ji was ignoring him, or said i don't like you to him when she really did.

anyways, they're weren't serious and broke up after a week.

so i know that you really don't hate me. you don't really want me to leave, you don't want me to be with dohee. jimin held my arm, looking like this: (￣^￣)

i had already began crying.

jimin tugs at my shirt and pulls me forward, one hand pats my back and the other hugs me.

honestly, i really don't know what happened soo. i was looking for you after the game since you weren't there. i asked dohee, and all of a sudden, she brings a whole bunch of people and they said to say yes to be her boyfriend.

i stayed quiet as we still hugged.

i felt pressured to say yes in front of the crowd. but i told dohee herself that i wouldn't. she said to just be friends and i agreed to that. and that's when i heard that jungkook was courting you and was trying to be your friend since i was gone. and then... i got jealous of him and this happened.

we were silent for a bit.

i'm so sorry soo. i shouldn't have gotten mad at you. i shouldn't have left you alone. it's my fault. jimin sniffed, and i knew that he was crying.

jimin rarely cries.

i thought it was my fault that you left me since i made you mad. i thought you weren't my best friend anymore.

jimin lets go of the hug and hold my shoulders with both hands.

i missed you so much. i cried as jimin nods, tears falling down as well.

i did too. i missed you a lot soo.

and here we were.

red puffy eyes and runny noses.

we caught a glimpse of each other, and like always, we began to laugh.

jimin's warm finger wipes away my tears as my small hands wipe away his.

i reach to hug him once more.

my best friend is back.

ヽ(；▽；)ノ

i'm so sorry soo.

it's ok chim chim. i'm sorry too.

i forgive you.

me too.

so... are you and jungkook umm... are you two?

hmm?

are you and jungkook still friends or...

we're just friends. don't worry. you're my only best friend. i smiled.

does he still like you? jimin asked nervously.

mmm... i think so? but... i don't like him. a-anyways, what about you and... dohee?

i don't like her either. we're just friends.

i don't really like her... but wait, weren't you two dating?

no. i told her that i just wanted to be friends. she decided to court me too.

what? i thought— the people were saying 'say yes' and then she kissed you and you smiled...

jimin shook his head. and when did you think i'd date a girl like dohee? she's not my type.

i-i don't know. i-i just thought you two were a couple. you guys looked the part...

so that's why you called her my girlfriend. don't worry, as far as i know, i'm not interested in anyone at the moment...

i nodded. a silence falls.

you were crying that weekend... jimin says as i looked at his eyes and then away.

i was upset when i saw you two. and then when i thought that you two were dating, i realized that i didn't want to take away your happiness. i was selfish. i wanted you all to myself, my only best friend. i thought you chose her, so...

so you were jealous. jimin grinned as i hit his arm.

i-i thought you left me for her at first. i stammered.

i'd never, although i did break that. but i'll choose you, soo. no matter what.

you're such a terrible person jimin.

i know i am. love you too jisoo.

i hug jimin once again, but then i feel dizzy.

i began to groan and cough.

ok, ok. you need to lie down now. i'll make you something to eat. make sure you just lie down and rest ok?

ok. i said as jimin gave me some water to drink before he gently lie me down on my bed.

he puts the towel on my forehead, and pats my head.

wait for me, ok?

ok.

i fall asleep...

and woke up when jimin called for me that food was ready.

he made some tasty porridge.

he props me on my bed and slowly feeds me until the whole bowl is gone.

he also sings, which makes me calm.

omma comes home and she thanks jimin for popping by to take care of me.

she also mentions that jimin and i haven't been visiting each other for a while.

we say that it's alright now, because it really is.

before jimin leaves, he leaves the homework from today and promises to get the ones from tomorrow.

i thank him.

he softly rubs my head, smoothing my hair in the process.

i hope you get better soo. we have a lot to catch up on, so you have to get better, ok?

ok chim chim.

annyeong. he paused, looking conflicted. then, he pecks my cheek.

his lips were so soft that i almost didn't feel them.

annyeong. i say, looking away from him.

as jimin leaves, my eyes focus on the picture frame of us, where we put an arm around each other's necks when we were 10.

what's happening, jimin?

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ugh... i don't want to do homework... and my heart isn't working right again.

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