kang dohee is getting on my nerves these days.

(-᷅_-᷄ ;)

she's our classmate that sits behind jimin in class.

dohee's very popular in school.

many boys like her since she's pretty, and she has many friends.

and of course, she likes my best friend jimin.

with last friday still replaying in my mind, i've actually decided not to talk to jimin.

that way i won't get too upset.

it's even worse now that dohee's always talking to jimin and is by his side.

we don't talk like we used to do.

it's always dohee that jimin listens to now.

even when i'm talking, jimin cuts me off and make me feel like the shy and anti-social person i once was.

i used to not talk very much when i was younger since i was shy and quiet, and that i'd let other people talk over me.

but not jimin.

he always lets me talk, even if he had something to say.

i was so shocked that i stopped bothering.

jungkook, on the other hand, was sweet and knew what was going on.

he also frequently asked me if i was ok, even though he knew the answer.

he'd help me and talk to me during lunch, which i was thankful for.

although he'd also occasionally present romantic things like little letters, flowers, and my favorite foods, i still saw jungkook as a friend.

even if i don't see him in a way that i see jimin, i'm thankful for a friend like jungkook.

on another note, i'm not sure, but... jimin seems to always know when i've cried.

doesn't matter if it's the night before or days ago, but he always seems to know somehow.

he asked me why i looked so sad on monday, and i shook it off.

jimin's asked me countless times to tell him what was wrong, but i ignore him.

and we got into a fight yesterday because of that.

when jimin and i were walking home, he asked me what was wrong again.

and like the other two times he's asked me, i said that nothing was wrong.

you didn't even come to see me on friday. where were you? jimin asked.

omma called. she told me to come home.

you could've at least told me!

i don't think i need to when you're happy and have someone else to celebrate things with.

what are you saying? celebrating something? i have nothing to celebrate—

don't you have someone else to pay attention to besides me? why don't you talk to your girlfriend or something? i'm sure she's more important than i am since you left me for her. just... leave me alone park jimin.

i said his name. omo, i said his name. i never say his full name.

you know what ahn jisoo? fine. i'll go and talk to dohee if you want me to so badly! jimin yelled the last part. he never says my full name either. and with deep breaths and instant tears, i yelled back at him.

fine! you go and do that and leave me alone!

don't worry, i will! it seems that jungkook's always there for you, so why don't you go to your new best friend then?

i hate you. i whispered and turned to look at him, and began to ran.

i still couldn't forget the face he made yesterday.

that angry face melted into something like shock, sadness, and guilt just seemed to haunt my mind.

and now in class, it's awkward for us to talk or do anything since we're seat mates.

but i didn't know that because of the fight, we'd slowly and slowly drift apart from each other as time passed.

(ㅠーㅠ )