I feel like I'm drowning. Like I'm drowning and i can see everyone else around me breathing. It feels like I'm invisible, like no one can see me or hear me screaming for help. Soon i will run out of air. Then it will be to late for anyone to save me. Maybe i will take my last breath today, maybe next week, next month, next year. No one when and neither do i really all i know is I'm drowning and at this very moment i cant swim. I Dont even have enough air anymore to scream for help anymore. Im sinking to fast to deep. Everything is dark and cold. No one else is down here im just all alone. Wondering why no one has noticed anything is wrong why no one can hear my screams or see my struggle. So i just do what i do best Pretend. If i pretend I'm happy and smile when I'm close to tears, i wont be upset when i scream and no one hears me i wont have to worry about them understanding anymore. Then one day will come when i cant even force a smile. The tears will fall and i will take my last breathe before i completely drown. No one will ever understand. This is all you will never know.