Chapter 33 - All Too Well

I can't sleep straight for two nights – I'm having dreams of our flashbacks and inside of that fantasy I can't even imagine that he was gone – until I could gain back my consciousness as mom waking me up for the reason that I'm weeping in the middle of the night.

They were worried too much about me, knowing maybe I'm terminally ill and about the sudden death of my boyfriend.

“We should see your doctor today – eat and get prepared.” mom told, while we are having our breakfast, she can't look at me straight as I know she was so afraid, dad smiled, raising the bread so I can take one.

“I already have my prescription and medicines mom. I should be back next month.” she had insisted me to undergo another check-up after I confessed my condition.

“We shouldn't be worried about me – we need to keep ourselves prepared just in case I'll die.” I sighed and forked the omelet and spooned some rice – the three of them froze and a second of silence arose.

“Kris! – ” Carly thudded her hands on the table and irritated.

“You're not helping.” she continued.

“You're not going anywhere Kris.” mom's shaking, I could see in her face the same reaction from Romeo's mother at the hospital – I feel guilty opening up that topic.

“It doesn't mean that when you are sick – you're going to die – No.” she explained, dad snatched mom's hand, rubbing it and the expression on his face stable like everything will be fine.

“You must help yourself to be physically and mentally fit – don't ever think of things that will only make you feel stress and anxious.” her voice tearing while Carly looking down on her plate and probably lost her appetite. “It is difficult for you losing Romeo and also for us, he was like a member of the family and we loved him.”

“But please Kris, don't ever give up – because we couldn't stand losing our beloved son too.” and tears began spilling.

“In the past days, I can't enable to blame myself for his death – If only I have told him my condition, maybe he never went on that trip and stayed by my side.” their stunning eyes encircling the family's table on what I've had shared, mom wiped her tears and I continued, “And I haven't told it for the reason that I'm thinking of his career and plans that he needed to work to save money and he was doing very good on his job and I don't want to be a destruction.”

“I think, I ran out of choices that I can't be helpful at all.” I cried – our table beginning to submerge in silence once more. I keep to be strong but every time I think of Romeo and how great he was as a person – I start to falter. My Romeo doesn't deserve this, he deserves better.

“And what's worse I can't even go to his wake and funeral to see him for the last time.” Mom strolls and cupped my cheeks, Carly started crying too.

“Never blame yourself about all the things that happened – you are a good son, a companion and you did nothing wrong – it was all destiny's fate and no one can stop it.” wiping my tears with her thumbs and kissed me on the forehead, dad was standing behind squeezing my shoulders.

“I treated Romeo like my own – he's possibly your guardian angel now and will never leave your side again, forever,” he told.

I'm wonderstruck about what dad had spoken – from his last sentence. What if that's the real meaning of our pact ‘together forever’ that we'll be only together for a short time and Romeo was destined to be bound to death – and he'll remain in my heart, forever.

But still, the universe was so cruel.

Carly stand up from her seat and joined my parents and we're now in a family hug – breakfast time is always the best hours to make quality time with each member in your home before starting the day with the basic routine. After the meal, I intake my medicines and locked myself in my room, wearing Romeo's jacket calming my mood.

I jerked the picture frame from my table – with the photograph from our junior's prom the same day we've become boyfriends and reminiscing one of the happiest days of my life. I wiped the single tear fell from my left eye – sending Romeo all the prayers and love on his journey home back to heaven.

My phone's chiming then I groped it, notifications from our high school's site online. Romeo served the topic of everyone as our alma mater released an official statement extending solace and condolences to Halliday's family – he was one of the pride and honor during our time. I started reading comments and most were indisputably shocked.

Gregory Reid
» This is heartbreaking.. sending all my condolences to the family and friends

James McEntee
» Bro, you will be missed.

Samantha Melo
» OMG! We're not absolutely ready for this news – so saddening.

Gelli Santos
» Please tell me this isn't real @Kris Lucas

Astro Lucio
» I'm home to see you, bro.

Astro Lucio
» @Kris Lucas How are you?

I jumped panicking when Gelli and Astro started mentioning me in the comment section – no other knew about our relationship except my family and Romeo's and some of his friends – but not the entire batch. My eyes bulged as comments were about me now.

Jason Rodriguez
» You'll forever live in our hearts – you will be remembered, bro.

Gelli Santos
» @Kris Lucas

Gregory Reid
» Why you guys keep mentioning Kris?

Gregory Reid
» What's his relation to Romeo?

Jason Rodriguez
» ???

Gelli Santos
» @Kris Lucas was Romeo's boyfriend!!!

Astro Lucio
» They're together since high school

Gregory Reid
» Woah! @Kris Lucas

Now, the whole school knows our big secret – there's no point hiding it anymore. Romeo would be happy and I will be happier if we've had exposed it sooner and not now that it's all too late – it turns out to be one of my biggest regrets. My heart is in pain and I think nothing can heal it not even time.

Debby Francisco
» Condolences to the family and the boyfriend @Kris Lucas #shocking

James McEntee
» It's not your typical Romeo and Juliet love story because it's both Romeo and Romeo #nohate #lovewins @Kris Lucas

I keep reading and most were positive and encouraging – never in my life other people cared for me and Romeo didn't experience the same support these people giving during he was still alive – which he needed it most.

Reactions keep flooding and I am so flattered, I continued browsing the endless sprouting of comments when I remembered a name – that could possibly help me visit on his vigil or just his funeral.

I rashly put my shoes on when a knock on my door surprised me, taking a few strides and opened it, it was mom standing –

“I'm only checking if you're fine, maybe you wanted to talk or do something, kindly tell us.” I smiled and snatched my phone.

“I'm okay mom, I have the best family and I couldn't ask for more.” walking back to the door, she nodded.

“Where are you going?” she asked, studying my confident demeanor – a sign of hope and trust, then I grinned widely.

“To someone who could probably help me sneak to see Romeo.”