Chapter 23 - All Too Well (Present)

I have placed my medical result inside my wardrobe secretly at the very bottom of my clothes, Romeo is not here yet, but he'll be home soon. Spilling some capsules on my palm and started my daily intake of medicines. Anxiety keeps rushing through my blood and I comforted myself by crying.

The door swung open and arranging his shoes on the rack. I inhaled deeply, drying my tears off. He walks closer to me but he only set his things on the table and walked straight to the bathroom taking off his clothes.

Now it feels like I'm unknown — some kind of invisible and unimportant. How could I tell him about my health if he was acting strange?

Laying in my bed and scrolling online while Romeo is crouching, putting on his socks then positioned next to me, back rested on the headboard and grabbing the mystery book he was reading. I rolled over my back against him.

"Will you do not talk at me like ever?" I asked, shutting my phone's screen and my hands slipped under my head.

"No, I thought you would like not to be distracted." I keep my position and trying to cope up with the atmosphere.

"Sorry if I didn't come - I know someone had been accompanied you, right?" his tone was serious and my brows formed into one line — what the hell he was talking about.

"Someone who is worth sharing your time." he pissed me off, making my heart, even more, devastated my breath's breaking and my eyes glistening with water.

"If you are talking again about Daniel, you must be sorry, ”

“Because I went all alone, Romeo." I changed my posture swiftly and now I'm facing him, he was not bothered and still reading from his book.

"Really?" clicking his tongue twice and flipped on the next page which is very unprofessional.

"Because you were predictably happy getting on, in his car." he raised his voice slightly and I could sense he was mad - but he was only reaping it all, from his mistaken accusations.

"Where were you when it happened?"

"I saw it with my bare eyes!"

"Yes, I get into his car but only to tell him to keep away from me and I'm not hanging out with him anymore — Satisfied?" and I snatched his book carelessly, raising my body and positioned like him, I threw it at the edge of the bed, he closed his eyes and his lips crumple.

"He didn't drive me to the hospital, I called a cab myself and we were off."

"Now, tell me? Where were you when it all happened?" I added, He glanced but never said a word, I am shaking - never in the whole year of our relationship we had an argument — a real fight. I know this is a stupid one but nerve-racking.

"Of course, you turned away and now you're starting again a stupid fight with your lousy plot," I screamed, but before I could off from my bed he tackled me, knocking me down.

"I'm not stupid, Kris!"

"A man knows when something is about to happen, so, you can't blame me not to loathe that Daniel," he added, his eyes powered consummately with hostility, I chuckled petulantly.

"Stop showing a little bit of nobility - your anger had driven you over too much to abominate Daniel, which in the first place he hadn't done anything to us."

"You started harvesting hatred because it is what you've had sown." he loosens his grips and I started to move, sitting up against him and sniffing.

"Would you enumerate to me please, what could possibly arise if I keep hanging out with him?" He can't even tell his reason — Romeo's complexion ceased but clenching his teeth. I don't want to have a quarrel with him but he pushes me to my limit.

"You shouldn't find for deeper meaning about me and Daniel, you know I don't have any single friend and maybe it's time for me to have at least one."

"But you should have known that you have a boyfriend and I got jealous." I stand up while his head bowed.

"Both are different things —  you are my boyfriend and you have my love and he's just a friend. — that's all." I tried to explain to soothes his angry emotion.

"But I do not trust him." he looks up at me and stands up — the distance that separates from us was the matrimonial bed in between.

"But do you trust me?" I spat.

Silence spread for a moment and I nod shakingly - he holds his tongue. "Is it for the reason that you think Daniel is better than you?  — "

"Yes!" he screamed - halting me. I keep myself sane and to be understandable.

"Very — If you were only on my shoe, you'll realize how severe it is for me. I guess Daniel's pinky finger is bigger than my total existence."

"I have a splendid messed up family — a perfectly disordered life," Romeo screamed. We have already discussed this - that I'm not going to swap him over a crown. I am now holding a gold - and Romeo was my gold. And I'll never ever let him go to choose some unvalued rocks.

"Okay, listen - I don't care if you think he was better and you just underestimated yourself to be ordinary — but you are special to me."

"No, that's not how it easily works — the real world. For now, you might think I'm special to you but later on, if you keep hanging out with him, you'll realize he was better, ”

“Because he is actually better." I don't know if this guy in front of me is Romeo, my boyfriend. He was talking crazy — nonsense. That only made my feelings worse!

"F#*% your conclusion! - if you could hear what you're talking about, it was clearly absurd! Are you high? — "

"No! — but you keep me high!" he screams.

I facepalm and shake it sideways. I turned around and grabbed my keys and snatched my phone on the bed. He walked towards me clasping my right arm — too close that our noses would be touched.

"What are you doing? Are you leaving?" his eyes bulging and his minty breath stroking my nose.

"Yes! and you need to cool down!" brushing off his hand and I put on my shoes, I'm oblivious what had just gotten inside of his mind why he was like this — crap!

"Just say the words and we're over!" he retaliated, I could tell he is not fooling around. I gulped and wet my lips before facing him again.

"I'm not giving up on this relationship — and we both know that it is not what we wanted to happen." I gave him my brightest smile and bit my lip, he is gawking.

"If you were scared losing me, I am even more scared losing you, Romeo." his demeanor hush.

"Then stay." his tone pleading.

"Sorry — but tonight we needed some space. I've had so much today Romeo if you only knew and I can't just take furthermore, dealing with this insanity." tears gushing from my eyes and he clutches my hand.

"This is my choice, for now," I added,

"Where are you going?" I didn't say a word as I strut off and unattended grabbed my bag. He froze — left standing with sadness.

"To Daniel's?" he added.

"If that's what you wished, Yes!" and the door blasted while the student strolling towards my direction shook his head.

As I'm walking outside, I can't comfort myself as waters keep rushing down my cheeks. I may look like a real alive shit roaming down the street — I don't know where to go now as I was only held up away by my emotions and anger.

I'm not so sure about this idea, I wish it will help Romeo to think clearly and positively, and I hope we're not started growing distant. I am solidly hurt and devastated and what's even disastrous — I hadn't got the chance, to tell the truth about my health condition.